[Deilla]

Feeling Okay this morning. Hopeful, rested and content. I'm being patient with my cat and hoping for the best. I'm mindful of his triggers and careful about what I do.

[Rose76]

I got very down today. So I did next to nothing all day.

Tomorrow, if I make myself do things, I will start to feel better. I must make myself.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I got very down today. So I did next to nothing all day.

Tomorrow, if I make myself do things, I will start to feel better. I must make myself.

I may have already mentioned this but I’m the same way. If I don’t achieve things I get depressed and vice versa. Good luck getting things done.

[PsychNitrous]

I hate myself today. I need to seek help for my problems, but I'm not. It's only 3pm here, and I'm drunk already. I feel like a waste, I wish I could just give up on everything.

Practically everybody at work today were complaining about feeling tired because of the time change. I felt the same way. I got up for work this morning and it was very dark outside. I really hated it.

It was an OK day at work. Nothing much to report about. Felt disappointed when I got home because I wanted to go for a bike ride and can't because of rain.

[PsychNitrous]

I wish I was unsafe.

[Sunflower123]

Upset and sad today. I had a friend die unexpectedly from unknown causes March 10. Shocked and speechless.

[Deilla]

Feeling sad today. I hope it gets better after a nap. I'm still bothered by what's going on with my cat. And I felt like my mom wasn't supportive today. She really didn't need to say what she said. Something told me not to call her today.

[PsychNitrous]

I feel like my depression keeps getting worse, and I'm not sure why. I'm having some passive suicidal thoughts. I really don't know what to do about it, maybe I should call my therapist? But what can she do? I just want to go home and hide out.

This morning, before work, I went to the dermatologist for a check up. It turns out that I have a "suspect" for a Basel cell skin cancer (it's not serious). I just had surgery and now I may have another one. That got me down today.

Fairly good day at work today, at least emotionally. Did the laundry after work and got a take out for dinner that was not spectacular and kind of costly. But at least it was healthy compared to fast food. Went to the pool area tonight and it was nice. Still cold outside but it's supposed to warm up by the weekend.

Having a rough time.

[Turtle_Rider]

Too awful. I read that mental illness can damage your physical health. I guess it is true. I've been very tired lately, physically and mentally. Sleep does not help. I have trouble handling my personal tasks and workplace. And as the matter worse, I might be involved in some legal stuff. I am very tired.

It seemed like it was not a good day emotionally. It was very slow at work today. The dermatologist told me that I had Basel cell skin cancer, so I scheduled having it taken care of next month. No big deal, but it's a nuisance.

My friend had eye surgery yesterday. He wasn't able to talk to me last night. Probably won't talk again tonight.

Feeling sad. I miss my bf. He has disappeared like he does from time to time.... but this time it's been over a month. I feel very restless and anxious.... restless maybe bc of my psych meds. Looks like all my psych meds are causing akathasia like restless. It's a tough life. I am trying to take one day at a time and trying to make it through the day. What do I look forward to? Being united with my bf soon... I do love him very very much.

[PsychNitrous]

Today isn't going well. I'm mostly discouraged by my anxiety. It's been over a month since I told my therapist I was going to start going to NA, and I still haven't gone. I'm so anxious about it I get paralyzed.

[Deilla]

Having a difficult time. Moving really slow this morning. Feeling irritated by everything. Will try to relax this afternoon.

[Rose76]

I can't sustain what I'm doing. I feel defeated.

on sunday I ate some out of date chicken so ended up with a really bad stomach ache (and other side affects too) for days

well, I say days, I think it was about wednesday afternoon when I started feeling better

and of course I can't sleep, so recovery was extra slow, because I didn't have the rest

that aside, honestly no idea what i'm doing or where i'm going in life, complete standstill

One minute I'm okay, the next I'm really struggling.

[Fuzzybear]

How can it be that an undeserving pos like me is still alive..

[Fuzzybear]

Actually.. it isn’t me who is undeserving.

It’s people who play sick mind games.

(Not anyone here....)

[T4bbyCat]

Came across another article about age discrimination in my industry... few things seem worse than being obsolete and useless, which in turn reminds me of how short and fleeting this life is.

[Fuzzybear]

The world tells me.... horrible paws does not deserve hugs

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

How can it be that an undeserving pos like me is still alive..

(((((fuzzy)))))

Fairly busy today at work and an OK kind of day. I felt like my mood had sunk when I got home. I got thinking about my life and where I'm going lately.

A couple of things. Spent some time looking on line for a new place to live. Yet, I still have to sell my place! So I'm wondering how that will work out. Second, is that I read an article (this is a health issue warning!) saying that those who have had multiple skin cancers (that's me!) would have a good chance of developing cancer in other areas.

I will have a week off from work after tomorrow. Looking forward to it but I plan to spend that time trying to get my living arrangement straightened out. I hope it works out that way!