Depression Vent Room for Misfits

Thanks for your "Mention" Breaking Dawn. My post was just because no one seemed to be posting here recently. I feel sort-of attached to this thread & would hate to see it fade away.

In my dream, Breaking Dawn, there is a day when the sadness and apprehension you feel has melted away and you feel a deep sense of peace within.

Well said, Skeezyks. I harbor a similar dream, but for everyone (including me) who faces the trials that depression lays out for us. I gain strength from the fact that I know that I am not alone & from the resilience & experience that the folks here show in their postings. We all deserve some peace & serenity.

I've been wanting to post an update of sorts for some time, but it's taken me a while to find what felt like the right moment to do so and the right place to put it.

A few weeks ago, I checked myself into the psych ward for the 1st time ever, where I stayed as an inpatient for a week. By requesting this myself, it allowed me to feel some sense of retaining control - something that has always been important to me. I have to say, that it really did help me, insomuch as I was able to get some physical & mental rest and come back from the downward spiral that I knew I was losing my fight against. So, I find myself back to where I had been a few years past - in recovery, but daunted by the (largely situational) challenges ahead, whilst trying to keep my headspace in a good place. Wish me luck!

Good luck, marvin_pa!!

Thanks for the update marvin_pa. It's good to hear from you. I'm so glad that the inpatient stay was helpful

It's great that you're back in recovery

Wishing you luck

Thanks for this post marvin_pa, well said. I have a similar dream. Everyone deserves peace and serenity

little turtle said

I am trying to be a good person...

I've been thinking the same thing.

Much love and respect to all

I'm feeling depressed. I tend to post less when I'm feeling this way. Me & the voices have been listening to beautiful music & singing to the lyrics on the internet. I expect to feel better later. I try different things. I hope all of you will feel better, too.

What sort of music have you been listening to? If you'd like to share?

I'm going to try mindfulness (again). I try a bit here and there but haven't got very far with it.

Hi, @Fuzzybear! One of my favorite songs is "Try Everything" by Shakira, from the animated film "Zootopia" (or it's Zootropolis in the UK version?) Anyway, the song is so uplifting to me. Also I like an old song that Natalie Cole did of "Unforgettable". She created a duet of her singing with her father, Nat King Cole, by recording her own voice on top of his old recording of that song. Also I like listening to Sting singing "Fields of Gold." And the music behind him on that recording is so pretty. I hope the mindfulness helps this time.

Not much going on in the Skeezyks' world. Same old, same old. I am working on getting myself off of clonazepam. I'm halfway there and, so far, so good. I have to try to do this because it's becoming increasingly difficult, for a variety of reasons, to get to my pdoc's office every 3 months especially during the winter months. If I can get myself off of the clonazepam, then I can leave my quarterly pdoc appointments behind.

I mostly listen to what's termed "relaxing music" on YouTube. Three of my favorites are: the "relaxdaily" channel, Peder B. Helland's channel, and the BGM channel. Beyond that, I have lots of favorite songs. But one that really gets me where I live, as the saying goes, is (of course) "Nobody Knows Me at All" by the Weepies because... nobody knows me at all... even me...

Thank you, @Skeezyks. It's so good to hear from you! And thank you for sharing your music. I googled The Weepies' Nobody Knows Me At All, & me & my voices enjoyed it.

So very true, we are not delusional, the pain is real.

Not feeling well today morning as usual.They diagnosed that I have less than the optimum amount of oxygen in my brain and that makes me feel sick and tired the whole time. I have asthma too and I already used the inhaler a few times. I hope....I wish I feel just a little better as the day progresses. Atm I can't get out of bed. I'm typing on my phone in bed.

Dear @MimiBhaduri0, Sending get well wishes full of love, & good healthy energy from the cosmos. I think it's good that you're resting. Take good care of yourself, dear Mimi.

Thank you Breaking Dawn.

I feel sad about the death of someone who will always be special. I wish for all of you who are hurting this way to feel the comfort of love from all of us, & from beyond.

I feel very sad and anxious at the same time. And very very lonely. I feel afraid of the future. What if I am stuck in India forever? I just can't adapt to the continuous trauma I have to deal with here every moment. I feel very restless and impatient as well. Am I doomed to feel like this as long as I live? Will help never arrive?

No, @MimiBhaduri0, you are not doomed to live like this for the rest of your life. The world/life is always changing. Opportunity arrives when you least expect it, so stay ready for when it happens. I believe your strength will keep growing, in spite of everything you're going through. God bless you, dear Mimi!

Thanks so much Breaking Dawn. I hope what you say comes true. I am truly grateful to you.