confessions of little turtle with love

Little turtle - help

I posted but it’s a “bad” post

I don’t like my post

“Bad paws”

I’m betting little turtle will log off before he reads my post

And that I’ll delete my post

I don’t like doing that, it hurts my paws

And my brain

it is ok fuzzy...

Thanks little turtle

how are you doing fuzzy...
how are you all doing...
I am ok after my 87th bd..

my big depression breakdown in 1973 was awful...
I still feel guilty about letting my family down...
if it had been cancer I wouldn't feel that way..
what a screwed up world...that mental illness
is something different...it sure is...we just don't know
what causes these depressions...so I tended to blame
myself...well today I am being kinder to myself...
I just couldn't help it...I couldn't help it...
go easy on yourself little turtle...you have a mental illness..
and in certain ways it is so much harder to deal with
than many medical problems...

(((((little turtle))))) having a mental illness is not your fault

thanks whispershadow...

how about having an AS IS bus...
I am on it...I have done bad things..
bad things have happened to me..
but I am not a bad person...
I was not a bad boy ....

My day was just like any other day. I cannot even write what happened to me without parodying myself. I am losing my life span.

no one else wants on the AS IS BUS....

everyone has to survive their parents...

Thanks for the words of encouragement, little turtle.

Thank you little turtle...

Indeed. It’s a rough road for some of us (crazy face)

And some of us have to also survive very sub optimal bullies irl posing as therapists even attempting some sort of (long term ) re PUsing

Thank you for being here little turtle and for not re PUsing anyone here

PS it’s almost like a curfew in this house, no talking for fuzzy bears after 8.00 pm

But fuzzy bears get tired typing online

I just had an idea....I continue to suffer because of my very serious
breakdown....when I stopped my private practice...so every so often i
go back to that and cry....so it is not going away...so what I am going to
do in the future is to just cry and move on until the next time...it probably
is not going to be fixed...a lot of things don't get fixed...I just need to move
on as soon as I can...and not spend so much time there...

fuzzy posted----PS it’s almost like a curfew in this house, no talking for fuzzy bears after 8.00 pm


fuzzy why is this so...

Papa bear watches tv, which I don’t like.. and needs a lot of quiet time

If I talk, he basically gets stressed ...

I’ve never been a fan of the tv, the MU was addicted to it

Little Turtle, you're a survivor. All of us are. We lived in a hellish world (some are still in it) and we're still plugging along. Be proud of that.

And I continue to suffer because,once, I made a mistake....

to all the judgers in this world

And yes.. horror.. ...some of those are doctors (irl)

“Bad” paws

Little turtle and all reading or posting in this thread are survivors

(((((little turtle)))))
Like you said you need to cry and move on...and anyway it wasn't your fault that you broke down....you shouldn't blame yourself. The imp thing is that you recovered and could do private practice again. It was bc of your courage and perseverance that you could bounce back. Maybe it took you four years to get well but it's not a long time. For some people they need years to recover. You should be proud of yourself.
We all love you and care about you. Hugs.

How do we move on
Why do they all say to move on
But they don’t say how

For little turtle he should move on from blaming himself for his MI. He shouldn't suffer currently by going back and beat himself up for those four years he lost bc of his breakdown. On the other hand he should be proud of himself that he had the courage to go on and finally take up private practice once again.

thank you all for your kindness...