[The_Bear]

Felt down as soon as I woke up - a recurring pattern these days.

Work was OK. I was working next to one of my American colleagues today who is always super lively (and a bit bonkers too, to be honest). I chatted to him a bit and we went for lunch together, which was quite nice. I'm trying to be as sociable as I can at the minute, although it can be an effort these days. I think my colleagues have noticed that I'm much more withdrawn than I used to be.

While I was at work I got an email from my UK friend who I used to work with in Beijing before he moved back. He also has bad depression and we've been emailing regularly and swapping news and support. It's great to have someone like that who I can really open up to - I'm so grateful to have him as a friend.

I was still pretty down by the time I got home, but I managed to persuade myself to have a workout which I was pleased about. Packed my bag for the work trip tomorrow to Tianjin, watched the UK news (pretty much all about Covid) then went to bed.

It wasn't a bad day all-in-all, and as usual, evening was the best part. My day always starts off super-low and gradually improves throughout. Then things seem to reset overnight and I'm miserable again the next morning.

[Fuzzybear]

I am very grateful to those unique souls, both here and elsewhere, who I am in communication with

[Sunflower123]

Doing better today.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m depressed about everything today. I’m in bed right now. I take after my old man who’d spend hours a day in bed because of depression.

@The_Bear: I have the same pattern too! Miserable in the morning, improving in the evening, repeat. Wha?

[Fuzzybear]

I also experience a pattern of being miserable in the mornings, and an improvement in the evenings

[codyrobi613]

I'm not doing good today. I've been unfocused and unmotivated she about a week, anxious too. The past couple days I've been feeling more empty and irritable. I've taken 4 naps in the past two days also, I normally don't take any

Very bad day today for me. All day at work not one thing came (packages & mail) and nothing went out. It was like that all day. I think that's a record for the most low in a day. It can't get any lower than today in a single day. I call it a "no-hitter". And then there was a misunderstanding that happened with a co-worker, in which I made an honest mistake that I should have known better.

[Mountaindewed]

I’ve been depressed for a couple days and it’s getting to be pretty noticeable. I’m lying down now in the middle of the afternoon but my mom is making me set my alarm clock to get up at 5 because yesterday I went to lie down at 2PM and I didn’t get out of bed until 6:30 this morning. I have this tingly type of pain in my chest right now kinda like when your foot falls asleep. So it’s not like it’s just depression. It’s just mostly. And I got this odd text message from an unknown caller that made me pretty uneasy.

[Deilla]

Saw my GP today. She gave me some medicine to help me lose weight. I was pretty hopeful about it. It's a daily injection. Unfortunately, my insurance doesn't cover it. So now I'm sad. I'm very disappointed. We talked about weight loss surgery. That's not an option either because of my mental health. Surgery worsens depression.

Another pretty bad day, even though it was a little bit more busy at work. I threw my back out at work early this morning and the pain is very severe. As of now it's feeling better but that pain is still there. I hope I can sleep tonight. It's been like "hell week" this week so far. I guess thank goodness I'm off from work next week.

[Deilla]

I feel exhausted and overwhelmed. I just don't have any energy or the mental functioning needed to do anything. I will just vegetate all day.

[Mountaindewed]

I’ve hit rock bottom. And my therapist is unavailable all weekend and my mom is going out of town.

[codyrobi613]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

I’ve hit rock bottom. And my therapist is unavailable all weekend and my mom is going out of town.

How you holding up?

I don't have a job anymore. I'm caregiving. I'm tired and down. Up is I see a friend next week. The weather is nice. I'm in a study group. Learning new things, but I still feel empty.
I read a sign today

Remember you are unique

Just like everyone else. :-)

My back feels much better today, thank goodness! But it still feels stiff and sore. I've noticed that my legs feel sore; similar to what it feels like when I have done some extensive running. I guess it's because there are some muscles that I've been using to compensate walking with a hurt back. Last night, in the middle of the night, my right leg felt achy. It feels better now.

Nothing much else to report about. Feeling OK, except for feeling like crap emotionally at times because of the soreness. I took a bike ride today and that helped. Plus being fortunate to spend some time in a Jacuzzi which that helped also.

[Deilla]

I'm doing Okay. I have another medical appointment today. That makes 3 days in a row. I just want sleep.

[Mountaindewed]

Originally Posted by codyrobi613

How you holding up?

I feel kinda the same. I’m going to try to avoid every kind of caffeine today to see if that helps. I had a lot yesterday which I think was part of my issue.

[T4bbyCat]

Moving in a few days and still don't see the finish line. Just a massive pain to sort out and pack everything.

[Yzen]

Feel so terrible today...I wonder if I will ever feel good again. I know I shouldn't let this bad day get to me.

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs and compassion to all

[WastingAsparagus]

Kind of depressed tonight. Don't know why. Just am.

[3rd rock]

Got a new job, to start in November. I'm very apprehensive about it. I'm making a big mistake. My life has no hope. I don't want to do any 'real' job. I want to write. But it's impossible.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay today.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm ok right now.