day 3 of feeling completely void of emotion

and that's all their is to say

[Deilla]

Sadness, dread and lonely.

[will19]

I talked to my friend last night and felt like it didn't go very well. I was upset because of not getting hot water for a shower. It was one more thing going wrong at where I live, you know, that place I want to leave. I felt like he was not helpful. I didn't sleep well last night because I felt clammy and cold. I was scared that I was going to get sick.

I didn't feel good emotionally when I got this morning. Fortunately I didn't get sick. Had cereal for breakfast, which was fine. And then I washed the dishes and got hot water. So I decided to shower this morning. I rarely ever shower in the morning. I shower at night always. It felt nice after the shower but it was real cold and damp in my place. Left for work a little later than usual. Got to a busy intersection where the traffic light didn't work, so it backed up traffic. I was 15 minutes late getting into work. I would have been on time or just a couple of minutes late if it were not for that intersection.

[Rose76]

Got to push myself and get things done.

[Mountaindewed]

I bought a giant SAD lamp from a garage sale a couple years ago for $5. The thing was probably $50-$100 new. So it was a steal. After a rough morning I used it today for 25 minutes. It worked ok. I wish these things gave off heat as well though.

[88Butterfly88]

Wasn't too depressed today but was kind of numb.

[Rose76]

I don't feel depressed, but I'm not doing well. I'm wasting time. I got nothing done yesterday that I should have. I'm disorganized and go through the day with no plan and no system for accomplishing anything.

So I guess I should make a plan for today. That sounds straightforward.

I feel overwhelmed when there's really no good reason for that.

[sky457]

Rough week...I want to disappear....

[Deilla]

I'm bored and sleepy. Nothing else to do but sleep. Sleep is all there is.

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs to all

[Monticello]

Exhausted. Back to work after surgery. 9 hour day with a 2 hour commute each way due to snow and traffic. Not depressed, not happy.

[Sunflower123]

Depressed today.

[Deilla]

I'm awake today. Busy doing chores. Going to relax now. Maybe color. I feel lonely and blue.

I showered today and listened to some good music.
mood not much better though- not really at a level where I notice a diffrence

still feels like I'm just going through them otions

[Rose76]

I improved a lot yesterday. I got stuff done. Today I want to take it easy.

[OliverB]

I cleaned my room. I don't feel as bad as before, but I get a weird feeling.

Possible trigger:

I feel my forearm veins are wrong and I have to pull them out.

[Rose76]

I did just about nothing today. I just failed to even start.

[will19]

It was a long draggy day at work with not much going on. This morning at work I got talking to a guy who lives near me. I told him that I wanted to sell my place. He was telling me that I shouldn't. He was going into reasons why I shouldn't and then his cell phone went off. He told me to hold on and wait for him. He talked on the cell phone for a while and I told him I had to go. Just as well because I didn't want to argue with him.

Feeling kind of blue tonight. I plan to look a place tomorrow. This will be the first place to look at.

[Deilla]

Feeling all alone, anxious and restless. I think I need more sleep and some meditation.

[Rose76]

I've been awake for a few hours.

After having a good day Thursday, I fell into a pit on Friday. Thursday I was up and about, getting things done. I felt cheerful and glad to be busy. Friday was a wasted day, spent mostly on the couch.

I don't want today to be another wasted day. I have important things to do in the upcoming week to qualify my bf for some of his benefits. There is paperwork I have to get together for these matters. I hope I can find what I need. I'm very, very disorganized in the paperwork department. This causes me awful anxiety. Then I get depressed.

It's been a miserable night. Worry, worry.