PC,

I'm giving up.....
I feel I"ve lost you...
I feel I've lost my T...
I feel I've lost my love.
A love I never really had........

These feelings aren't true but what is true is that I believe them and am pushing them away thinking they are pushing me away.......

How often do I e-mail my therapist I keep saying well she replies sometimes but if I do it as often as i NEED to she won't like me anymore.....

God I don't seem to have anyone anymore....why do I feel I've lost the support???????

SINKING SINKING

SINKING

[ECHOES]

(( moonkin ))

we're still here.

have you discussed with T how much email would be too much? or have a plan so that you are free to email as often as you need to and she will agree to tell you (gently) if it does become something that she finds difficult to keep up with or have extra time for?

I think wriing is therapeuitc whether we send it or not. Keep writing!

[Perna]

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These feelings aren't true but what is true is that I believe them.......

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Well, stop that! Why believe things you know aren't true? When I get stuck in a bad place I decide to believe that "something" (interesting, good, helpful, whatever) is going to happen to me "soon" and I start looking forward to it. It gets to be fun hurrying around the next corner believing it might be there. Eventually it does show up :-)

I still remember one of the first times I decided something was going to happen, went out to get the newspaper at the curb and found a key in the gutter! I tried the key in my front door and it fit but wouldn't turn. So I carried the key around all day to see what I'd find that the key would "fit" (have the answer, what's the question :-) Something I'd been wrestling with awhile came up again that day and I realized what the "answer" was and decided that was the key/keyhole combo for the day. I wouldn't have been looking for it if I hadn't found that key.

Find yourself a "key" of some sort (I use to take $10 and go to an "antiques" marketplace with 300+ stalls and find what one thing I wanted/needed -- works well in grocery stores too; if you could buy one item for yourself, what would it be?).

Like Echoes says, we're here, think of something/somehow you could feel supported by us; we'll give it to you 110% I guarantee. But it's your belief.

[DocClyde]

(((dustin)))

Yeah, we are still here...

dustin sweetheart......you still have your friends here......you'll be ok.......most folks form a big attatchment to their therapists...in time you will set healthy boundaries.........love you

I just wanted to say I was sorry, I didn't mean to seem like I was yelling at you all...and I didn't want to seem like I meant you guys left me...I just "felt" that way...inside...oh well stupid me.........

dustin.....you have nothing to apologize for........we understand and we love you........

[stefano]

Dustin... I'm crying so much for myself, I can spill a few tears for you. Don't lose hope, if you can.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( Dustin ))))))))))))))