An alright kind of day today for a Saturday. It seems like lately I have been waking up and getting out of bed earlier and earlier on Saturdays. I wonder why that is?

I did something different today and was very glad that I did. I called an ex co-worker of mine long distance. I wanted to call him because he had sold his condo (like I want to do) from a company that I had looked into. It was nice talking to him and he told me that the company he dealt with was very good and encouraged me to do business with them. I told him my plans as to why I want to move out and what I'm going to do. I don't know if he agreed with me on that. But he did say that I should move on if I'm at a place and not happy there.

Also I spoke to my friend and told him that I want to spend Thanksgiving by myself. He had invited me for Thanksgiving with his wife and an ex tenant of his, whom I don't know. I think that I would not feel comfortable in a set up like that.

[sky457]

catastrophically thinking again....

thinking my life is over...again

Maybe tomorrow things will be different.

[fallaximago]

Just asked my friends whether they'd like to go for a walk with me later. Not sure I want to go out myself, though.

A nice day outside for weather and I plan to go bike riding. I woke up feeling alright this morning. Lots of times I feel very depressed when I get up on a Sunday Morning. I was a bit upset when I discovered that I bought shampoo instead of conditioner that I needed at the store yesterday. I wasn't paying close attention. So I took it to the supermarket nearest me to exchange it, but they didn't have it. So I had to drive out further to go that supermarket to exchange it there. They had the conditioner and exchanged for me, no problem. But I had to wait a while in line as there were quite a few ahead of me and some problems came up with the other people in front of me.

[MickeyCheeky]

((((Everyone)))) Hugs fro everyone today.

My pain might be better because I doubled my dose of amitriptyline. Temporary solution. Hopefully tonight I won't need to do that. Not a good day. The gloominess of winter is affecting me too.

[Rose76]

Had a decent day. Went back for a nap 11 to 2 pm. I feel so tired and sleepy every day during that timeframe.

[LifelongLoner]

I did not have a very productive day. Did not get a lot of chores done other than cooking. I had registered to attend a tennis mixer at night and at the last minute wanted to cancel. Took a brief nap and went. Did not play well. In fact, was hit by balls three times! I am slow and pray that it was not done on purpose. I have arthritis and stiffen up after playing. Got home and rubbed down with Ben-Gay and took an Advil. I am still very stiff and sore. I am playing against people who are younger, stronger and better athletes. I hope that by playing more my game will gradually improve. Tennis has changed so much - the ball is hit much, much harder. Racquets are stiff and powerful. I hope that I can adjust. I may have to give it up if I cannot play the modern game. So far, I have yet to find a tennis racquet that I can comfortably play with. I am really struggling, both physically and emotionally. Maybe it's best that I give it up.

[Deilla]

Slept all day yesterday, so I'm up early. I have a feeling I'm going to sleep once the sun comes up. It's better than anything else I can do.

[Rose76]

Well, I'm up. If I can stay out of bed, I might get more done.

[MickeyCheeky]

((((Everyone))))

[fallaximago]

I need to take a freaking shower, I haven't done so in days. I feel horrible. Today, though, hasn't been that bad a day. In fact, it's been a bit more relaxed than usual. Still, I need medication and I'm going to see my psychiatrist soon to discuss this issue.

It was a pretty good day today. I had that Skype conference today at work to go over what should have been done with an error that I made. This happened because I took the maintenance man's place and I don't perform the best because I'm not experienced in it. The manager that went over things with me was very nice; and he said that he will help me all he can. However, I unfortunately put my foot in my mouth when I asked him about when will the maintenance man retire. He said that he never heard about it. Oops!

I worked out after work and it went well but a bit of a struggle. This evening went very well.

For some reason I felt like the people at my job were irritable to me. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just getting to the point that I am sick of my job and the people, but I'm not admitting it to myself? Some days are like that I guess.

From mid afternoon to late afternoon I felt like I was on a streak for little adverse things happening. Like I said I got irritated this afternoon at some people a little bit. And then I was reading on a comment section of a blog that I posted in. There were some women that came on to bash men. I don't know why they have to do that? I was very disappointed because I thought that it was a good place to go. The bashings had nothing to do with the subject matter. After that I went home to do the laundry, in which I hate to do, and the washing machine wasn't done until 25 minutes after it was supposed to be ready (total of an hour instead of 35 minutes!). I went to a fast food place for a take out (which I hate to do) and the service was very slow. At least after all of that it turned out to be an OK evening, much to my surprise.

[Rose76]

It was a busy day. I did a lot. I feel good about myself.

I took it easy yesterday. Got a good sleep. My son is over his pneumonia, my cat is de-flead (that vet was extremely expensive but its worth it). He actually tried to get away with starting by looking in my cats mouth and saying he needs a tooth pulled!

My tooth removal was difficult so it's finally healing. Not too depressed this morning.

[Deilla]

My day is pretty good. I spent some time relaxing on my patio with iced tea. Yea, in the winter. Lol! It was nice. I didn't stay too long. It was cold. At least I got some fresh air.

[Rose76]

After a busy day, I felt physically spent, but mentally wound up. That often happens after a day of being productive. So I went to bed at 11 p.m., but was awake until 4:30 a.m. Then I over-slept this morning.

That's what's so frustrating. Just when I'm upbeat and moving along nicely, addressing what I need to take care of - the insomnia kicks in.

As a kid, I could never sleep the night before the first day of school in September. My mind gets stimulated making preparations for something, and I just want to keep doing things. I don't know if that's what mild bipolar disorder is. Whatever the cause, it wreaks havoc on my life. I can never stick to a regular schedule. That's caused me more problems than anything else.

[fallaximago]

I'm not doing great food-wise but I've eaten a bit less today, so that's good. I've also cut my hair, shaved my beard and taken a shower. Mentally I'm still a bit confused and not doing fantastically.

It was not busy at work today, but that was to be expected. I left a bit early from work and have a four day weekend. I felt a bit sad leaving work and heading home. When I got home I was unable to take a nap because there was power washing outside of my unit. It was really lousy not getting a good little "cat nap" before my workout. But the workout went well.

A couple of people had asked me what will I be doing for Thanksgiving. I really don't like being asked that. Well, at least I haven't been asked that much this year, so that's good.

the radio station I listen to needs to stop playing music by rod steuart

I know they don't know.. they have no way of knowing, but it's a massive ****ing trigger

I turn the music down so I don't have to listen to it, but still

Emotional abuse is not a joke and enlisting others to join in a "game" of abusing someone is SICK.

How they get so many to play the abuse game is beyond me. It is just like a cult. The cult leader is not all there but the followers worship him and obey his rules without even thinking. OMG! What has the world come to?

[Deilla]

My mom was supposed to come visit for Thanksgiving. But it didn't work out. I slept most of the afternoon. My morning was Okay.

A fairly busy day today, but also a lot of downtime, too. This morning I went to a Cancer Survivor's Park. I had never been there before. It wasn't as good as I thought it would be. I am a cancer survivor. Hardly anyone there.

In the afternoon I went on a hour and a half bike ride. After that I got a turkey dinner take out. This was the first time in over 25 years that I didn't cook a meal for myself. The take out seemed like it cost more than what it was worth. But it was nice not having to clean up afterwards.

Nothing much tonight.