[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Much love to you my friend

[Fuzzybear]

when are you gonna realise it was just that the time was wrong

Juliet

But the dream was just the same
I dreamed your dream for you
And now your dream is real
You can fall for pretty strangers
And the promises they hold

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you, @Fuzzybear, & God bless you!!

[Fuzzybear]

listening to

church bells

bring it on

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Thank you, @Fuzzybear, & God bless you!!

much love to you breaking dawn

[Fuzzybear]

can anyone assist me

how do i enforce boundaries with individuals who

are VERY passive aggressive.. over years

prolly covert narcissists

I AM NOT ''WEAK''

they play people like VIOLIN

IT IS SO BORING

NOT Anyone on pc

[Fuzzybear]

i AM free to be me

the abusers do not like that, do they?

(not about anyone on pc)

much love to all

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Turtle_Rider

I am sunk down so low again. And that's because of the old same reason.
I should've worked harder today. Tomorrow is a deadline of a project. But I have no motivation to work. I spent half of the work time laying on bed, thinking. I am wishing to make a move or change, but there is nothing I could do. It is beyond my control. All I can do is waiting. But what if my chance have ended by now?

she said she had ''given me A LOT OF CHances

the primary caregiver. she would not budge from always blaming me

she had a LOT of support to always blame me

all the FOO engaged in that gaslighting of the fuzzy bear cub, they ''always'' blamed the fuzzy cub

and could not perceive the truth

of someone who was young and was not them

malignant narcissists

i was told i am ''damaged''

ok so

maybe i was ''born defective''



i hope you can be kinder to self

than she was to the fuzzy bear cub

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by will19

Sorry to hear about that. That seems to be so familiar to me; it happens to me a lot more than I want it to. Whenever someone lies or says something that's not nice I want to forget about it. But it's very hard for me to get it out of my mind.

I completely relate to this!

hugs and respect

i appreciate your presence here @will19

[Mountaindewed]

I’m not sure I’m just dealing with depression today. I think I am having complications from my surgery although they may turn out to be just minor. The depression is for sure there but I think what I am feeling is largely physical. Last Monday they said it was likely there would be an issue that would need to be resolved this coming Monday. I think I feel sick because of it.

[Cocosurviving]

Friday, October 16th , 2020

When fall and winter arrive I get a bit nervous about my depression returning. I’ve been doing really well the last two years. I have not been on any depression medication or any antipsychotic since the fall of 2018. I created my own coping tool box which I also have to stay up on my autoimmune diseases and rare diseases. I have Hashimoto/Thyroidism/Graves Disease which definitely does impact your mood and emotions.

I had a great conversation with my teenager today. My teenager also has Hashimoto and other autoimmune diseases and rare diseases as well. We both acknowledged that changing our foods, eating certain foods in moderation and regularly being active has made a big difference in our moods. Our mood is not such a roller coaster.

The last few days I can feel how my body is starting to become symptomatic. Weather changes are a big challenge for me. My fibromyalgia pain and fatigue is not shy. Yesterday and today the nausea has been terrible. I drink a lot of caffeine free loose herbal teas. I’ve been very diligent about taking my vitamins and supplements. We recently moved and today a contractor installed grab bars in my restroom.

I walk our dog frequently. Being out in nature helps keep my depression away. My legs have been in a lot of pain so I don’t walk too long. I really miss going hiking and look forward to resuming. I sometimes get overwhelmed juggling multiple chronic illnesses and having to stay on healthcare specialists to provide continuity of care.

[Deilla]

I'm having a hard time with anxiety.

Today has been the usual routine Saturday. At one store that I like to shop at, I waited about 15-30 minutes in line to get in the store. I had time to kill for waiting.

Last night my friend and I argued about current event things. It didn't make me feel too good that we are at opposite ends, but that didn't surprise me. And I didn't lose sleep over it.

Once again, nothing much planned for the rest of the weekend. The cleaning, going to the bank, and shopping are long over with now.

NOTE: A special thanks from me to those on here who have encouraged me to keep on going on PC. Last week I was very down.

[3rd rock]

I locked myself out of my truck in the parking lot at the store today. I tried to unlock it myself with some wire, but couldn't. I had to call a tow truck. It cost $65 CAD, which seemed like a reasonable price. In the future I will try and find a long lanyard, or use two lanyards, so I don't have to take my keys off the one hanging around my neck when I drive.

[The_Bear]

Felt very down upon waking. Went to work (my job here needs me to work some weekends). Didn't speak to many people at work, although I would have liked to have, since it might have lifted my mood a bit. Finished my tasks and then left for the day.

While I was at work, I messaged a friend in Germany who is a qualified doctor (cardiology unfortunately, rather than mental health!) and I told her about how I was feeling low. She was supportive as usual and asked about my recent change in medicine and suggested I go and see a specialist here again.

I was in absolutely no mood for a workout in the evening, so I opted to go to a local Haagen Dazs cafe for coffee and cheesecake instead. Did some crosswords while there, which would have been pretty relaxing were it not for the continual stupid OCD thoughts that keep troubling me. The thing is, I know they're totally irrational but I still can't shift them.

While I was in the cafe I messaged one of my work friends, who I'm due to take a work trip with this coming week, and ended up telling him about my depression. I've never spoken to him about it until this point. He was pretty supportive and we arranged to go for dinner together during the trip.

I've resolved to be more open about my depression from now on, and to tell the people I'm closer to, should a suitable time present itself. I usually keep it hidden and try to put on a front, but I'd rather the small number of people closer to me know, as I do need the support. The exception here is my parents and sister, who I won't tell, because I know it would cause them a great deal of worry. And they're in the UK so it's easy to hide it from them.

It's been 7 weeks now since I finally managed to quit Paroxetine (3rd time I'd tried). I'd been taking it for 5 and a half years and, apart from a few low periods, it had worked well and kept me feeling pretty good. Now I've stopped, and the depression and OCD have come roaring back with a vengeance - so much so that I'm seriously considering going back on it. The thing is, I'll feel like I've failed if I do, since coming off it was a real struggle.

Overall, it was kind of a tough day, with OCD and depression both affecting me badly.

[Breaking Dawn]

Doing the best I can.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m worried about my depression and ending up IP due to medication. Not anything immediately though. I’m just worried. Probably for nothing. Can they put you completely in seclusion from other patients if you have medical issues?

[Deilla]

I'm a bit worried this morning. My cat spent the night with the vet. She may have a procedure done in the morning. I'll be happy to get her back.

[T4bbyCat]

Suddenly just a few days left to move, with massive work still left to do. Plus job woes. Doesn't help the #$!+ depression.

[Breaking Dawn]

Feeling some apprehension (need to go out there today) but otherwise ok.

[songbird2213]

Down again today - I continuously fail at nurturing my husband.
Also just took the PC Depression Test and scored for severe depression. Now I feel worse.

[Mountaindewed]

Despite the fact I’ve been in a dark room all day with the curtains shut and rain pouring outside, I feel pretty good today. My self esteem is good. I am just very tired from lack of sleep.

[Sunflower123]

I’m having a really rough day. I hope it gets better.

[Turtle_Rider]

I just learned I dodged a bullet from three years ago. This gives me a little hope. I'm thinking that maybe my current rejected application is a blessing in disguise. But it barely makes me happy. What's the blessing of pandemic?
Yesterday, I read about what they have made in the past six years. I feel so pathetic. I have nothing good to compared with of except graduating. I couldn't even finish my projects from 6 years ago. I'm just a big mouth loser.

[Deilla]

I'm tired and sad this morning.