[childofchaos831]

My depression is doing pretty good today and the last several days. One of my docs tried changing a medication. My birth control actually. To see if PMDD is really affecting me. There are only two BC's I can take though, for health reasons. But, the new one seems to be helping a lot! I've been feeling a lot better since starting it, actually.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m doing well. I still miss my old therapist but it’s not a consistent feeling. Today wasn’t too bad besides early this morning.

[WastingAsparagus]

My depression is horrible right now. Don't know what to do.

Today was an alright kind of day. My sister called and it went alright. Went on a longer bike ride today. It's the first time I've done it in three weeks since I had the accident.

[Breaking Dawn]

Doing ok right now.

[Deilla]

I'm tired and grouchy.

I am fine, mostly! Good high functioning people in my community have been supportive with regard to the ugly complaint that somebody probably sent in their anger to harm me. I don't want to spend more energy upon it. I don't feel well among people who fight where there is nothing to fight about. To make mountains out of a molehills is not the way I like to interact with people. That special and harmful incident now belongs to the past. My focus will be on the here and now and on future, work, leisure, family and friends and, not to forget, on God. I don't have available time for bearing grudges. There will of course always come some "down"-days, but so it is for everyone. I have made a system that helps me cope with depression when that is necessary, so life is almost wonderful (+/-).

[Mountaindewed]

I’m pretty down today. I’m about 95% sure it’s a result of the bad weather and time change, and if it was sunny and warm outside I’d be feeling fine.

Well, as it turned out, I showed up for work but work didn't show up for me. Absolutely nothing for the whole day. Not one package coming in or going out and no mail. Today was a very depressing day. Also there's talk about the place closing up and what am I going to do. I've told some people that I plan to at least take some time off for myself, since I am at retirement age. Some were trying to talk me out of retiring. It's my life, what does it matter to them? I just hate getting advice or suggestions when I don't ask for it.

[Deilla]

I am okay. I'm just a little sensitive. I wish I weren't, I would otherwise be in a better mood.

[WastingAsparagus]

A lot better today since my psychiatrist upped my meds.

[Rose76]

Been awake all night. Sore neck, sore upper arms. Depressed.

Took Depakote 250 mg. Didn't do anything far as I can tell. Maybe I should get back on Seroquel.

I took a day off from work today because I went to the dentist. The dental work turned out to be very light. It almost seemed like I really didn't have to take a day off after all. But it's nice to do my own thing just for today. Well, shoot, it's a small taste of retirement after all! For some strange reason, I feel guilty for not going to work today. What would it feel like it it were that way for good?

I just did some light errands after the dental appointment, and that's it for now. I got the whole afternoon to think of something. A bike ride is in the plans.

[Rose76]

Have to push myself, or I'm going to get deeper into a hole that's hard to get out of.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m slightly down today but again I think it’s mostly weather related and I was very tired physically as well.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm ok right now.

I had my ups and downs today. In the morning I felt depressed and anxious about going to the dentist. It went better than I thought it would. I felt up in the late morning and early afternoon. I took a two and a half hour bike ride in the afternoon. I felt let down and depressed after the bike ride.

Tonight I feel down and anxious about having to go back to work tomorrow.

[Deilla]

I'm having a difficult time. I tried to work out a problem at one of my doctor's offices. The lady on the phone was rude to me. I said that I was getting vaccinated. She told me that I could still get Covid and spread it to others. She was very hateful. And this coming from a doctor's office.

[Deilla]

I'm still not doing well. I haven't been able to get over that rude lady from yesterday. It's affected my whole day.

Went back to work today. Was busy in the morning, but it was because of administrative things and not with packages and mail, which is my main task. Once again, very little with the mail and packages today.

I had a phone meeting with the managers and co-worker. The co-worker wants to retire next month. Also the managers were asking me what will I do when the job ends. Will I retire? So there's talk and feeling that my job will be ending pretty soon, but don't know when.

Tonight I feel pretty down. I guess that I just feel more lonely than depressed about my job coming to an end. My ex-friend called and left a message wishing me Happy St. Patrick's Day. I feel bad when I hear from him. He sounds so nice that it makes me feel guilty that I had to let him go. But he was bringing me down so much.

[Deilla]

I'm very anxious. My cat is whining. I'm trying to make him happy. I have an appointment tomorrow that I'm nervous about. I can't sleep. Nothing seems to be going right.

[Mountaindewed]

I feel pretty good today. I got a lot of stuff taken care of that I feel good about. The sun is out too. I think I am finally forgetting about my old therapist although the new one wants to talk to the old and I gave them both permission to talk. At least they are talking through email so there won’t be any telephone tag going on. I feel like email is more in depth anyways.

[Aardwolf]

Today is numb

[Rose76]

Yesterday went pretty good. Today's been a waste.

More of the same today. Still talking and wondering what's going to happen at work. There are servers from the lab area that have been yanked out and will be shipped out the place. The maintenance man is going to retire next month. He mentioned that he is going to show me some things that he does. I prefer not to get involved in his job at all and I'm a poor candidate for his position. No one will be hired to take his place. It feels like body pains after a lot of blood has been drained (meaning that the place is bleeding out).