[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Violetta75

Very lonely and depressed. If my past is any indication of my future, it looks like things will never get better, only worse. i guess i just have to accept whatever comes, there isn't a choice.

I feel exactly the same. Hugs. Hope you feel better soon.

I'm feeling like things are not going well lately. I had let go two people in my life and they were all that I had. They were being annoying to me (long story). So now I have no one. I had a blood test this morning and got a result. I was not satisfied with the result. So I'm in a gloomy mood. For some strange reason, I knew that it was not going to be a great day today. I'm feeling like no one cares.

[3rd rock]

I am rewriting parts of my novel one more time, especially the early parts. I hope rewrites on the first few chapters will increase my chances of finding an agent or publisher. They typically require submissions to include a sample of the first 1-5 chapters, so rewriting these to make them better might increase my chances on any given submission. I expect these rewrites to be finished by the end of the labor day long weekend, after which time I'll resume submitting.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by will19

I'm feeling like things are not going well lately. I had let go two people in my life and they were all that I had. They were being annoying to me (long story). So now I have no one. I had a blood test this morning and got a result. I was not satisfied with the result. So I'm in a gloomy mood. For some strange reason, I knew that it was not going to be a great day today. I'm feeling like no one cares.

(((will19)))

[downandlonely]

I lost a lot of friends recently.

Possible trigger:

I spoke out publicly against child abuse, and found that many of them disagree and feel that children need to be beaten. It was quite shocking.

Felt alright after my routine of the Saturday morning cleaning. But overall feeling like I'm in a slump. It's like nothing is lining up well; and if some little nice thing were about to happen, then it would get blown out. It's one of those kind of days. Like being on a team who's constantly losing and can't do anything right.

[Violetta75]

i wish i could just sleep away the next week.... it's the only good thing lately even though it's not enough

Weird morning. I was busy making a batch of spaghetti sauce for the next four weeks, like I do. It appeared my sister called a couple of times but didn't leave a message. And then my friend from college called a couple of times and didn't leave a message either. So I'm wondering if there's a problem with my voicemail.

The last time I spoke to my sister I told her I didn't want to do the phone calls anymore because she's too upsetting to me. So I wonder if she had something to tell me or if her phone accidentally called. Around the same time my friend, whom I had split up recently, sent me a message saying that he's worried about me. I don't know why people upset me and then they want to get back together with me and not apologize. I don't get it.

I had planned to call my college friend later today. I called him back but just left a message. I hope I can get through to him sometime today. I feel like I really need him or anyone else who can lend an ear.

Originally Posted by will19

Weird morning. I was busy making a batch of spaghetti sauce for the next four weeks, like I do. It appeared my sister called a couple of times but didn't leave a message. And then my friend from college called a couple of times and didn't leave a message either. So I'm wondering if there's a problem with my voicemail.

I fixed the voicemail problem. I had a nice neighbor who let me make a phone call to myself to test the voicemail. The voicemail was not coming on, so I unplugged my phone and internet connection and rebooted. VOICEMAIL WORKS NOW!

[downandlonely]

Went out to a bar tonight for the first time since pre-Covid. I forgot how loud it gets. Had to scream to be heard.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by will19

I fixed the voicemail problem. I had a nice neighbor who let me make a phone call to myself to test the voicemail. The voicemail was not coming on, so I unplugged my phone and internet connection and rebooted. VOICEMAIL WORKS NOW!

Great will19!

[Deilla]

I had to quit online therapy. So now I feel pretty alone. I don't have my therapy room anymore so I can't write what I think about. I could write in a journal but it's better when you know someone will read it and respond. So I'm really stressed about that.

[hvert]

I feel really blah and unfocused lately. Not sure how to snap out of it.

[MimiBhaduri0]

22:37 in India. I feel dizzy, lightheaded, weak and exhausted, feel like I'm going to collapse and pass out any moment. Plus severe nausea.
Hope the oxygen level in my brain increases soon...I really feel very very sick.

[Buffy01]

I wished that I felt good about myself and had high self esteem.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling sad today.

[3rd rock]

Sometimes it seems like the more work I do on this manuscript, the more work I create for myself. I can start the day with ten more things left to do, and then at the end of the day I might have fifteen or twenty. It's maddening sometimes.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by TheGal

Hi Dawn,

I'm down today. I want to cry, but I can't... the tears just won't come... I am so overloaded that I've shut down. Even the sun and the natural beauty around me doesn't reach me... I'm so distant and far away.....

So I'm listening to REM and picking my nails... :(

How are you doing/

I feel the same way. You're not alone.

[Buffy01]

I have been feeling really down especially lately. I wished that I could feel better, and people wouldn't hurt my feelings all the time especially my family.

[Deilla]

I'm not doing well tonight. I feel sad and lonely. I went out and bought another pack of cigarettes. It helps me cope.

Yesterday was a kind of day when little things went wrong. I had been waiting and expecting a check by mail from the credit card that's a "cash reward". I made a call on the 17th and was told it would come by mail. Yesterday, after waiting all that time, it still hadn't arrived. So I called the CC company and that process was never done. This time they will send it by electronic deposit. Also the ATM machine at a 7-11 at where I live will not dispense cash for me. It would say "invalid transaction". My Credit Union told me it shouldn't have happened because there's no problem with my account but a problem with the ATM machine. I called the ATM Customer Service and told them and a guy I spoke to was rude.

Today seemed like a total turnaround from yesterday. My electronic deposit get through this morning. It was unexpected but I was very happy about it! So that made my day right there. Later on I had a nice talk to my Financial Advisor and he was helpful. But I still have some anxiety about the future.

[Violetta75]

This isn't the worst that i've ever felt, so there's that i guess

[Sunflower123]

I feel restless and down tonight. I made an unfortunate decision and I’m finding it hard to forgive myself.

I'm feeling tired and emotionally under the weather lately. I think it's because of the weather. It's been very hot and it looks like the heat is going to be around for a while. I don't do hot weather well. I'm having a hard time sleeping, too. I can't sleep well because of the heat. Hopefully the heat wave will be over soon.

[3rd rock]

I have just finished the final rewrite to my novel. I'm hoping this will be the final rewrite. I'll resume submissions tomorrow.