Originally Posted by lotusblossom19

Really sucks not being able to cry when you really want/need to do so.

I have that problem, too. I don't know why that is. To me it feel like being queasy and then not able to throw up. I remembered I had that happen to me last week on my last day of my vacation. I wanted to cry. Tears came but the vocal crying just couldn't come.

I took a shower today and feel absolutely gross.

my back is really stiff because of fibro pain and honestly, I wish I could unscrew it, throw it away, and screw on a new one.

I was meant to cook BBQ ribs for dinner, but since my overeating is 100 times worse than before, I just called someone up to deliver me a mcdonalds at dinner time. absolutely no will power....
again no sleep, making it another sleepless week.

some of my halloween decoeration arived today, so need to see about someone coming to set it up (probably next week)

raining

[Rose76]

My bf comes home from the hosp. tomorrow. He's better. I'm feeling tired all the time. I believe a lot of it is just depression.

[PsychNitrous]

I'm so tired today, this depression is just drowning me. I want to give up on everything, and I feel like no one really understands how bad it really is. I'm angry that I've never received the care I deserve, especially when I see others getting that care every single day. I'm angry that I'm being pushed out of my comfort zone, even though I know it's good for me. I just want to get to and stay at a place where I feel OK for a while. I don't want to push myself to learn something new right now, I just want to be comfortable. Why does it seem like that's just too much to ask for?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

Feeling depressed and like I don't want to go on like this.

I know how you feel

I haven't been able to cry over my bf yet. I guess I'm pushing any feelings and thoughts out of my mind. I'm afraid I'll give in soon to the depression over it ending. Otherwise, I've had health concerns, another seizure. I'm so tired. Hugs to all struggling out there

Things are going relatively well for me lately. This was a grueling week, with getting back into the swing of things after being away from the previous week. Not feeling depressed lately. That's great, but there will probably come a time when I will feel down again. Sometimes it's scary when things are going well.

[88Butterfly88]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I know how you feel

Thanks fuzzy, hugs to you too.

[June55]

Feeling sad and negative self talk and unmotivated

[Rose76]

I'm not doing too well.

[Mountaindewed]

One of the symptoms of my SAD is that I get very cold. It’s been very bad ever since my SAD started a couple weeks ago. Besides the depression I’ve been freezing lately. I swear stores have the air on in 50 degree weather. I decided to stay in the car yesterday because the Walmart is always so cold. I’m wearing my Columbia puffer jacket even in the 50’s. I’ve had my thyroid checked. It’s fine. I’m not anemic. My mom said it’s just because I’ve lost a lot of weight. There’s nothing I can do except to layer up.

Does anyone else expierence a severe intolerance to cold with SAD?

[Deilla]

Having a difficult time. I'm sad and lonely. I'm trying to sleep but I can't stay asleep. I'm sick with a bad cough too, which doesn't help.

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

One of the symptoms of my SAD is that I get very cold. It’s been very bad ever since my SAD started a couple weeks ago. Besides the depression I’ve been freezing lately. I swear stores have the air on in 50 degree weather. I decided to stay in the car yesterday because the Walmart is always so cold. I’m wearing my Columbia puffer jacket even in the 50’s. I’ve had my thyroid checked. It’s fine. I’m not anemic. My mom said it’s just because I’ve lost a lot of weight. There’s nothing I can do except to layer up.

Does anyone else expierence a severe intolerance to cold with SAD?

Possibly, I don't know. If I end up not getting out and moving around enough I get cold. Good you had your thyroid checked, because that will cause you to be cold if it is low. Maybe take some vitamin D? I've heard almost all people are deficient in that, but I've only heard that, don't know if its true.

[Rose76]

I brought my bf home from the hospital today. We've been cranky with each other.

Now I feel nauseated. We had ice cream for dinner. My left foot is back hurting again. If this were a regular job, I'ld call out sick.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling somewhat better. I accomplished three big tasks this weekend: I showered, took out the trash and changed the litter box. Now I just need to go to urgent care for my cough. And pick up meds. Then I can relax. I guess if I could sleep without coughing I would feel better.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by 2daffodils

Possibly, I don't know. If I end up not getting out and moving around enough I get cold. Good you had your thyroid checked, because that will cause you to be cold if it is low. Maybe take some vitamin D? I've heard almost all people are deficient in that, but I've only heard that, don't know if its true.

You are the second person today to suggest Vitamin D to me. I will defiantly check it out. Thanks.

[Rose76]

I've been cranky with my bf all day. I feel unappreciated, and it makes me mad. I just had no patience with him today. I may have to bow out of this situation.

[Sunflower123]

It hurts when your family doesn’t understand mental illness and treats you as lesser than. I built another support system long ago and yet some days the hurt is fresh. Usually when I have to deal with said family.

I’m thankful for PC and you folks who do get it. It makes me feel less alone in this.

Best wishes for a peaceful week.

I've had a difficult week. I have an ill father, a son who won't come home, broke up with the bf and miss him.... this isn't meant to be poor me but everything is feeling too much. I went to church and it was difficult yet something really strange happened this year. I can't speak of it here. I'm reading the posts and wish you all strength through the depression. Glad mountain that you will try the vitamin d! and eggs are good for you so we all do the best we can I guess

[Kote]

Hi. It's been a while since I've been on PC. I was feeling better but that was because I basically shoved everything deep down & pretended I was ok. But this post isn't about me. It's about my sister.

She's 20. She's been dealing with depression & anxiety for about a year. She's been on meds for about 4 or 5 months. She still has troubles though. She's had as many jobs in the last year as I've ever had. She does ok for about a month & then she can't take it anymore. She has few friends & rarely talks to or spends time with them. She's not going to school. She has no motivation. She compares herself to me & our younger sister. Typical stuff I suppose. Doesn't make it any easier when I hear her wailing in her room & talking to our parents about it like I just did. I wish I could make it go away for her. I wish I could carry her burden. It kills me inside that she's going through this. I cry often just thinking about it. She's my baby sister & I'm afraid I'm going to get a call or come home one day to find she's hurt herself. I know she likely won't do it, but it doesn't stop the thoughts from entering my head.

Originally Posted by Kote

Hi. It's been a while since I've been on PC. I was feeling better but that was because I basically shoved everything deep down & pretended I was ok. But this post isn't about me. It's about my sister.

She's 20. She's been dealing with depression & anxiety for about a year. She's been on meds for about 4 or 5 months. She still has troubles though. She's had as many jobs in the last year as I've ever had. She does ok for about a month & then she can't take it anymore. She has few friends & rarely talks to or spends time with them. She's not going to school. She has no motivation. She compares herself to me & our younger sister. Typical stuff I suppose. Doesn't make it any easier when I hear her wailing in her room & talking to our parents about it like I just did. I wish I could make it go away for her. I wish I could carry her burden. It kills me inside that she's going through this. I cry often just thinking about it. She's my baby sister & I'm afraid I'm going to get a call or come home one day to find she's hurt herself. I know she likely won't do it, but it doesn't stop the thoughts from entering my head.

I'm sorry you are hurting for her. I hope you can get some sleep and wish you strength for another day.

[avlady]

I also had a bad day today and it is my wedding anniversary. i am so depressed and don't know why. i often get depressed and am manic i think. i am on about 13 pills a day and am scitzophrenic and biploar. Maybe i expected too much

wasn't present for most of the day (most of the day actually being like 3 hours in the afternoon)

so I can't comment on it, because what I do remember is actually really vague

it's almost like having no power

alive but unable to move..

[Rose76]

I'm doing better than I was doing.