[Deilla]

Having some back pain this morning. It's making me sad. I see the doctor about it next week. I hope he can help me. Last time I went to PT and they made it worse.

[88Butterfly88]

Was less depressed than usual today, I hope it lasts.

[Sunflower123]

Very depressed today. I don’t think it will get better but that’s the depression talking. I realize that.

[Deilla]

Doing fairly well this morning. I got a good amount of sleep. I'm ready for a nice day even though I have a doctor's appointment. I will have to reward myself for making it to that appointment. Maybe some of my favorite Mexican food later.

Originally Posted by Deilla

Doing fairly well this morning. I got a good amount of sleep. I'm ready for a nice day even though I have a doctor's appointment. I will have to reward myself for making it to that appointment. Maybe some of my favorite Mexican food later.

Psych doc's appointment or any other doc appointment?
Have a great day!

[3rd rock]

I still haven't heard from the psychiatrist's office. I am experiencing a lot of pain.

feeling a little better, still tired of being awake all night

[Rose76]

I'm doing dishes that piled up. Maybe I'll pull myself together.

I'm not sad . . . just devoid of motivation.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Woke up early this morning. I'm bored and lonely and feeling sad. Maybe I can put some TV show on for some background noise. It might keep me company. Might do housework too.

I feel the same way!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm doing dishes that piled up. Maybe I'll pull myself together.

I'm not sad . . . just devoid of motivation.

I feel like this all the time!

[Deilla]

Feeling a little anxious today. My usual way of relaxing has been unavailable for the last 24 hours (my online game). So I'm going crazy. I tried reading and sleeping but that hasn't helped. I guess it's time for some meditation.

I feel so ******. Too much toxicity. I'm hurting a lot. I need to get out of this situation.

hurting and can't take it anymore.

[3rd rock]

Only 18,000 more words until the second draft is done. At my current rate, I'll reach that by the 6th of July. Then the real work begins.

[Rose76]

The absence of motivation is a morning problem. Every single day. It's so hard to get started. 1 p.m. and I've gone back to bed. I did get up and get breakfast for my bf. But now I'ld like to go back to sleep. In the evening I feel so much better.

[3rd rock]

Unexpectedly nauseous. The store brand of Pepto doesn't seem to be helping.

[Spirit of Trees]

My attempt to taper off my medication has left me with worsening depression.

[Deilla]

Laughing today at my cats. My little instigator tore a hole in my big cat's food bag. He's on a diet. No wonder he quit begging for food. He was having free feedings. How can I be in a bad mood. Lol!

[Rose76]

I'm really dragging. Sleepy now and going back to bed. I have to get my bf into a nursing home for a week or two. The VA will pay for it. This option is there and I've been encouraged for a few years to use it. Finally I shall for the first time. I have to get off this treadmill.

Originally Posted by Spirit of Trees

My attempt to taper off my medication has left me with worsening depression.

Hi, I've been through that recently. Just wanted to say it does get better if you want to get off of them. I just found they don't work for me after a while, so I've given up with them. Maybe someday I'll try again but I don't think so. I wish you the best whatever you choose to do.


I'm doing ok I guess, yesterday though I started to feel like life was so meaningless. I try to think of things that would make me feel better but it all seems so unsatisfying. I think of taking a leap and going back to work as a hairstylist, but I see the trends and remember the fussy women and the gossip and the having to pretend to be in a nice mood when I'm not.... and I think I can't do that again. I used to feel pleased when people complimented me on my work, but still felt like maybe they are just saying they like their hair. It's just hair, but it's something like my artwork walking around out there and some people are so fussy... rambling on here when I should get doing the dishes and some cleaning.

Busy Saturday today. In the late morning my friend and I had it out with each other. I had asked him to come over to my place. He said that he wanted me to go over to his house and bring him over to my place. I didn't want to do that. I wanted him to come over to my place on his own. I had threatened to cut off our friendship. It's not because of just that, there are other reasons. It would be hard for the both of us since we both feel that we are all that we have for each other.

I'm planning on a bike ride in a few minutes, but it's threatening to rain. I feel like I haven't ridden my bike in quite a while.

[Rose76]

I'm doing better this eve compared to earlier. A good deal better.

[3rd rock]

I haven't crunched the numbers yet and there's still about a week before reporting on this period closes, but so far it seems my income from book selling (royalties) is a little down from last month. My income dropped precipitously in the United States, which is the main market, but multiplied in Italy (of all places) to almost make up for it.

This day is just barely getting started. I hope it will be a good day (don't we all?). Yesterday afternoon my friend and I had a talk about how I feel. He seemed understanding. He said that he may make a way to my place today, but it's not a sure bet. My sister called at dinner time yesterday. I didn't talk because I was too busy preparing dinner and I thought it would have been too late to call her after dinner. I got mad because I told her not to call me around dinner time.

I saw a pretty good movie last night. Today I plan to make a batch of spaghetti sauce and do some light errands. I'll go bike riding later on.

Life never eases up. It's always full of pain.