[patrickinanis]

Hello everyone,

I’m new here, and looking for someone to talk to about a relationship issue arising from my chronic depression. Sorry if this is an inappropriate way to use this thread. I’m just desperate to have a conversation with someone about it. Also, if anyone needs to talk to someone about personal issues you can also pm me about those. I’ll do my best to hear you out and let you vent.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by patrickinanis

Hello everyone,

I’m new here, and looking for someone to talk to about a relationship issue arising from my chronic depression. Sorry if this is an inappropriate way to use this thread. I’m just desperate to have a conversation with someone about it. Also, if anyone needs to talk to someone about personal issues you can also pm me about those. I’ll do my best to hear you out and let you vent.

A warm welcome to PC. I’m not great with advice but I’m a good listener and very supportive. Feel free to PM me.

The morning started off pretty good. My sister called and we had a pretty good talk. It seemed like after that, things went downhill. The things that went downhill had to do with people.

My friend didn't come over like he said he would. I figured that would happen. So that got me down. I went for a bike ride for about two hours. After that I called a college friend of mine, which I don't do very often. He depressed me with talking about a couple of guys that we used to be friends with; but the two of them don't want anything to do with me. I don't know why he has to talk about them. I've told him that I never want to hear their names ever before.

Tonight I went to use the spa at my place and a guy was already there. I had met him before. He just got right out in a huff being very angry that I came in. I don't know what his problem is. He's very weird. It's too bad this has to happen at a new place I'm at.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by patrickinanis

Hello everyone,

I’m new here, and looking for someone to talk to about a relationship issue arising from my chronic depression. Sorry if this is an inappropriate way to use this thread. I’m just desperate to have a conversation with someone about it. Also, if anyone needs to talk to someone about personal issues you can also pm me about those. I’ll do my best to hear you out and let you vent.

Welcome to this site.

I'm feeling very dejected at poor book sales. I wish there was something I could do to help it. I've tried many things in the past and I've only succeeded in wasting money I don't have to waste. This is the only thing I'm good at, and I'm finding it impossible to get anything going.

Just feeling sick of this life..

[3rd rock]

It's so hot, I poured McDonald's coffee in my lap to cool off.

An OK day but slow at work as I figured it would be. I felt like I had a hangover when I got up this morning. No, not the drunk kind, but the emotional kind since yesterday afternoon and evening was a real downer kind of time. It seems like those downer times happen frequently for me, especially when I'm feeling pretty good. It makes me believe that feeling good is a sin. I know it's not, but it sure feels that way.

I worked out after work and it went well, very easy again. Went to the spa and four women came in about 10 minutes after I got in. They were friendly and polite, but I felt intimidated with being with a group of friends who are together; with me feeling like an outsider.

I am dreading the 4th. I never liked that day. Too much noise and hype. Oh, please bring me back to winter quickly!

[3rd rock]

It's over 30 degrees in my apartment right now. In this weather I've got to take at least 2 showers a day just to stay sane. I wish I could live in the really far north, like somewhere in the Yukon.

[Rose76]

I feel so good right now that it's marvelous. If I could just figure out how to keep this going. I was out of the house this morning at 10:30 a.m. That seems to help. So . . . . maybe, if I go somewhere early in the day, that might be a way of getting the internal engine to turn over. I did just take a Ritalin. Maybe that's a factor. But I've been improving for past few days, after about 10 days of being depressed, which was horrid. I've got to create a journal to track this stuff. Maybe I can come up with a routine to keep myself out of the pit. Maybe I would benefit from therapy to discuss what I figure out.

[Deilla]

Feeling sad and disappointed. Not in the mood to do much. Feeling self critical. Not sure how to deal with this. I guess go to bed early.

I don't know how I feel, not great, not real horrible. I'm glad its summer even though the humidity has been high. I've been watching youtube videos on stoicism, or whatever I can find to help.

Feeling anxious and down today. Last night my friend and I talked and he got into some psychoanalysis or making personal suggestions for me that I didn't appreciate. I told him that I would rather not hear it. Yet when I get critical with him (which is not very often but he needs to hear it a lot), he gets very mad. He also got very mad when I told him I would rather not get those personal suggestions.

