Depressed?

sing, i enjoy hearing the progress you're making, the obstacles you overcome and have to dodge...

Perna will be angry with me if i dont tell you to do your homework... do your homework

yes, thank God your sister wasnt in the car and it sounds like the injuries were minor compared to what could've happened...

so, are you having some fun times too?

Yeah, I know that there were no serious injuries, but still...

I didn't do my homework. I read the Sparknotes for my English and that's about it.

I wasted time online, and watched Mean Girls until I fell asleep.

i have this thought (uh oh) .. what we are attracted to do is what we need to do... even if everyone else disagrees, there is something about that activity (or non-activity) that our deeper, inner self is returning us to again and again, until that issue/need is satisfied...

when young, those draws are very distractive... when we're young, we only have a short time span, a small window, to prep and create a better future for ourselves...

when we get older, like the time we'd move out from our parents, time moves in a different perspective... bills have to be paid, the job gets most of our time, and coming home exhausted, we hardly have time anymore to enjoy and spend the rest of the day unwinding from the stresses and chaos...

Perna is right... now is the time to set yourself up for a better future..

sure, i understand the mindset of play now work later...

and playing is essential to all of us...

play and work, or, work, then play... do a little of each, but be good to the future you... try hard, but love yourself along the way..

and take a break once in a while, ok?

wishing you the best...

I'm trying to get everything done...But it's twice as hard when you have no motivation. And it doesn't help that half my work is really hard.

The other homework I had over the weekend:

1. Physics. I couldn't do that because I didn't know how. My teacher wasn't there for 2 days and the sub didn't teach.
2. Study for US History. I never do that, and always get at least a B+ on the test.

So...Really, I didn't do so badly with homework over the weekend. I should have actually read for English, but other than that, homework was kind of pointless. Assigned, but either something I couldn't do, or something I don't actually have to do.

I was a history major and when it came time for exams I kind of just "gave up" and sort of thought about it, tried to get things in order and associated, one with another so it "flowed". But I didn't study much either and I had a 4.0 :-)

What is your physics about? I've only had a little of that but it's one of my husband's "hobbies."

I got the physics figured out. My teacher was back today, and she gave us a chance to redo the lab if our data was bad (so all of us redid it)...And with the good data, it made perfect sense. It was a friction lab by the way.

right on sing, getting stuff done ... way to be

I did all my homework last night (well, attempted to, physics is hard, and I didn't know how to do it really)...

And today is a snowday.

I mean, I'm really, really happy that it's a snowday, I really needed a day off school, it's just irritating that I actually did what I was supposed to and I won't need it now.

now you have time to play... or, get a little ahead of the curve if you choose to... study ahead, that'd shock everyone (smile)

you're doin' good sing...

I think I'm just gonna chill out today. It's what I've wanted for so long!

I mean, I do have homework to do that's due tomorrow, so I'll do that at some point, but that's about it.

I was very productive today!

Well, OK, I wasn't at all productive until about 7:30 or so this evening, but that's alright.

During the day, I spent a lot of time online, a lot of time watching TV, and about 3 hours sleeping. The sleep was much needed! I'm still tired just because I've been edging on not getting enough sleep for the past week or two.

This evening, I spent some more time cleaning my room. I actually finished everything but the closet! So all my stuff is in boxes and half of my clothes are folded and in a dresser (they used to be unfolded and hanging out of laundry baskets -- I still have to clear out my other dresser so I can finish putting my clothes away). I then moved all my stuff into my new room (down the hall, away from the rest of the bedrooms downstairs, it's more private, and it's bigger than my old room, and I can paint it). So tonight, I have a sense of accomplishment. I've been planning to move rooms since June, but I never actually did it until now.

Also tonight, I had a good conversation with one of my best friends who I almost never get to talk to because he's always so busy with school being a college freshman and all. We got to catch up a bit, reminded ourselves of our crazy inside jokes, and just generally had a nice conversation.

I'm exhausted.

I have to go do the dishes now, and then I'm off to bed.

these may be the best words ive read all day sing....

How so?

when you first came, the original thread, as a new member... kinda uncertain about things... now i'm listening and hear productivity, enjoyment... to me that is very special.. i was able to see your work in progress.. many shades of emotion and learning.. the growing,, it is a beautiful thing...

Aww.

This is me in a good mood. More like the old me. More like the me I would like to be all the time.

We'll see what tomorrow brings.

any time you can post a positive in Depression... hang on to that one..

I will.

