[Deilla]

Feeling pretty sad and miserable. It's been an awful day.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Feeling pretty sad and miserable. It's been an awful day.

I’m sorry you are having a tough time. I hope things turn around soon. Sending big hugs and supportive vibes.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m sorry you are having a tough time. I hope things turn around soon. Sending big hugs and supportive vibes.

Thank you! Today is much better. I got a shower this morning. It's so nice. And I have plans to cook, do light housework, play games and just relax. I'm trying to be more compassionate with myself today.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Thank you! Today is much better. I got a shower this morning. It's so nice. And I have plans to cook, do light housework, play games and just relax. I'm trying to be more compassionate with myself today.

Yay!! That’s great news!!

[emilyco]

I'm trying to stay on top of my low mood. I've been feeling more and more depressed so I've been skipping class more, sleeping day and night, and isolating myself socially the last couple weeks. I can tell things are getting worse so I'm trying to make more plans to get out of the house. A friend asked me to do something today and I was so close to cancelling again like I've been doing continuously, but I know that will only make things worse so I'm working up the energy to put myself together.

My anxiety is also bad so I've been trying to make an appointment with a psychiatrist without much luck.

[PsychNitrous]

Devestated. After almost 2 months out of work I finally got a job, that initially was supposed to be part-time. Before I even started they offered me full time instead. It's been almost a month of things going well, and today my supervisor told me that they aren't going to be able to give me full time. I feel like I'm never going to be able to develop the skills I need to succeed in this line of work. I just want to go home and cry.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by PsychNitrous

Devestated. After almost 2 months out of work I finally got a job, that initially was supposed to be part-time. Before I even started they offered me full time instead. It's been almost a month of things going well, and today my supervisor told me that they aren't going to be able to give me full time. I feel like I'm never going to be able to develop the skills I need to succeed in this line of work. I just want to go home and cry.

I’m so sorry this happened to you. Sending big hugs and supportive vibes.

[Sunflower123]

I’m really depressed today with SI. May be SAD rearing it’s ugly head. Idk but it’s bad. Searching for reasons to hang around.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

The maintenance man came back to work this morning. I thought that he was returning tomorrow. But he was gone for a few days. I felt hurt when he didn't thank me for filling in for him. I felt like I had worked pretty hard when some crisis happened. And, on top of that, I didn't want to take his place because I don't feel qualified to do it. That guy seems like he has no people skills whatsoever. I think that a lot of people at where I work are not crazy about him. There was another maintenance man that worked with him a few years ago and he was great. A hard worker and a very nice guy. It was too bad that he got let go.

[PsychNitrous]

I don't know why this is making me spiral so quickly. Maybe it's because I was finally happy, and I just can't see how I can stay at this job and be able to manage all my medical issues. I'm so angry at having this opportunity snatched away from me so suddenly. I'm so tired of trying to find a place I fit, I don't want to do it again. I'm actually having some SI thoughts. I'm safe, but I needed to say it, even if no one reads it.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’m really depressed today with SI. May be SAD rearing it’s ugly head. Idk but it’s bad. Searching for reasons to hang around.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

Sorry you're feeling so bad. Maybe get in touch with your care team. Sending good thoughts your way. (((hugs)))

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult time sleeping. I have lots of housework to take care of. I just want to get it done. Maybe I can sleep a little later. I think this Prednisone is making me wired and weird.

[PsychNitrous]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Sorry you're feeling so bad. Maybe get in touch with your care team. Sending good thoughts your way. (((hugs)))

Thanks Deilla, and Jennifer too. I do plan on calling my tdoc today, hopefully she has some advice. Things just keep piling on.

[Deilla]

I sent my sister a hello text and her response upset me. It was secretive and "Oh, matter of fact"-ish. Then I started thinking about how excluded from the family I am. I'm not doing well. I feel defective and unlovable.

[SlumberKitty]

Had a day where the depression wasn't so bad. Seems to have come back again today with a vengeance. Oh well. I'm sure I'll survive it. kit.

[Randle McMurphy]

i've had a good day, I coped with whatever the world was throwing at me up until I ran out of energy and got incredibly tired. but I did good up until that point!

[88Butterfly88]

Depression wasn't as bad as usual today.

[KYWoman]

SAD getting the best of me and my depression. Two days of rain, decreasing temps, high winds blew down lots of leaves last night and the rain accumulation so far has been close to 3 inches. I don't want to fight depression anymore.

It was a not a feel good day today. Early this morning at work I had missed a telephone meeting that I was supposed to be at. And I was supposed to be a speaker. It turns out that I will do it next week. And after that I had set up the auditorium for a training session. I did what a diagram said to do. It wasn't good enough! Well, at least that training session will not start until next Tuesday. So there's time to make corrections.

Other than that, the day went OK. Went for an hour bike ride after work. Today is the last day of riding the bike after work because it's going to get dark earlier. Kind of sad that it's over.

[Sunflower123]

Back on my feet after going through a bad time with depression. Hopefully it’s not SAD rearing it’s ugly head. I tend to do better when I’m productive and I’m slowly getting back up to speed. I have some trips/activities coming up that I’m looking forward to including hiking in the Smokies, a drum circle and seeing the Christmas lights at Biltmore.

Can you believe it’s already November? It will be Christmas before you know it.

Warm wishes to all and hugs for those that need them.

tough week, very depressed and lots of blackouts (so depressed I didn't come here)

wednesday was halloween, not a bad night I suppose, though a lot of my plans (all of them?), fell through one way or another

still reading the sisterhood, reading it slowly... not so much enjoying it, but when it's finished I will go on to something better I am sure

[SlumberKitty]

Pretty depressed today but glad it's Friday because that means two days of rest coming up. I want to sleep. Kit.

[Deilla]

Did a lot of housework today. I feel tired. I'm in a lot of pain. Not sure why. Will try to sleep it off.

[Sunflower123]

Doing well...not happy but not down. That might be the blessing. I’d welcome a few spells of bliss or pure happiness. Wouldn’t we all? Some sleep disturbances (between 3-6 hours a night) but nothing I can’t handle.

I see my daughter in 2 weeks when we go hiking and in less then 3 when she comes home for Thanksgiving break. Yay! Missing her today.

I get my test results back on the 12th and am getting a second opinion on my hand from the top guy in town on the 14th.

Spending a quiet day at home cleaning and relaxing with a good book.

Warm wishes to everyone to have a peaceful weekend and sending hugs to everyone that needs them.

I had a pretty grueling week this week. There's going to be so much going on for Monday and Tuesday and I'm dreading it. Woke up feeling pretty bad this morning. Right now my clothes are being washed and will go to the dryers pretty soon. After three weeks, some washers and dryers at my complex have not been repaired. I had emailed the HOA about it. They do absolutely nothing and we pay pretty good amount every month to them.

I talked to my friend last night, asking him if he'd like to come over. I get the feeling he won't, just like last week. I may have to split up with him. I can't go on like this. Though it's going to be hard to lose the only friend have. Lots of times he brings me down more than he lifts me up. We don't have much in common and he's more like my late abusive father than a good buddy.

It's hard typing for me this morning because of fingertip cuts that I get when it's really dry outside. I love this time of year, but that's the one aspect I don't like is that the fingertip cuts happen a lot.