Depression Vent Room for Misfits

I have a dentist appointment in less than an hour!

Oh, I hate them so much Hope it went OK

I'm struggling a bit tonight. One of my main problems is low energy. It's difficult to get things done. But I can relax now. I just finished up my chores. I will use REST and try to distract myself from my depression.

Hi, Deilla I was wondering how you've been doing

Within the last couple of hours I have been feeling a little better. I wonder if the new moon is having an influence, the clean slate effect? And me letting the Universe know my intentions?

Hugs and respect to all

Same old, same old... oh well... things could be worse. (Tea and oatmeal raison cookies help.)

Something happened and I feel disappointed. I'm trying hard not to let it get me down. It doesn't really matter. It says more about the other person than what it says about me. Lesson learned. Time to move on.

Monday, Monday, is that the start of a song. The toughest day sometimes is Sunday since then down and dread start of the new week, and Monday often not too bad. Hope everyone is doing ok on this Monday.

Love that song. Now it is playing in my head. Guessing you work M-F? I used to get that feeling on Sundays when I was an elementary school classroom teacher. Hope your work today goes OK.

I dread Mondays because it's vacuuming day for me. And by the time I'm done I'm worn out. I don't have the stamina I used to have. Plus I don't recover as quickly either. Sometimes it feels like every busy day (and there seem to be a lot of them for some reason) just knocks me down another rung on the ladder... not sure where the ground is...

I've been taking it easy because I don't get enough sleep & I feel tired all day long. My mood is pretty good, though, in spite of one particular problem.

My family let me down. My mom mostly. I feel great sorrow and pain beyond disappointment. I pretty much feel worthless. I needed help and it was important to take care of it today. But I wasn't a priority. I never am.

Still thinking about a snake dream I had FOUR days ago. I feel like a misfit that it is staying with me this long. When I woke up, I had a picture of that snake in my mind. I have wondered if it is a warning but maybe I am just superstitious. I still remember one dream I (thinking maybe I was 5 or 6 years old) had with multiple snakes in it that really scared me. I wasn't scared in this dream but, instead, I am scaring myself after the fact. My anxiety expresses itself in the strangest way. I will just keep praying about it. That is the only thing that seems to help me shake things that persist.

As it happens I had a snake dream too just a couple of nights ago! Perhaps snake dreams are going around?

I've never had a snake dream, that I recall, but I had a lion chasing me, & of course bullies. In one dream my volkswagon bug (that I had at the time) & I were being chased by bullies & we suddenly took to the air & got away. I remember saying to my car, "I didn't know you could fly!!" I had had many flying dreams, just me, especially during my childhood, but this was the only time I was in a flying car. Anyway, snakes, lions, bullies, whatever, don't they probably represent challenges in our lives, and/or things we're afraid of?

That would be cool to fly in a Volkswagon bug. I love those cars. They're so cute! My nightmares are usually about my ex-husband, who was a big bully. I think you are right, Breaking Dawn. Those kinds of dreams are about fears or concerns. When I have a really bad nightmare, I will do the 5-4-3-2-1 grounding exercise where you name 5 things you can see, 4 things you can feel, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell and 1 good thing about yourself. TunedOut, I hope you're feeling better about it.

When I woke up this morning, I didn't think of the snake dream. I am still not sure if I am processing fears from the past or being warned about something or someone in the future but I am not afraid and moving on. Thanks for your grounding exercises Deilla!

I’m glad you’re feeling better. If the dream worked like a warning to be on guard of any trouble, it can’t hurt to be paying attention.

New realizations are still hitting me about my son. He was emotionally alienated from me longer ago than I thought. When he did not confide me in about his getting fired from his internship, he was already distanced. I had no clue it had already happened.

There was a snake whispering in his ear I did not see until it bit me.

I am very happy to be here with all of you, such interesting & good people.

This thread has been going for quite a while and I had never participated in it. So many times I have felt like a misfit. What makes me feel that way the most is I notice that people don't seem to spend much time talking to me. I would notice that the very same people who don't spend much time with me seem to engage in lengthy conversations with other people. I feel like that hurts me so much.

Welcome to the Misfits room! I hope you find this to be a comforting place to be.