[unfoldingxwings]

I keep having crying spells. This year has been so hard, and now I found out I might have an autoimmune disease. I'm being tested soon by a specialist. I'm so shattered and broken. Because no matter how much work I do, how hard I try, bad things always happen to me. I try so hard to be a good person. My life is a wreck. I'm stuck in a dead end job and every time I try to do something with my life is blows up in my face and I fail. I'm 33, single and no kids. I feel like no one will ever love me and I'll never have a family of my own. I have no hope anymore.

Every time I try to change and improve my life it backfires on me. I've really tried so so hard. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so lost, helpless, and like my life is so pointless. There's no meaning. If I can't achieve my dreams, what is the point of dreaming? Or even trying?

It drives me crazy that people tell me I'm an amazing person and so wonderful. If I'm really that great, why am I so alone? And why is my life so awful.

I'm getting tired of fighting and trying. so tired.

[MickeyCheeky]

Please don't be so hard on yourself! I DO believe you're an AMAZING and WONDERFUL PERSON! Unfortunately even the best of us, and I'd say ESPECIALLY the best of us often end up in a series of unfortunate circumstances. That is no fault of your own. Please don't think less of yourself. Don't you EVER think that you're a bad person because you aren't, ok? I hope your Life will readjust itself REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, REALLY SOON BECAUSE YO DOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY AND YOU KNOW IT! Please hit me up through PM if you need someone to talk to and vent to. I am here and so are many others as well! THAT'S A PROMISE! I PROMISE YOU THAT! I AM SURE OF THAT! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! YOU CAN COUNT ON ME AND ON ALL OF US! WE'RE ALL HERE FOR YOU! I SWEAR! PLEASE DO TRUST ME AND ALL OF US AS WELL! In any case, please keep fighting your Battle because I am SURE that you'll come out on top! At the same time, though, please take it one step at the time. Do what you can do and don't push yourself further if you feel like you can't take it. In any case, we're here for you! PROMISE! WE ALL PROMISE YOU THAT AND YOU KNOW THAT! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @unfoldingxwings, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Please don't give up hope! I am SURE you'll find someone who will TRULY Love you for WHO YOU TRULY ARE! Keep looking and keep focusing on yourself and on building a better Life so that you'll be able to focus on your future Family and Children, ok? YOU WILL FIND SOMEONE! I AM SURE OF THAT! PLEASE NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER GIVE UP HOPE NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN LIKE YOU'RE ALREADY WONDERFULLY DOING ALL AND ENTIRELY BY YOURSELF AND ALL AND ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?

[MatBell]

So sorry to hear. In many ways I’m in the same situation, same age etc. I feel like giving up too very often because it’s just too hard for me.

I hope you have brief moments of feeling good and look forward to them. Have a small thing every day to look forward to.

My future is also very uncertain so I have a lot of anxiety too. I try to have faith that things will work out somehow, even if I can’t see it myself right now. I’m trying the best I can to do this.
I hope you can too.

[stefano]

Oh yes, I hear you and I can relate. Keep trying, don't give up. If you are depressed, it is normal that you feel hopeless. That is the first problem you have to tackle, I think.
By all means keep using this community. Lok for all the help you can get

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs I also hear you and can relate to much of what you've posted also. Life has a nasty habit of kicking us when we're down, however many times we pick ourselves up... But you're not hopeless (nobody in this thread is)

[bpcyclist]

I am so sorry you are struggling so right now. It sounds really, really difficult. I was wondering. Do you happen to have a therapist or a psychiatrist by any chance?

As others have said, don't give up. You have the rest of a long and awesome life ahead of you. Things will get better. You just have to sort some things out. And we will be here for you.

Hang in there. Keep pushing forward. Life is filled with challenges for all kinds of people, not just you. Everyone here at PC has challenges they are dealing with. We help each other. You will handle this autoimmune thing, whatever it is. Just don't give up.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by unfoldingxwings

I keep having crying spells. This year has been so hard, and now I found out I might have an autoimmune disease. I'm being tested soon by a specialist. I'm so shattered and broken. Because no matter how much work I do, how hard I try, bad things always happen to me. I try so hard to be a good person. My life is a wreck. I'm stuck in a dead end job and every time I try to do something with my life is blows up in my face and I fail. I'm 33, single and no kids. I feel like no one will ever love me and I'll never have a family of my own. I have no hope anymore.

Every time I try to change and improve my life it backfires on me. I've really tried so so hard. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so lost, helpless, and like my life is so pointless. There's no meaning. If I can't achieve my dreams, what is the point of dreaming? Or even trying?

It drives me crazy that people tell me I'm an amazing person and so wonderful. If I'm really that great, why am I so alone? And why is my life so awful.

I'm getting tired of fighting and trying. so tired.

I'm sorry that you are struggling right now.

[Purple,Violet,Blue]

Tears in my eyes, reading your post and those by others here.

Please, please try not to come to any conclusions about yourself right at this moment. I only say that because it is very possible that it will be coloured, and partly (or even wholly) created by, depression. It's difficult to tell for sure, but it really sounds like you are depressed.

These things take a little time to sort out, or get treatment for. But not as long as you might fear.

I really understand that the tiredness is making you feel hopeless. You've worked and tried so very hard.

Please keep hanging around this forum, and talking to us.

Let some time pass.

Ways to feel better WILL appear.