[TheGal]

I'm not doing well. And i am very sad about it, really.

If there is anyone in chat, I'll be there for a bit...

[Deilla]

I was in the hospital for 8 days and when I got out, things got worse for me. But I've been hanging in there. I journal, sleep, get pissed off at my therapist, cry, sleep some more and do nothing.

[Rose76]

I wasted the day till 3 p.m. Then I got started.

I hope I can get up and started tomorrow morning. Morning is when I have the least gumption.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

Lately I been feeling really awful about myself.

That is the depression speaking. Do you have any "tools" yoy can use to "break" yourself out of depression, slowly, but still on the road to better feelings to leve with?

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I wasted the day till 3 p.m. Then I got started.

I hope I can get up and started tomorrow morning. Morning is when I have the least gumption.

WOW, at least you did start! That is good! My mornings are the worst as well.

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I was in the hospital for 8 days and when I got out, things got worse for me. But I've been hanging in there. I journal, sleep, get pissed off at my therapist, cry, sleep some more and do nothing.

Oh dear. I'm so sorry, Deilla. I'm working on some special wishes for you & will have a gentle breeze bring them to you. I'm visualizing beautiful healing energy surrounding you, resembling soft sunlight. And thank you for hanging in there!

[Rose76]

I was sick as a dog last night. Nausea, chills, everything. This morning I'm better than I was. Now if I can just finally fall asleep.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I was in the hospital for 8 days and when I got out, things got worse for me. But I've been hanging in there. I journal, sleep, get pissed off at my therapist, cry, sleep some more and do nothing.

You must have been in rough shape. I hope things turn around for you soon.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I had the two check-ups this morning. The results were good. Not an A+ but more like a B-. The skin check turned out OK. The other medical issue saw improvements but not totally "out of the woods". It's still a small battle.

I was extremely busy today. I was more busy today than a typical work day I had in the past. A lot of running around. I didn't sleep well last night because I was wound up about the two appointments. I woke up this morning with feelings of dread, like my world's coming to an end. But now I feeling better.

I’m glad that everything worked out for you.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

That is the depression speaking. Do you have any "tools" yoy can use to "break" yourself out of depression, slowly, but still on the road to better feelings to leve with? :hug:

I been looking for more positive quotes to recite to myself as well as finding stuff to brighten up my bedroom.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I was sick as a dog last night. Nausea, chills, everything. This morning I'm better than I was. Now if I can just finally fall asleep.

I’m sorry that you been sick. I hope you feel better.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I was in the hospital for 8 days and when I got out, things got worse for me. But I've been hanging in there. I journal, sleep, get pissed off at my therapist, cry, sleep some more and do nothing.

I’m sorry that you were in the hospital. I hope you feel better real soon. Hang in there this too shall pass.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I was sick as a dog last night. Nausea, chills, everything. This morning I'm better than I was. Now if I can just finally fall asleep.

I'm sorry to hear about that! Hope you still feel better!

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I been looking for more positive quotes to recite to myself as well as finding stuff to brighten up my bedroom.

Hope google can help you with finding positive quotes. Take the time you need to brighten up your bedroom and you will probably feel good for a long time!

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I was in the hospital for 8 days and when I got out, things got worse for me. But I've been hanging in there. I journal, sleep, get pissed off at my therapist, cry, sleep some more and do nothing.

Hope you find a good way to cope with life now that you are home again from hospital!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Hope google can help you with finding positive quotes. Take the time you need to brighten up your bedroom and you will probably feel good for a long time! :hug:

I usually go to my google for positive quotes

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

This time is bad. I fell deep down. If I don't stop this, I won't have much of a Christmas. I don't want to do that to myself.

I keep saying I'll do better tomorrow. Then I don't.

I’m sorry that time has been bad for you

[Rose76]

I was sick until 5 a.m. this morning. Now it's blown over. I'm going to just watch TV for a few hours. Then work on my tree. Not really depressed.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I usually go to my google for positive quotes

Of course you do. I only mentioned it in case you didn't feel well enough to remember to use google. When I am really down I don't always remember what is good for me if I have written it down. For the time beieng I read a lot in my old notes.

[Rosi700]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I was sick until 5 a.m. this morning. Now it's blown over. I'm going to just watch TV for a few hours. Then work on my tree. Not really depressed.

I am happy for you!

[Rosi700]

Today I have marked two months of my calendar to be my "observation period". It may seem funny to observe oneself, but I believe in it.

I have written up my main goal, which is to measure how well I do it on the items that are crucial for fighting depression like:

Physical exercises
Enough sleep and rest
Healthy food
Relaxation exercises
Vitamins.

When I do it that way, I will be able to see after two months if I have followed the daily structure I want to make persistent.

If that has worked and I feel better, I have really established the habits I need to control my depression and not to be controlled by it.

If I don't feel better, I have more to talk to my GP about. Then there has to be something else that works. (My meds do work well, it hangs more on the routine now).

Of course I expect a set-back now and then in this period, but so it is. A set-back is not a catastrophe as long as one has some psychological tools to help oneself up to go again ...

By the way; I think I know most of my triggers and how to prevent ...

For Christmas I am going away for a few days, so I will not do anything else at home then put on some tablecloth and just a little decoration so it can be cozy when I am back home after the celebration.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

Of course you do. :) I only mentioned it in case you didn't feel well enough to remember to use google. When I am really down I don't always remember what is good for me if I have written it down. For the time beieng I read a lot in my old notes. :hug:

Sometimes I forget myself. No worries.

[Rosi700]

I was able to recognize a trigger (when I start surfing around Internet for no reason, something usually goes on inside me), that can lead to further depression.

I give myself creds for catching the trigger before it did any harm.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rosi700

I was able to recognize a trigger (when I start surfing around Internet for no reason, something usually goes on inside me), that can lead to further depression.

I give myself creds for catching the trigger before it did any harm. :D

That is amazing.

[Rosi700]

This has been a difficult day with regard to coping with depression. I woke up happy and thought that this would be a good day. I had planned to do work in the house this day, but after doing my usual physical exercises for keeping my body as pain-free as possible, and after repeating my notes about how to cope with triggers. I felt sleepy.

To become sleepy outside of it's place in my daily planner is very difficult for me. If I lay down to rest I feel I am not following my to do list. If I continue to do what is on the list, I might do it poorly.

I chose to rest and found myself faced with one of my triggers after that. Luckily I was able to fight the trigger and I dusted the living room. After that too tired. I decided to use Netflix as "thought-blocker".

Not the best day, but I have at least eaten healthy meals and I did my physical exercises which I have on my "two month's observation list".

Sorry for ranting, but I needed to sort "things" out.