Depressed?

when we're an adult, we get to assert ourselves a bit more than teens are allowed it seems.. just to be able to say, hey, what's all this?

not that ive always been that way.. 44 and still learning

but once i did it and actually started receiving the considerate response i needed, i began to practice more and more defining what i would accept and what i wouldnt..

but as a teen, sometimes its different... adults are quick and easy to assign projects in the name of learning but few ever committee to understand that about 10 other adults are acting likewise at the same time, and what does all this create for the teen? more pressure and little right to object..

perhaps your situation is different though... your mom helping with the depression therapy is great.. many parents deny depression is real still... even they themselves are probably ready to breakdown..

are you seeing a therapist?

Heh...Yeah, my mom's helping, and that's good...But I can assure you she would've never done anything if I hadn't brought things up. Before I did, she denied anything was wrong.

I'm not seeing a therapist right now. We're waiting to hear back from the therapist that my mom knew about. We've decided that I'll try seeing her, so now the question is when we can schedule appointments for.

i think mom's gonna come thru for you in the end.. she's following the steps you lead her towards... so you are being proactive for your own benefit... way to go!

I sure hope so.

You know, for awhile, I didn't want to come to terms with the issues of mine. But then it got to the point where I was calling my friend in tears almost every night, and he would point out that that wasn't right, and that something needed to change. That's what got me to do something.

sounds like a very nice friend to have...

My friend is absolutely amazing! He will go out of his way almost all the time to make me feel better when I'm down. I can call/text absolutely anytime, and I can ask him to meet me downtown after school if I need to get my mind off things. He'll give me hugs that make me feel safe and secure, and he'll tell me that things will get better even though at times that's quite hard to believe.

will you introduce me sometime?

a friend like that can change your, save your life...

i had some good friends like that at times... they made a real difference.....

has PC helped?

Haha. Can I keep him all to myself? (Selfish teenager talking here, lol).

I know that without my friend, I would be in a much worse state now. He helps me so much, and it's amazing how he does it, especially considering all the stuff he's got himself.

PC has helped some. I really like it here!

i have a theory... that people who hurt are sometimes drawn to others who hurt... because there's identifying factors each share and communicate about in a healthy scenario...

in an unhealthy scenario, the opposite happens.. non communication, stunted growth..

find someone like your friend, he sounds like a good guy..

neurosis is so common... we rub shoulders with each other, its gonna rub off..

find the good ones... make friends of those, be aware of what surrounds...

have lots of fun anytime you can...

My friend is a good guy. He doesn't realize it a good chunk of the time, but I know he is.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GOOD FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love good friends!

Speaking of them, one of my best friends just got a new cell phone (finally), so we can start talking again because we used to text all the time, but he broke his phone, and had to save enough to get a new one. We talked so much today, it was great! (He's the one who told me I was quiet tonight -- he can always tell when something's up, but he never pressures me about it). He's another person who I can call/text anytime, crying even and it's all good.

those are lifelines for each other... isnt technology cool?

Technology sure does make life easier!

(((((smiles))))) ((((((SingDanceRunLife))))))

I am tired! And I should probably do some homework tonight since I haven't done any all weekend. I started my physics, but I don't have any clue how to do it, so I only did like 2 of the questions. Math, I an do that during my free period or lunch. I don't know if I had US history or not. Yeah.

I just got home not too long ago from my youth group's Christmas party. It was good...At least the dancing was really fun. The rest was really just alright. I learnt how to do the Charleston.

sounds very joyful! take those good memories and pack them tightly in your carry everywhere bag.. in times of despair, take the memories out and hold them up to the light... sounds simple and silly, but, trust me on this one...

i'd be concerned if you knew how to do the homewrok but chose to ignore it... you're trying... are there friends you can call for help on the schoolwork?

if tired, pay attention to your body... what it says is important...

thanks for keeping us posted Sing... have a restful evening..

Yeah...I don't know how to do my physics, and it's too late to call anyone, I don't have the oomph to do do my math tonight as I'm so exhausted (today was an extremely long day -- I went to church, came home for about 5 minutes to grab my stuff for rehearsal, went to rehearsal, came home for about 5 minutes to change, went to the Christmas party, and them came home for the night)...The US history, I'll find out/do at lunch, if I have any.

Those put together make up what I'm feeling like right now.

Unhappy, insanely annoyed (at my family, especially my mom who is not understanding right now), feeling like I've got too much to do for too many people, and just about ready to cry. Yes, all of that at once.

I think I might just go do my homework, watch a movie, and then go to bed and call it a night...Except that I have to do the dishes at some point. I think I'll do those late (around 11 or so after pretty much everyone is in bed).

I had a terrible night last night. I bawled insanely for quite some time, and was just feeling really, really bad. I texted my friend, but he was already sleeping...But this morning, he sent me a message that said "Sorry I didn't talk with you last night, I was kinda sleeping. Hope you're doing better." We talked for about 20 minutes after that, and then we both had other stuff to do. He's so sweet.

thats a hopeful thought... talking to him lifted your spirits : ) ... thats cool ...

youre busy! ... eating/resting?

It wasn't really talking to him that made me feel better, it was more crying my eyes out and then coming here to chat, and then sleep...But waking up to a text message from him was certainly nice!

Eating? Sometimes. I don't think that front could get much worse than Sunday...No breakfast, a lemon bar and a couple donut holes for lunch, a tiny bit of salad, mashed potatoes and a brownie for dinner. Yeah. Today I've eaten a piece of pizza, a Snapple, and some fruit gummies. I'm about to go make myself some hot chocolate, and I'll eat dinner at some point, probably around 9 after rehearsal.

Resting? Kinda. I generally go to bed around 12 or 12:30, and wake up around 7:45. So, I could use more sleep, but...

alright!.. you're getting a system.. a network of supporters.. and in turn, you support them.. this is a good thing...

Yeah. I'm starting to feel pretty comfortable here

...And now, I am completely exhausted! I had school, then I came home to babysit my 3 youngest siblings for about an hour and a half, then I had rehearsal from 5:30-8:30. After rehearsal, I came home, did my homework, did the dishes, took a bath, and now, here I am.

I didn't actually eat dinner tonight...But oh well. I had 2 Quaker granola bars, 2 Juicy Juice boxes and a handful of almonds. Meh.

Tomorrow I won't eat much better either since I have school, then going downtown until rehearsal, rehearsal 5:30-8:30, and then repeat everything after that as I said tonight. -- homework, dishes, bath, computer, bed. So yeah, I'll probably forget to eat dinner since I won't have a chance until about 9 or so, but then I'll have other things to do. Maybe I'll get 2 slices of pizza downtown, eat one as a snack, and then save one for dinner during break at rehearsal tomorrow. There's an idea!

You know what I don't understand? Why I don't sleep more! I mean, I always get stuff done, and then it's still another hour before I actually go to bed. I think it has to do with the fact that there's always millions of things running through my head so although I'm tired, I can't quite seem to settle down...I don't know though. That's just a guess.