Very slow at work today. I went bike riding after work. My sister called me and said that there is a slight delay in being able to pay back the loan to me. I got very down about it.

[3rd rock]

I've been unable to get much work done over the past few days.

[OliverB]

I don't know where I am going to be next week. I have to move but I have no place to go.

I was supposed to move with two friends but now one of them is telling me she probably is not coming. I can't pay the rent if we are only two

Social workers won't help...

...
I was supposed to get rental assistance, but since my landlord had something ilegal about the flat I didn't know, I couldn't get the money from the rental assistance....

I'm feeling sad, listening to music that makes me remember things, lost time, things I wish were different. I can't sleep.. I wish I could fix life for my son. I feel like getting this old and time is running out to make a difference in anything..... just destined to live and reap what I sowed.

[3rd rock]

I was supposed to make an appointment to see my GP this week, but I've let it go too late. I can still schedule an appointment, of course, but it's too late to get in to see her this week as it's now Thursday and she doesn't work Fridays anymore.

[Randle McMurphy]

I've been feeling ignored by a person I care about ,and this is getting me depressed. also, been a bit depressed about how certain things in my life don't ever seem to improve this reality check got me down.
i've been mostly ok this year but I am very sensitive to this sort of thing lately.

[Deilla]

Feeling tired and nauseous this morning. Not sure why. Maybe I should check my blood sugar. Been drinking plenty of fluids. Trying to rest and relax.

I didn't have to go to work today because it's the 4th. I got up at 7 and then after breakfast went to have minor car repairs at a garage. It went OK. It was nice that it could be open today since I didn't have any plans. Car runs better now with no bells going off.

JUST NOW THERE'S A MINOR EARTHQUAKE! I thought I was getting dizzy but I feel swaying back and fourth. Hope it's 's not serious somewhere else. It is an earthquake because the blind on the window is moving and there's no breeze.

Now back to me, some people have been asking "what will I be doing for the 4th". I don't feel comfortable being asked that. It's nothing much I'm going to be doing, of course. And I don't feel comfortable asking others the same question also.

[3rd rock]

In the midst of writing a war/action series, it's important to hit the pause button every now and then to add scenes that properly humanise our heroes and their struggles.

[Rose76]

Two days ago I was doing so good. Well, that went out the window today. I fell into the trough. Pretty demoralized all day. But I see how I bring this on myself. Tuesday I was up and dressed and out if the house. Ran some errands and felt good all day. I'm going to have to get out of the house in the morning and go somewhere. It means leaving my bf alone for a bit, but he'll survive.

I felt down the whole day today plus feeling sleepy. I felt very depressed because I'm feeling like my friends and family life is in shambles. I even got thinking about going to a country in Europe that has legal suicide in about a few years. I'm supposed to be so happy with the way things have been going with selling my place and having good amount of money. But I'm not!

After lunch I took a two hour bike ride. Even that didn't cheer me up. Well at least tonight I went to the spa and it was nice and quiet. I thought that it was going to be active with people with BBQs and using the spa. Tonight it was the same as always, so that was good.

Originally Posted by Rose76

Two days ago I was doing so good. Well, that went out the window today. I fell into the trough. Pretty demoralized all day. But I see how I bring this on myself. Tuesday I was up and dressed and out if the house. Ran some errands and felt good all day. I'm going to have to get out of the house in the morning and go somewhere. It means leaving my bf alone for a bit, but he'll survive.

Glad to see you are doing self care! hugs. Let us know if you get him into a home for a while and how you are doing?

I started to get into "high gear" and couldn't sleep for a few nights. I definitely get feeling crazy like that so I took a quetiapine. But I don't want to rely on this stuff. I'm having hand tremors this morning. Like the new bed, finally had some sleep on it. It's nearing the 40's with the humidex, sitting here with a spray bottle to cool off.

[Deilla]

Very upset today. I've been sleeping most of the morning and when I am awake, all I hear is my inner critic. I'm angry at myself.