(((((((Smiles))))))) im stumbling for what to say here and how to say it... you're a good one Sing... smile...

Wow...I have no clue how to respond to that.

Today was hectic, I need more sleep, and tomorrow will be crazy. This weekend, I have rehearsal which I said I couldn't go to, but then they put me on the list of people coming at 5:40...And my youth group's Christmas Party starts at 5. So, I emailed the stage managers again saying I won't be at rehearsal, hopefully they'll respond well because I do not want to miss the party, especially since we're going to be swing dancing!

Yesterday wasn't so great. Mostly, it was really stressful.

In the morning, I got into some stuff with my sister.

School, here's where I was all day:

1. I was late to school, so I had to run to the Craft Fair and give the Afro/Latino Club adviser the list of who was going to be at the table what periods. I ran to the bathroom to change for gym. I went to the gym and didn't see my class or teacher, then I saw some friends. I went back to the bathroom to change. I went back to the Craft Fair.
2. English class. I would've been at the Craft Fair, but my teacher wouldn't let me go.
3. Craft Fair. All period. It was my lunch period. For lunch, I was planning on eating some empanadas and rice and beans and some of the other food we had as a club...Well, we were so busy all period I didn't get a chance to eat! I grabbed some food at the end of the period.
4. Math class. I only kind of understand the material. I mean, I do, but it's really difficult to find which equation you have to use.
5. US History, but then Craft Fair. There were lots of Club members there, so I got to just walk around. It was nice not having to be in class.
6. Physics. We went over the homework, then did this activity solving problems in groups.
7. Finished the problem solving, then my teacher took us to the Craft Fair.
8. Theater. We hung out and did improv.

At home, in the evening, my mom asked if I minded if she went to Fedex. I told her no, thinking that she'd be gone for about 40 minutes. Well, she was gone almost an hour and a half...And she left again almost immediately upon her return, this time, to bring my sister to a school dance. Again, I thought it would be about a 40 minute trip, and again, it was about an hour and a half before her return. Sorry, but that's annoying. I was stuck babysitting my 3 youngest siblings for almost 3 hours last night, and I was already stressed and tired out. Not a good combo. When my mom got home from the second trip, I just looked at her -- I was pissed, and she could tell.

I'm tired, and I look like crap because I cried last night, and I have to go to ballet in a couple minutes.

*Sigh*

When I got up this morning, I felt so apathetic, but now, I'm annoyed at my mom yet again. I'd rather be apathetic.

I'm quiet tonight, according to my friend. I didn't even notice.

hi sing... i cant remember too well my childhood anymore, either blanked it out or dont want to remember most of it... what you've said brings back memories of timing dates with friends and trying to maintain a decent grade, all while not disappointing parents...

teen years are probably the toughest of all.. hard to stay course with so many alternatives, but, you're doing well.. going to appointments, combined with babysitting, schoolwork...

your mom is busy too i'd imagine... i bet few of us had ideal child lives... at least your mother and you can communicate even if its not always the way you'd like..

nothing may ever be just the way we want... looking back, i never was satisfied... always something i missed, wanted, had to work towards...

it was disappointing when i discovered that i had to work to get my stuff.. what the heck was that? as a child id been card for and why did i all of a sudden have to di stuff??????

enjoy whatever good moments you have... they will be treasures when you look back to 'the good old days' ..

teens now are probably under more pressure than 20 years ago or so.. different world, different pressures...

im amazed how smart some of the teens i meet are, how kind and considerate many of them are.. you are a good example of one such person..

keep trying, keep working, ok? it will pay 100 fold in return..

i know you hear this from others.. but i guess i havent got anything new to say.. just hope it helps keep you going a little bit knowing that im cheering for you...

Yeah. I try. I just feel down or apathetic so much of the time. Happiness often seems like a thing of the past, you know?

well, dont forget the pressures you are under.. it would exhaust a grown man in the prime and stride of his life..

yes, happiness is missed when we feel this way... as a suggestion, dont spend too much time trying to understand happiness.. just let it be..

apathy? yeah, theres a plague of it in the states... cause we're overwhelmed!

we're all under pressures.. reminds me of some social atmosphere's ive read about in history... people become more and more pressured, like the water behind the crack in a dam... then, something gives.. i hope it gives soon...

True. There is a lot of pressure. Things I have to do at home, things I have to do at school, things I have to do for choir, things I have to do for Link Crew, things I have to do for Afro/Latino Club, things I have to do for Fame, things people want me to do at church...I feel like I never really have any time to breathe!