[Mountaindewed]

I’ve been pretty depressed all day and also super exhausted physically and I’m thinking of just going to bed. The cat is honking (yes one of them honks instead of meows) for his dinner. So I need to go feed them first.

Typical Saturday today for me. I felt like I was bumping into wrong people and wrong situations throughout the day. It's weird how I seem to time things just right that can get me into "black holes" but I can't time things right that can make my life better. Oh well!

Feeling a bit blue now because it seems like the excitement of the day is over with. I'll just watch a movie tonight and that's it. Oh well!

[jmariah001]

Feeling depressed and lonely tonight. I was tested for Covid on Thursday. I won't know the results until Monday or Tuesday. So I've been quarantined. This loneliness sucks bad. My husband is here with me but I still feel alone. He has still been cleared to work. So he has been going to work and I have been left alone. Just feeling hopeless. I hate this so much.

[Deilla]

I feel pretty good today.

I am still feeling quite bitter and quite angry that professionals don't seem to want to help me anymore or can't get their facts straight. it's embarrassing to me too and ruining my life

that aside, I suppose today's been quite relaxing- bit of tv, bit of music, bit of chocolate, and probably more importantly no sui thoughts.
so yeah. one of the better days..

[Taylor27]

I had a good nights sleep last night. I still feel depressed, but feel hopeful today. I am glad im posting more in PC and will be posting way more here as I need support and support others too.

[Deilla]

I feel pretty good today. I'm very productive.

Today was a typical Sunday. My sister called and we had a pretty good talk. Sometimes we have good talks and other times, not so. Went on a three hour bike ride. It was brisk and cloudy which was nice. It rained a little bit at some spots but not bad.

I am off from work this week. It's a nice feeling to have a few days to not come in to work and deal with some drama. I have an appointment for personal business tomorrow morning. On Tuesday I plan to go to some museums that have free admission. Maybe a hike on Wednesday.

My back feels much better now, but now I'm dealing what feels like a pinched nerve on my shoulder. The pain from there seems to radiate down to the arm. I've had it before. I don't know what I did to cause it. Part of getting older, I guess.

[Deilla]

I'm having a good day.

I am doing nothing, and I am defenetly going back to my way of thinking- how my life just isn't worth it anymore.

while people can see ways out, I can't. I watched a quiz show today. woo ****ing hoo, and it wasn't like it was worth it the contestants lost all their money and left empty handed

This is the first day of my week off. It feels pretty good so far. I have a personal appointment at 11 that I'm looking forward to. I wish it was an hour earlier. There's a store that I want to go to right now but it's not open until 10, so that wouldn't leave me much time from going to that store and then to my appointment. So I'll have to do it after lunch.

It was very sunny early this morning but clouded up now. It appears like it's going to rain and it's cool outside. That's alright with me. I've had time off before when it was very hot outside and I didn't like it. So I'll see how this day goes.

[Breaking Dawn]

Doing all right.

[Mountaindewed]

I came downstairs at 4 yesterday after having lying down in her bed since noon and my mom was all like “what’s going on? You look super tired and your hair is a mess.” Yeah that’s what severe depression and a benzo addiction will do to you.

[Deilla]

I feel calm. I've been reading and relaxing this morning.

[T4bbyCat]

Moving day tomorrow... learned that a lot more can accumulate in 20 years than you ever thought possible, even in a tiny place. Originally I didn't even consider hiring movers, now I'm more than thankful I did, but it could still be overwhelming.

emotionally, I have not had a very good day- mainly because I spent most of it, sat on my bed, watching tv doing absolutely nothing (that, and eating roast chicken potato chips) so another day gone, another day wasted.

physically, my day's been okay. my body's been actually been behaving (I have pain in my back and legs) but this is mormal for me anyway

Today, so far, was a little bit of a disappointment. There was a place I wanted to go to for a real nice walk but didn't do it because all of the parking spaces were taken. Also there were other cars lined up waiting to get a single space. So I went somewhere else for a walk but it wasn't as nice as the place I wanted to go to.

I got the whole afternoon free now. I have a couple of phone calls to make. Not looking forward to them. Nothing planned for the rest of the week. There are some things I'd like to go to that are closed.

[Deilla]

I feel tired.

[tigerlily84]

today has been okay. I gave my dog a bath and am about to take a shower. I feel kind of blah today. I washed some clothes and I'm watching some tv right now. Nothing much to report for my therapist appointment later. I don't know that I will have anything to talk about.

The week off is halfway over now. Usually the last half of a week off goes by real fast and then it will be back to work on Monday morning before I even know it.

When I got up this morning, I had nothing planned. I didn't know what to do. With stay-at-home vacations, I have done everything that I would want to do or see. So it gets old pretty fast. Well, I ended just taking a walk by the waterside. It's nothing new and it's not that far from where I live. It was a nice day for it though.

Nothing planned for tomorrow. I have something planned for Friday morning. Still it's nice to have a little time to not have to get up to go to work; and nice to spend time with myself.

Saw my doc, in short, care giving is my main point of depression. I love my Dad, but his depression and suffering is hard to bear, I have a tendency to chronic depression so trying to lighten things up is hard. He really thinks he's nearing the end, so me being the sole person near him, I try to encourage him to move around a bit more. I only went to the dentist today, and after telling him about 4 times he still called me while I was away. He has lifeline set up, but he's not happy without company even for short periods. My own doc suggested getting someone else in the home to care give, but I cant even get Dad in the car or to town or to his own doctor. I miss working, and I also need the money now that I have more expenses.

[Deilla]

I feel fine today.

depressed

I have accomplished nothing in the whole day (blah blah blah) and I'm not even going to eat well tonight- I'm having a plate of turkey breaded dinosaurs

which is exactly a healthy meal a 24 year old woman puts on her menu

not childlike at all

well, I guess I enjoy them, so their is that

[Mountaindewed]

My depression has been rough. I was told today people should have prepared me better for the post op depression.

During this week in having time off from work, I managed to find some places to go and do something. This morning I went to an area I have never been to explore a trail. When I got there I couldn't find any trail, so that was a disappointment. Even the people I asked didn't know where there were any trails.

I came back home and then decided to do grocery shopping for next week before lunch. Tomorrow is the last "real" day of the vacation. I know that I have the weekend off, but this Saturday I plan to clean like I always do. At least there's one less thing to do this Saturday now that the shopping is over with.

Been feeling OK at times and other times felt alone & depressed. Funny thing is that, last night and this morning, I have been getting messages about dealing with aging and major illnesses alone. I got it last night on a discussion board about a book that covers it; and one this morning when I did my daily reading. I worry that someday, maybe pretty soon, I will have to be in that possition.