I'm feeling fine today. I do worry a little about the tiny things. I'm sure the cold makes me immobile. I have stuff to do and buy and I don't feel like going out, also it's raining. I'm just going to take it easy.

[regretful]

A little better than yesterday. A lot of re-learning...how to focus on the here and now; how to get things done one at a time; how to stop my thoughts from going into catastrophe mode...A friend of mine reminded me yesterday of how rich and valuable life can be. That thought has helped me - I wish all of you here a moment or two of peace today.

[WishIWereAStone]

Not great today, working but my mind keeps drifting to the hopelessly endless things that are working against me and there is something new it seems everyday. Waiting for my breaking point but it hasn't come as of yet.

Originally Posted by Etherin

I feel similarly. I see people creating and meeting their goals and doing things that they enjoy. Meanwhile, I, too, have no motivation, no interest in doing much, no hobbies...it's terrible. Basically wasting life. What are we to do?

It is possible to start small, to pick a topic and stay with that. If you like American history buy a book about that meant for children (I'm not saying that you are stupid, only pointing to the fact that we "depressives" have little energy). If you don't like American history, pick another topic and stick to it, pick a very small topic if you have to and be proud of yourself. Please don't compare yourself with others.

Are you sure you don't have any hobbies? Do you like to swim, to cook, to walk, to take a bus ride ...?

Originally Posted by will19

I feel like my life is alright, but I feel very unfortunate with my social life. It's like I am totally unlucky in that area of my life.

If you like to be alone, that is OK for you. If not, then you have to start to learn some social skills.

I feel "outside" to some degree as well. My energy is low and I cannot manage to be up to date with everything.

I have started to tell myself that that is OK as long as I am satisfied. It is my life!

Originally Posted by Patagonia

Yeah definitely taking up space in this life for no good reason.

Nobody is taking up space for no reason! We all have our own worth and that is good!

Like nikon, I've had a lot of free floating anger lately, and seem to be looking for a sparring match with people in my life. Granted, I'm a meek, soft-spoken person, so my version of "sparring" probably just comes off as passive aggression. But still, that's not like me.

One of my tasks at work is editing scripts for educational videos, and I've noticed myself being more critical in my edits lately. I also left a group conversation without saying anything the other day. Golly, is there no limit to my unbridled rage?

Well, so it is about me and my day: I went for a walk. It felt good. But I have felt very tired afterward. I try to not be disappointed because of the tiredness. I have to look at the positive that I do go for these walks.

[mulan]

Originally Posted by Singer47

It is possible to start small, to pick a topic and stay with that. If you like American history buy a book about that meant for children

Not for me, but... Sorry if I am not suppose to steal it.

I have tried to learn something about wwii and russian revolution, I have watch half a documentary and read half a history magazine, it's been taking me months. I also wanted to read more, been only able to read 3 books and a half the entire year, and this is supose to be one of the few years with more free time in my career.
I've like to invest in music learning, or at least to join a choir (I like to sing, singer ), but I don't know if I have time, specially in the future with my studies.

[Rose76]

I'm basically okay. I've got to make this at least an okay day.

[Angelique67]

I'm very nervous about going to my apartment on Saturday. But it has to be done. I don't know what we should do about all the cartons. Some can be stored but not all. If only I could have had a yard sale, but I can't because of the evil scum in the downstairs apartment. Actually, I'd rather not come back here. I'd rather just go back and stay there, even with the rodents, etc.

got my head back. don't think i'll be falling into the pit this coming week. never thought i could be thankful, but i am thankful for my classmate with whom i had a frank conversation about mental health, and who took me for a drive. and i had a cup of coffee. i still felt the need for 10 hours of sleep last night, but i think it will be ok. there are now only a few things stressing me and i had a chat with most of the people i need to be in contact with. the rest is busy work.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Originally Posted by Etherin

I feel similarly. I see people creating and meeting their goals and doing things that they enjoy. Meanwhile, I, too, have no motivation, no interest in doing much, no hobbies...it's terrible. Basically wasting life. What are we to do?

Love to everyone on the thread. Hope you all had a decent day.

Sorry quite a few people are feeling out of it socially. You all sound interesting to me. You have self-knowledge. You're not showing off or putting other people down.
Not being horrible is a big thing!

[mulan]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

Not being horrible is a big thing!

Is it anyway? I found out that being manipulative in the right circunstances is a great skill to have... Lying when you have to, hide stuff, saying what others want to ear, may be better than worst.

For instances it can win people. It is a valuable social skill. That I don't have.

Maybe this is not being horrible. Most people are not horrible. So I guess, saying not being it is a good thing is setting the bar too low.

I am not trying to be mean while saying this, nothing personal, you were trying to be supportive, but just my cynic view on life.

And you don't know me, nor where you talking about me personally...

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Yep, we're all different and I can only speak for myself. Horrible is off-putting to me. So is lying. So is being manipulative.

(No reflection on you, Mulan).

The ability to lie well seems an odd ambition.

[mulan]

Originally Posted by Purple,Violet,Blue

Yep, we're all different and I can only speak for myself. Horrible is off-putting to me. So is lying. So is being manipulative.

(No reflection on you, Mulan).

The ability to lie well seems an odd ambition.

I am not saying lying in order to get anybody hurt. But I see many people doing those kind of things and some of them are indeed very compassionated ones.
I tend to want to say thruthfull things in social settings and it mostly gets me in trouble. Like saying I don't know something when I am being evaluated... Rhetoric, make things turn to your side and look good in the picture, is what I am trying to say. When you get oversteped and overlooked for not knowing how to do that...
Even a good psychiatrist has to know how to manipulate their patients. Isn't therapy some sort of manipulation also?
They lead you to where they want you to get.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

OK, yes, rhetoric is a different thing.

Had a pretty good day today. Did an 8 hour shift, then came home and did a workout. Now I'm just relaxing for the evening, and looking forward to a day off tomorrow. Sending hugs to those struggling.

[Patagonia]

This plummet in the temp, not being able to get warm & barely any sun is taking its toll!

[JustTvTroping]

I remembered some songs that I haven't listened to for years. I just got done listening to them and I haven't felt this serene in a long time. Some of my most precious treasures within my grasp again. I can't believe I almost forgot about them.

I'm feeling fine but these voices started again. What do they want from me? I hear my name being called and them trying to talk to me. I just need to calm down...

Where to start...I feel like crap.

[Kote]

Yesterday morning was pretty bad. My mom left early for her job so I didn't get to see her & get my daily morning hug from her so I had to wake up my sister and ask for one. I ended up crying in her and my other sisters arms.

I feel pretty good this morning. But I can feel the depression creeping in. I can feel myself over thinking and my mood getting slightly darker and darker. It's a struggle to stay positive but I'm trying.

[katydid777]

I woke up real early with a bad H/A, and my bones ache so bad. I already took a hot shower to help my bones. I am just not with it today, but my husband and I are putting up sheetrock, and trying to get everything we can done before our son, and his girlfriend come next weekend. Lord please give me the strength I need to get things done.

[WishIWereAStone]

Last evening it my wife's turn to have a meltdown, so I put aside my own stuff to take care of her. Had a crappy night's sleep ( bad cough from a cold ) and now back at work, just trying to make it through the day without nodding off.