[3rd rock]

I feel really unwell. My depression is somewhat infrequently causing me to miss work. I feel so guilty about calling in sick because I feel sad and tired. I miss about 1 day every 2 weeks due to this reason. But over the past 3 weeks I've called in sick 1 day each week.

[tigerlily84]

Today was okay. With my mom's help I was able to cook. It was a lot of work but it was good. Whoever wrote the directions didn't know what they were doing because they were very confusing. I'm tired now.

I have a phone appt with the nurse practitioner tomorrow morning and she will decide if I can return to work on Monday. Some days I do just fine, but I have more bad days than good. When I think about going back to work I feel panicked, but I know I can't be off work forever. This month just flew by. I'm certain that she will adjust my meds at least. I'm already eating more because of the abilify. I've generally been slim for most of my life and I'm nervous about gaining weight. But if it can help me it would be worth it.

panic attack this morning

lasted for what seemed like an eternity

and of course, my fibro pain made it clear.. no relaxation or rest, hurts too much.

[T4bbyCat]

Well, I tried to help, using my good faith interpretation of the facts given to me... so when someone criticizes me for attempting to be of use, I sort of lose my belief that anything at all is worthwhile.

[Breaking Dawn]

I am doing fine today. I'm enjoying a cup of coffee & planning my day.

[Mountaindewed]

I feel pretty down in the dumps today. I really do feel like my therapist is mad at me. I feel like I did something wrong. I’m trying to talk to her about it and she sent me an email saying she’d talk to me later about it but then she didn’t respond again which just drove me further to think she’s upset. And all this just makes me not want to eat even more. I’m not my usual bubbly self at home with my mom and my brother and I’m not talking nonstop about the TV shows I watch or anything. I’ve just become really quiet at home and I think this is just really starting to get to me and I’m really starting to get into a deep depression over it.

I'm a bit anxious and depressed with myself, more worried if I can handle all the work hours, but I'm familiar somewhat with it. My shoulder could be a worsening problem.

[Rose76]

Just on the couch all day. Now that he is gone, I still need someone to care for me. I'm not looking to fall in love again. But I do need to find human contact.

[Nitrous]

Feel like I'm spiraling. I got an appointment with my therapist, but not for a week. I feel lost. I dont know who I am. I need a friend, but everyone is busy. Im as afraid to talk to my boyfriend as I am about talking to my therapist.

[tigerlily84]

Today was actually not bad. My nurse practitioner is extending my disability for another month. I feel so relieved, because I really don't feel ready to go back to work yet, although I don't know if I ever truly will. She's also increasing the dose on the abilify and she wants to monitor me. I feel grateful that she is helping me.
I also made strides with my disability claim which has been hanging over me for some time. Hopefully they process it quickly because I need the money.

[T4bbyCat]

I just realized that if I compute my age in days, it's not so bad. I've lived less than 20,000 days.

[puzzclar]

I've had a rough week. Lots of challenges! And I'm having more to do. I'm exhausted and I need to make some friends

I'm more anxious than depressed.

[Breaking Dawn]

Hi, I am doing fine. Feeling stronger most of the time. I have a nice day planned, & I'm eating well. I feel more motivated to get some things done that have been on the back burner, so to speak. I guess that means I am feeling more optimistic right now. So that's a good thing, right? Hugs & love to all!

[Rose76]

I feel so down.

[Mountaindewed]

It was kinda bad today. I guess it’s to be expected. I didn’t have any si though which was good.

It was a pretty good day for me today emotionally. Work was very slow, however I took off two hours earlier to see my Primary Care Doctor for an annual check up. I had done the blood test two months ago (it all came out well); and today had a little vital and body check. That's all OK as well. Doctor was very nice and encouraging to me. She's always been nice. It's a real big load off of my shoulders now.

Got home earlier than expected, so I took a bike ride. Had a nice dinner after that. Also, I got a $2 credit from a supermarket that I go to because of a mistake (which came out less than $2). So I plan to do a little shopping there tomorrow and get $2 knocked off.

[Rose76]

Mentally I am struggling and feeling like I don't have the strength to pull things together in my life. I still have hope . . . but it's running out.

[Mountaindewed]

I felt better then I did yesterday. A lot better actually. I still don’t feel ecstatic and on top of the world but I feel good as long as I don’t think about stuff too much.

[tigerlily84]

More anxious than depressed today. I'm about to get ready to go to my niece's first birthday party. It's more of a get together because it's only a few people that were invited. I love my nieces. I am feeling nervous about what to wear, which seems silly. I am sorry to say that I have not been very good about doing laundry, so I don't have anything nice to wear. I don't know if anyone has a hard time doing laundry when depressed or maybe it's just me. Tomorrow I get to have my appointment with my therapist via video session. It's been a while. Sorry I'm all over the place.

I have zero energy right now

[Nitrous]

I guess I'm doing ok today. I still feel hollow inside. Really looking forward to a counseling appointment Thursday.

[Rose76]

I got through the day sort of okay. But I'm losin it now.

[3rd rock]

I'm exhausted but I've still got 1/4 of the day's work left to do.

and their goes another (another) whole week without the slightest bit of sleep, not even the urge to relax.

in pain today. exactly the same level of pain as yesterday

and I am doing nothing (not sure I even have the energy)