Daily check in thread:Ups and Downs #30

Deilla · Oct 19, 2021, 10:49 PM

I've been sick today. I have moments where I feel okay and then moments where I feel pretty bad. I'm hurting now but I can't take any more Tylenol. I'm going to try Theraflu tomorrow. I just need to get some sleep.

hvert · 04:04 AM

I did not sleep well at all and worry about the effect that will have on the rest of the day.

Also, I had a kind of odd incident yesterday, the kind I should probably not overthink. I'm in a small online class. The class gets together outside of class (online) once a month for an unstructured social event.

I never went to the social chat because I had a schedule conflict. The conflict went away so I went for the first time yesterday. I felt out of place - the group is cohesive and has even more meetings outside of class than I realized. At one point they were talking about something they were doing that I hadn't been invited to and it just felt weird. I am invited now but how can I tell if they really wanted to invite me or just felt pressured to? Does it matter? Probably not.

Deilla · Oct 20, 2021, 09:30 AM

I'm still sick. I'm taking Theraflu. I have a Covid test set up for tomorrow. I just want to rest and take it easy.

Breaking Dawn · Oct 20, 2021, 09:40 AM

I enjoyed a delicious cup of coffee this morning & that gave me a warm & comfortable up.

Oct 20, 2021, 10:09 PM

Not much of a day today. Felt so-so to depressed. I should be feeling very happy with the way things are for me but I just don't. I don't know why.

Deilla · Oct 21, 2021, 04:39 AM

I feel a lot better today. I decided to order a Covid test and take it at home. I just don't want to leave my house. I want to rest and relax today.

regretful · Oct 21, 2021, 02:26 PM

Six days away from this forum...still depressed; arguments with my wife; ongoing sleep problems...This really is a horrendous illness. I wish all of you well in your struggle.

Deilla · Oct 22, 2021, 05:45 PM

I did my Covid test this morning. I was very anxious, but I did it. Tonight I am depressed. I'm all alone. I have no one to talk to. I ask my sister if she wants to talk. She always tells me no. I don't think my sister likes me. My mom is busy. No one else cares. I have no one.

Breaking Dawn · Oct 22, 2021, 06:46 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Deilla

I did my Covid test this morning. I was very anxious, but I did it. Tonight I am depressed. I'm all alone. I have no one to talk to. I ask my sister if she wants to talk. She always tells me no. I don't think my sister likes me. My mom is busy. No one else cares. I have no one.

I'm so sorry, Deilla.

I hope you feel better soon.

Deilla · Oct 23, 2021, 05:51 PM

I took a shower. I've been dreading it. But tomorrow is my birthday and my mom is coming by to pick me up for a celebration. I am clean now so I can relax. I might go to bed early.

Buffy01 · Oct 23, 2021, 07:42 PM

I been feeling really depressed lately again.

Deilla · Oct 24, 2021, 11:10 AM

I'm getting the booster shot this morning. I am nervous about going. I'm trying to take in deep breaths and relax.

cinnamonsun · Oct 24, 2021, 01:21 PM

Some days...a lot of days...there is no hunger or interest in food.
I snack on this or that, to keep my blood sugar up. But I might have one real meal a day. It's hard to feel motivated or interested.
I weigh 133 pounds. I don't think I need to lose weight. I am fine with my body image. It's hard to find anything I want to eat. Nothing is appealing.

I'm content right now with grazing, at least I'm eating something.
Sometimes, this is what depression looks like.

hvert · Oct 25, 2021, 05:27 AM

Feeling stressed today. Stressed about money, stressed about unfinished projects, feeling like there's not enough time in the day.

Deilla · Oct 25, 2021, 09:13 AM

I also feel stressed. I'm waiting on a phone call. The receptionist acts like she doesn't know who I am. I'm a client. I expect a phone call. I've already paid money for this service. It's just stressful. I need to relax. It's hard to play my games when I don't know if I'll be interrupted by a phone call.

Oct 25, 2021, 06:37 PM

Not a great day for me emotionally today. I had to argue with the utility company because of the last payment I made had insufficient funds. I had enough money in my checking account to cover what I had to pay. And my bank told me that there was no recent attempt by that utility company on record to cash my check. This also had happened a couple of months ago with that utility company.

This afternoon I called an old friend of mine. He messaged me a week ago saying he was going to call me but he never did. He didn't sound too good to me when I talked to him. He sounded tired and told me that he has been having some falls. So that doesn't sound too good to me.

I was going to go on a bike ride but didn't because of rain. The rain came just as I was going out. Oh well. Also it's been a gloomy day and people seem to be unhappy.

3rd rock · Oct 25, 2021, 07:06 PM

I have submitted my latest novel. I only have to wait a little while before it's approved and starts showing up for sale. Now I have to work on formatting the paperback version, which shouldn't take very long.

Deilla · Oct 26, 2021, 12:49 AM

I can't sleep. I feel like I should be doing things. I am trying to chill. I sort of feel relaxed. I am doing chores, so I feel productive, which is good.

Mountaindewed · Oct 26, 2021, 04:07 PM

I am depressed today but I swear it’s not post op. I just feel bad that I’m not doing anything with my life. I’m not depressed about anything in particular besides thanksgiving. I mean I still feel like my surgery was a success so I don’t really think it’s post op depression. Some days are better then others but I honestly don’t think it’s surgery related. It could be SAD related though.

hvert · Oct 27, 2021, 05:38 AM

I've read that the side effects from anesthesia can linger for months, fwiw.

I feel sort of positive today, or like I have no reason not to at least feel neutral.

Buffy01 · Oct 27, 2021, 12:16 PM

I been feeling really down today

there is no reason for me to be this down especially since I started taking medicine for my anxiety and depression. I feel like I need to cry today

Buffy01 · Oct 27, 2021, 02:49 PM

I been feeling really depressed lately especially today. Everything today just feel really bad and really down and really hurt. I been having some really bad days lately especially in the past week :sadhug: :grouphug:

Mountaindewed · Oct 27, 2021, 04:52 PM

I’m still down. I feel like it’s already day lights savings. Whatever one happens in the fall. I can never remember. My mom got blackout curtains for me and they aren’t exactly helpful. It’s still tough knowing what type of depression I’m feeling. I know it’s not Covid depression anymore. Or depression about my old therapist. Those both seem to have finally passed. I don’t know. I’m just frustrated right now.

I’m having some pain that could possibly be surgery related. Who knows. Plus I’ve had those am I recovering fast enough thoughts today. My therapist has been working through them with me and she’s made some good points.