Depression Vent Room for Misfits

Greetings and respect to all inner snakes

Hee hee hee. Look at the cub

Lovely, peaceful image. Thank you

Thank you for making this Breaking Dawn!

Not sure if I’m lazy or it’s depression or both (diagnosed with depression unspecified or the like, it’s been a while) but I have trouble doing simple tasks. I can do whatever it is that I don’t have to do within a certain timeframe and shoot myself in the foot by leaving everything for the next day.

Something I just remembered was when I was at the pediatrician’s office with my mom’s fiancée at the time. I slid my school uniform shoes off with my feet instead of unvelcroing them with my hands and taking them off that way. He said something about how I was lazy just like my sisters (who aren’t lazy, thank you very much). I was in elementary school, probably third or second grade and it took me aback so I just said “Okay” and sat on the exam table staring at the ground. He said something after that to me but I don’t remember. The way it made me feel was horrible and I remember not being angry but just this odd feeling of “what?”

He hasn’t lived with us for three years and I hate thinking about him. I thought moving away from the state I grew up in would change things but it didn’t — I know that running doesn’t help now though. It’s tiring to think about the eggshells we had to walk on to not make him be mean.

The "In-Private Browsing" function on my laptop suddenly doesn't work today. I don't know why. My hands are cold. Just took my second dose of Clonazepam & now I'm choking on the water I'm washing it down with. It's snowing outside. So, after dinner, I'll be taking the dog out in the snow for her final walk of the day. Ho-hum-m-m-m...

See the light and spiky fur standing up on the fur of the cheetah cub? It's not a fashion statement

Not about anyone on pc.

Not about the ''situation'' in the world.

I've been watching syndicated programming on independent tv stations for distraction today. I think following my instincts to do that was a good idea.

Today was vacuuming day for me again. (Every Monday is vacuuming day.) It always wears me out. Nothing else to say really... and no energy to say it even if there was.

Today is a bit difficult for me. I'm depressed over something that happened yesterday and I can't seem to shake it. It's the middle of the night and I can't sleep. I wish I could find something to help me feel better. I might try some meditations. I have a playlist on Spotify. It's about an hour long. I bet that would help me sleep.

Hugs and well wishes to everyone here!

Hugs to everyone here

It's weird the things that can make me suddenly feel

I spoke to my new optician today (who I've never met in person). He was friendly, and asked a few questions. The conversation ended like this:

Optician: (in a caring, interested voice) And how IS your sight?
Purple:

His interest in my well-being left me with this powerful, yearning ache.

Hugs and respect to Purple,Violet,Blue and all in this thread

And to wonderful Fuzzy

All of you are so wonderfully precious to me, I wish I knew how to make the hurt go away for all of you!

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You too, Breaking Dawn

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I am presently experiencing quite a dip of mood, of which I am trying so hard to raise up to where it used to be. I guess a lot of it is because of the global problem. Anyway, thank you so much for being here, venting, expressing, & I feel less alone because of all of you. I wish so much for all of you!!

I've been / am battling a dip in mood as well. Some of it is the result of physical / medical problems. Some is undoubtedly weather-related. And some of it is probably the world situation right now as well as the increased level of violence that's present currently where I live. For a long time I didn't feel my age. But I think it's, perhaps, caught up with me now.

Does anyone else feel as though activity here on MSF has dropped off substantially as well? Maybe it's just me. But it seems like since the sale of Psych Central, there's not a lot going on here on MSF. I used to spend a lot of time here. Now... not so much.

I feel that too, as though activity here on MSF has dropped off substantially. I especially noticed that in one of the other parts of the forum here (not anywhere I usually post)

As I think you know, I always appreciate your posts. (its a bummer for me personally that no links are available any more grrrrrr. I even have a PM box full of messages, some of which include links, none of which work any more

I wish I had been more diligent in reading and remembering them before. And those pop up ads are maddening. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Gonna try and fix that tomorrow

Hugs and respect to all.

Thinking of everyone

@Purple,Violet,Blue and all in this thread

Great to see you, @Fuzzybear

I'm doing OK today. I really hope everyone else in the thread is having a decent weekend

I am struggling a bit today. I am trying to stop being specific about the things that bring me down because they involve other people and I know that I am not any better in any way (I have caused much pain myself). They have their struggles as well....

What a twister it’s been. I poked the hornet’s nest and really got stung. My bad feelings toward him are what caused me to lose another, for whom I had only the purest love. My bad feelings toward her, also are what caused me to lose another, for whom I also had only love. Two triangles that turned 180. Then, I end up having to honor him and her anyway in the end. Two loves sacrificed, my punishment for my transgression.