[Deilla]

Feeling Okay this morning. I slept a lot. I'm trying to get motivated to take a shower today. Tomorrow I see my GP. I have to fast. I want to have a stress free day. It's always hard when I have to fast cause I usually don't sleep well.

I woke up around 3:30 and couldn't get back to sleep. No one was to blame for it, I just got stirred up. I had anxiety about going back to work after a week off. Well I got back to work this morning and everything was OK. The guy who filled in for me did a great job. It was busy at work for me but it was a nice day emotionally. And having anxiety about that possible move, too.

I got thinking later on today that maybe I should just stay where I am for a while. Tonight I felt like I liked the place because it was quiet and no one bothered me in the pool area. But that could change as I had been through good times before and then it got awful. And then I got thinking would if things went wrong, like my health. If something catastrophic happened with my health, then I would lose all my money if I ended up in a rental. But then if I stayed, then I would have to go into reverse mortgage and probably use up all my money there. So I don't know which choice I'd be making that I would end up kidding myself.

[Deilla]

I overslept this morning and missed my appointment. I rescheduled for next week. I picked a later time. Having a difficult time getting motivated to do anything. I'm still sleepy.

[oliamble]

I have been away from this forum for a while. At work now. Not feeling good, seem I must have suffered a relapsed in depression. Keep strong will be checking in depending on how I begin to feel better.

[PsychNitrous]

I haven't posted in a bit, things have been crazy. I had another overdose last week and had to go to the hospital. My therapist won't see me again now until I get firmly into aoda treatment. The police are threatening to arrest my boyfriend over what happened. I feel like a complete wreck.

Originally Posted by will19

So I don't know which choice I'd be making that I would end up kidding myself.

Hope you end up with a choice that give you the feeling of having done the right thing! (Take the time you need).

Fairly busy at work today. Well, it looks like it's about to happen. As of now it looks like I will be making a change from where I live. We'll see about tomorrow if it falls into place. If it doesn't fall into place, then there will be more time to try something else.

Been feeling stressed and anxious today. I'm not eating as much. Maybe that's a good thing for me. I want to lose a little weight.

[Deilla]

Feeling sad, lonely, disappointed and tired this morning. I made a decision I'm not sure about. I feel bad about the decision. But maybe it will work out. All I can do is try.

Things are at a negotiating stage to sell my place now. I'm really hoping that a settlement can happen and put my mind at peace and, especially, move on from where I live now. I'm very anxious and have a fear that I'm going to blow it. It seems like I have blown so many great blessings that I had coming to me in the past. Please, not this time! A woman at my job has been a very good source of help to me on this. She was a seasoned Real Estate Agent in the past, so she knows it all. Except that she gets into some psychoanalysis with me, which I would rather do without. I'm very much aware of what my faults are.

perhaps the scarriest thing to come out of today, is the realisation that I've not listened to any type of music in 2 days, and since I'm someone who loves music, that's a pretty scary/ depressing thought

today was a pretty average day.

nothing really bad happened, but then nothing really good happened either

is it a little scary that a day of just going through the motions is thought of as a normal day for me?

that's kinda depressing

[Deilla]

Having a nice and productive day. I've done things around the house and I went to the pharmacy. I even treated myself to Mexican.

[Deilla]

I slept all morning. I don't feel all that well. I want to keep sleeping.

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs to all

[Rose76]

I'm not doing well. I feel like I can't really get into a normal frame of mind. I feel like I need help. But I don't believe there is any help available that would actually help me.

yesterday after dinner I took a walk to the shopp

it was nice in the cool air, and rather quiet too

baught some lucasade

came home and watched young sheldon which was actually quite funny, for once in my life I enjoyed watching it (I don't often enjoy it, his voice annoys me) but the whole saga with the sandwich made me smile

despite it being a quiet night without flashbacks I didn't get rest. back was far too painfull to lie down.

today I am feeling horrible. it's the start of brittish summertime (well it's not, but it's what they say when the clocks go forward)

I hate the longer hours of light, I hate the warmer weather, I hate the ****ing bugs because I'm alergic, from now until november life's basically a ****ing screw up

I woke up around 5AM and tried to get back to sleep. It was very difficult because I was blowing my nose a lot. Not a cold, but a lot of allergies. It's going to be bad this spring because of the rains we got. I'm feeling good this early morning so far. It's nice outside and this is my favorite time of the week.

Yesterday was very slow and dragging. I was feeling good at one point because I have an appointment with a RE Agent to close the deal on selling my place. But then I was getting all kinds of advice about what to watch out for. And then my mood sunk. It was all in good intention, but I felt like something could happen that I could end up very sorry if I'm not careful.

There was an article on Psych Central the other day on why we seem to remember the bad or cruel things that has been said to us. That sure is my problem, I remember unkind remarks and believe them more than the nice things. That article made a lot of sense to me.

[downandlonely]

I'm suffering from allergies too. Planning to get tested on Monday to see exactly what it is I'm allergic to.

[Fuzzybear]

Allergies ......

[Rose76]

Depressed.

Doing ok. Feeling a little empty.

[Fuzzybear]

Here..........

I did my usual things for Saturday. Pretty busy day and eventful, even though kind of dull at the same time. When I went to the grocery store I got talking to a woman who was my cashier. I told her that I was going to move to the community where the store is. She said that she lives in that area and loves it. She said that I would love it, too. It seems like that community I'll be moving to is more fitting for me than where I am now. The place I will live at is very close to that store this time.

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs to all

[Deilla]

Feeling Okay tonight. Had a nice day. Starting to wind down for the evening. Will sleep well I hope.

today in the UK it's mothers day.

I don't have a mother, (or a mother that wants anything to do with me), so today's hard

made slightly easier though by the fact that comercials for it arn't everywhere like most years. just sucks that in sted of going out with my mother like most individuals, I'm staying in doing **** all.

yesterday I had a panic attack because I only had 5 peaces of chicken for dinner (all that was in the house), and I can't cope with odd numbers

I also really dislike my new body spray, the smell of it does not apeal (does not smell that womanlike)