Depression Vent Room for Misfits

Hi Fuzzy, a humble and caring hug from me to you glad to see your posts

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Respectful hugs to all

Hello, friends, and hope rest of the week goes well!!

Nothing new with the Skeezyks... just more of the same old junk. And too late to do anything about any of it. It all becomes so tiring after a while. Most of the time I'll just be glad when it's finally over. Well... actually I won't be "glad" or anything else because there won't be any me to be tired of anything.

I've been doing a little bit better lately. I've been tending to some back burner things. But I still feel sad a lot. Anyway, I keep trying, when I can, & I see some progress that glves me hope. I wish all of you better days, & thank you very much for being here!!

My spouse and I were sitting on our little front patio this morning. It had been forecasted there'd be rain. However, the rain went south. The sky was full of wispy white clouds. I love clouds. And the thought occurred to me that, when I die and am cremated, I hope some of the molecules released from my body become part of the clouds.

Wow, Skeezyks, that is so beautiful! And I can relate to that, very well.

I came here this morning to vent, & I reread my last post, & I'm wondering if it might be misunderstood. So first, I wish to clarify. And I hope I don't need to apologize? I believe in God a jillion zillion percent!!!

I woke up this morning very sad, with tears & a lot of painful hurt. So I reached into my "bag of tricks" & remembered how coffee actually lifts my mood. So I got myself a cup of coffee, & it did lift me a little bit out of my sadness. Then, because I felt a little bit better, I decided to read some posts here. Well, maybe because I was thinking about others & less of myself, I felt less of my own sadness. So I guess that shows me that, for me, some coffee & thinking of others is like medicine. (I'm not currently on any prescribed meds.) Anyway, then I decided to post here because I kind of felt like venting? If that's what I'm doing.

Sometimes you're just along for the ride. I'm sure I'll get where I need to, but boy, what a winding road!

Not too much to say today. It's been raining on-and-off. Yesterday was a scorcher! The temperature has moderated today. But it's supposed to get hot again this weekend. (I'm grateful for air conditioning.)

@Breaking Dawn : I'm glad you have your faith. There was a time, decades ago, when I tried to have or perhaps imagined I had. But I don't know as I ever really did. And I certainly don't now. But I think it would be nice to have a faith of one sort or another.

To me one either has faith or they don't. And I don't. I accept the explanation for the existence of life on earth that is provided by the theory of evolution. So, for me, when I die (which probably isn't that far off given my age) all that will remain will be a handful of ashes and (hopefully) some molecules that will rise up to join the clouds. (They can throw the ashes in the trash if it's legal to do so where I live.)

That all sounds like a real downer I suppose. However, for me, there's a certain comfort in the anticipation of oblivion. As has been said by others, such as Carl Sagan and Neil deGrasse Tyson, we are star-stuff. The atoms that make up our bodies were forged in those first stars that burst forth to create our universe. And so, when I die, those little guys will simply return from whence they came... dust in the wind.

@Skeezyks, I love everything you are saying! I have many books, including by Carl, & I love Edgar Allan Poe's beautiful Eureka! I believe the atoms are intelligent. I believe God created all of it. And loves all of it.

The late Indian mystic, Ramana Maharshi (1879 – 1950) was quoted as saying: "They say I am dying. But I will be here more alive than ever. Where else would I go?"

Struggling a lot this week with mental and physical health issues, each is impacting the other, and not in a good way.
Trying to focus on other people and keeping as busy as I can manage so my thoughts don't start going down that dark hole....but it's always there, even if just lurking in the background.
Recent rupture with T has left me feeling more alone than ever.

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I've been having similar symptoms, @East17. Almost no energy. But I don't have a T. And I don't feel alone. (I have the voices.)

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Hugs to all. And Happy Fathers Day to the fathers.

Hello all... I haven't posted on this thread before but I decided to today because I'm just kind of taking a nose dive and have that gnawing empty feeling and a hard time being positive or hopeful about much of anything ... it doesn't really help to complain, I guess, but I thought I would post something and say that I am hoping you all had something (even if small) to look forward to today.

@Nix Welcome to the Misfits thread Nix. Sorry you're in one of those downhill spirals. Hope things begin looking up for you soon.

Thank you, @Skeezyks.

It occurred to me, this morning, that the bulk of my depression (as well as a lot of my anxiety perhaps?) is situational. The problem is those situations aren't going to change. So I'm just stuck with the whole mess. Oh well...

Where have all the flowers gone (as the song says)... _ _ _ _

Oh, my goodness, @Skeezyks. Is it because this thread hasn't been posted on in a while? Or is it something in your own life?

Well, I know I'm weird, but I realize that's just part of being my real self. And I am me, whoever that is. Some people believe that what we are really doing every day is dreaming & "life" isn't real. So I guess I shouldn't get so sad or apprehensive about things? I mean, if I'm only dreaming all this... But then, what about the pain that feels so real?