[sky457]

Been some time...still alone...wishing the games would stop

Wishing for peace....

[Deilla]

Saw my med provider this morning. That went well. Took a long nap today and played online games. Going to bed early tonight.

barely functioned today.

what else can I say.. I really didn't get anything done apart from eat

[Deilla]

Really stressed tonight. I pushed it this week with appointments and house cleaning. Tomorrow I have professional cleaners coming. I don't feel like my house is ready for them but I've done the best I can. I organized as much as possible. I just have to accept things as they are and try to relax. I'm stressed about trying to get out to pick up meds. I think tomorrow, I just want to relax after the cleaning.

A weird day. I had to give a safety presentation this morning by phone conferencing; and when I was ready to give the presentation, there were technical difficulties. So it had to be postponed. And then there was a phone meeting at noon I missed out on.

Tonight I was watching TV and then the power went out suddenly. The power came back on in 15 minutes. I needed to use the hot tub in the pool area because my back is sore. My back felt fine after the workout last night, but this morning it flared up when I was shaving. And it's been sore ever since. The power came back on when I was in the pool area, so that was nice.

[Rose76]

I'm wasting the mornings. I have to get more done.

[-Astral-]

whats the point

[Deilla]

Very stressed out today. The cleaning was stressful, waited forever for them to show up, couldn't relax after they left. I'm beating myself up. Don't think I will do this again. My MI is too bothersome.

Not very busy at work today, but a bit crazy. Seemed like people were in bad moods and demanding. I don't like being at work when it's like that.

I worked out after work even with a sore back. It went alright and it seemed like the soreness went away while I was working out. But I feel it now. Went to the pool area and used the hot tub to try to make it feel better. It helped a little bit.

Got some messages from my friend. I'll ask him if he wants to come over tomorrow. As of now it's looking doubtful because he thinks that he has some cracked ribs. Always something with him. Oh well!

very depressed yesterday,

to depressed to even come on here

managed to shower and to use some of my new perfume though

feel a little better today but not much (but wanted to come on here, felt so bad for not doing it yesterday)

listening to christmas music

[katydid777]

I have not been feeling it lately.

Felt depressed today for some reason. I don't really know why. I guess I have been thinking deeply about my job lately and it seems like the people I work with are not as nice as they used to be. I keep telling myself that I like my job and the people, but lately it seems to be going downhill. I wonder if I'm kidding myself in thinking that it's a wonderful place to work, or is it depression?

Today my friend did come over. I met with him at where I go food shopping and he rode with me home. We talked for a while. It went OK, but I was thinking, "what was the big deal about having him over at my place?". It was a good time. Just as I dropped him off at the trolley station so that he can go home, he said that he had a good time except that I talked about wanting to sell my place and move. He is against it. I felt like it ruined my time when he said that. It was like a hit-and-run remark kind of thing.

In pain. That makes everything worse. Still only getting a max of 3 hrs sleep a day. Ups are that I got out for a drive today. Got my apartment clean. Son is better

[Sunflower123]

I am having a really tough time. Started new medication Friday but it hasn’t kicked in. I have been trying to force myself to go through the motions but it is hard. Talking to my daughter helps a lot. Just not in good shape as we gear up for the holidays. Missing old friends who used to be on PC and no longer are.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

I'm living in America but I am NOT FREE. My abuser is torturing me while others stand by and watch. Gee, how do you think I feel???

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Missing old friends who used to be on PC and no longer are.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

I had not made many friends on here (for PMs). There was one guy who used to come on here and we messaged each other. I really miss him a lot. There was so much he would talk about in his life that I could relate to. He just stopped writing to me. As I recall he mentioned something about wanting to end his life. I hope he didn't succeed in doing that. I hope that someday he'll write to me but it's been a good while.

Kind of down today. Quetiapine didn't get me to sleep like it should. Not hungry.

[Mountaindewed]

I have not been feeling too depressed lately. But my depression always lessens during the holidays. It’s just how it works for me.

I do feel like stress, depression, anxiety, and pressure are separate emotions for me. They do overlap but I can usually tell the difference and what I am feeling at the moment.

Nothing special going on with me today. I felt pretty bad after last night when my friend and I argued about the possibility of me wanting to sell my place and move out. I don't know why he cares about it.

My sister called me today. We didn't say much to each other.

Went on a three hour bike ride today.

[beanie baby]

I'm very depressed and lonely. I feel like crying. I feel stupid. My old pdoc moved out of state. My new pdoc dx'd me with schizoaffective-depressed type. Ive been depressed for 35 years. I thought I was psychic but apparently I was psychotic. Ive lost my whole reality. Im afraid to think. I dont know what to believe in. So depressed.

I had the day off today. Did a little shopping in the morning and got some things that I had long needed. Very happy with what I got. Took a 2 hour bike ride today. Feeling depressed that the three day weekend is over with. Last week there seemed to be some tension at work. I feel like I'm not looking forward to going back. But there's nothing stressful, as far as I can see, coming up this week. The maintenance man will be off starting Wednesday until Monday following Thanksgiving. It should be the last time he will be taking time off, as far as I know, until he retires next spring.

[katydid777]

I am doing a little better tonight, than I have been. Things went ok at my Primary Dr. apt. today, so that helped.

[Rose76]

Every day I run out of time.

[zapatoes]

Had dental work so tired now and able to eat soft food. Mouth feeling painful a little bit, but not too bad.

I don't understand how so many could be so cruel but they are...
It's a sad world and a sad reality to discover who the evil mongers are.
I wake up sad every day because of them.