[Deilla]

I am deeply depressed and unable to sleep.

Feeling deeply depressed today. I guess it's mostly because it's very hot outside. I think that today had to be the hottest day of the year. I was able to do my cleaning today and I had to wipe the sweat off constantly while cleaning. When it's so hot, I don't feel like doing anything.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I have just finished the final rewrite to my novel. I'm hoping this will be the final rewrite. I'll resume submissions tomorrow.

I'm having to deal with excessive record-breaking heat now. I didn't sleep well last night because it was way too hot. When I wake up my mind is full of depression and anxiety about the future. The future seem to look bleak for me.

Also a friend, whom I had recently let go, called me this morning. I just got his message. I wish he would apologize. I don't know if that's too much to ask. We've been through it before. After I let him go because of his rudeness I, like a fool, take him back and then that crap goes on again.

Right now I'm not doing much and sweating.

[T4bbyCat]

Originally Posted by will19

I'm having to deal with excessive record-breaking heat now. I didn't sleep well last night because it was way too hot. When I wake up my mind is full of depression and anxiety about the future. The future seem to look bleak for me.

Yes, there's been a seemingly never-ending series of heat waves across the globe... and that's after last year's record-shattering heat of 110-120+ F in my area, where summer is usually in the 70's or 80's at most. It's just been unpleasant and doesn't help when thinking about the future. I hope we find a solution and a path forward for all our ills...

A boring day today and a kind of day that it's not nice to go out because it's hot. I'm still having trouble sleeping because of the heat. I get depression easily when I don't get a good night's sleep plus hot weather makes me depressed anyways.

I've just noticed a couple of spots on my skin that doesn't look right to me. I plan to call the Dermatologist tomorrow. I don't know when I will be seen. I have anxiety about this, but on the other hand, I could be over reacting which I always do. I have an appointment with my Primary Care Physician next week for a routine check up. I have anxiety about that, too.

Overall, I'm feeling blah. I have heavy feelings of doom and gloom and can't seem to cheer up.

[Sunflower123]

I’m really struggling tonight. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

[3rd rock]

I'm really tired today, for some reason. I'm going to go to bed really early. I really don't feel well, physically. I just hope I recover with a good night's sleep so I can function at work tomorrow. Because of the holiday I have only a three-day week this week.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by will19

A boring day today and a kind of day that it's not nice to go out because it's hot. I'm still having trouble sleeping because of the heat. I get depression easily when I don't get a good night's sleep plus hot weather makes me depressed anyways.

I've just noticed a couple of spots on my skin that doesn't look right to me. I plan to call the Dermatologist tomorrow. I don't know when I will be seen. I have anxiety about this, but on the other hand, I could be over reacting which I always do. I have an appointment with my Primary Care Physician next week for a routine check up. I have anxiety about that, too.

Overall, I'm feeling blah. I have heavy feelings of doom and gloom and can't seem to cheer up.

(((will19)))
Hope you feel better soon.

[Violetta75]

I'm spending way too much time in bed. Some things ache because of laying around. i don't know how to get ambition to do anything, seems like nothing is worth doing

Another dull and hot day for me today. Once again I didn't sleep well because of the heat. It was slightly cooler last night than it's been before. But not cooler enough for me! So far the only highlight of the day was that I went to the drug store down the road and bought some items to take care of my teeth. These items are never sold in a regular supermarket. And it was a special senior's discount today, so I saved a lot.

Nothing much lined up for tonight. Well, I don't do much at night anyways. I hope I will feel better when this heat spell ends. I just heard that there were some power outages near where I live because of the grids being overloaded. I'm fortunate that I don't need to turn on the A/C.

[Breaking Dawn]

Like some of you I've been having a hard time, and I'm hanging in there.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Like some of you I've been having a hard time, and I'm hanging in there.

(((Breaking Dawn)))
You give me the courage to go on. I hope you feel better soon. I'm hanging in there too.

Having anxiety and depression mainly about what I should do for myself in the future since I feel like I'm not in the right place now. All of the heat and humidity we're having lately is not helping me along with not sleeping well because of it. Tonight the low temp. will be 80 degrees. That's not the high, that's the lowest it will be overnight. Great!

Yesterday I got into a nice conversation with a woman neighbor. She tells me that she's had tremendous struggles with depression. It's nice for me to talk with someone who understands it all. I hope I made her feel better. I haven't given her any suggestions on what she can or should do for herself. She acts like she likes my insights as to what I say. I'm not much into giving others suggestions and/or advice when they don't ask for it from me. She gave me some but it seems like it was stuff I've heard before. She seems like a caring person.

[Mountaindewed]

I just have a lot on my mind I'm not sure I'd call it straight up depression though. Although I didn't see anyone in a particularly cheery mood while I was out. Everyone seemed a bit down today, probably to be expected.

[Breaking Dawn]

Feeling down, but think of how it might be later.

It's still very warm outside, however, we're having all-day rains. Even though it's muggy it feels refreshing being in the rain a little bit and some breezes help. I still haven't slept well and that wreaks havoc on my depression and anxiety.

Nothing much went on today except for grocery shopping and a little exercise. No bike riding today because it's too wet. So I'm cooped up inside.

[Deilla]

I've been physically ill today. Emotionally, I'm not doing well. I'm trying to relax now. I will go to bed early.

[jmariah001]

It's been a while since I've been on. My mood is falling like a stone. I tried the 988 number earlier. It seemed to help a little. My Grandma is in her last days. Although I am not that close to her, it's still sad. I also have trouble with my mood now that fall is coming. I have SAD. I have to call my pdoc tomorrow and get referred to a therapist before I do something stupid.

[hvert]

I hope we all get a little respite soon. I have to make some phone calls today that I am not looking forward to.

A pretty good day today. In the afternoon I went to see my Primary Care Physician and it went well. It's still a bit warm outside but cooling off.

[Deilla]

I've been feeling so sick lately, that I went to the ER. My doctor said that was the best place for me to go. I had to call 911 for an ambulance. I'm home now and doing better.

[3rd rock]

I really don't like my life. It's absolutely impossible to get published. I've made nearly 120 submissions and I haven't gotten back a single request for the manuscript. I can rationalize this failure any number of ways, but at the end of the day I'm still unpublished. I have exactly one dream, one goal in life, and even when I'm at my absolute best I still can't accomplish it. I should just give up and content myself to the miserable, unremarkable little existence I've got. For the next thirty years I'm going to be stuck in this pointless rut. All my dreams of success as an author, of moving out into the countryside and living in peace and quiet, it's all for nothing. I'm stuck in this dank, nearly-unlivable apartment, in this concrete urinal of a city, with absolutely no chance of happiness, or even fulfilment.

On the upside, I continue to pay down debt. I expect to be debt-free by the end of next year. Then I can begin saving for retirement. I figure my mid-30s is as good a time as any to start. Hopefully between government social security, my union pension, and any investments I'm able to make over 30 years of savings, I may be in a position to retire by 65.

i can not stop thinking about the hundrereds and thousands... possibly millions of hours of life I've wasted

and that includes today

bleh

[Breaking Dawn]

Very difficult today.