This day is just starting as of now and I'm already feeling depressed and stressed. My only friend left town this morning for a week to go on a small cruise. In my opinion I feel like he shouldn't go. He's not in great shape physically. I already miss him.

It seems like the place I'm living at is going wonky lately. We're getting all kinds of messages from the manager about people disobeying proper rules in a lot of ways. I don't feel like I'm guilty of those items but the heavy messaging about it makes me feel that I am. I told my friend about it a couple of days ago and says that it could be a sign that the apartment complex could be up for sale. That's probably why the pressure is on.

I just came back from grocery shopping and it cost more than I thought it would. And then I had to deal with a crazy remodeling project going on at the store.

I'm feeling like my nice world (for what little there is left of it) is heading for a collapse.

[Rose76]

I'm taking way too long to get things done. I've gotten content with being lazy. I gotta start making a schedule.

I was feeling alright early this morning and it looked like things are going to be better. But all of the good feeling and hopes dashed later on. I'm not feeling that well tonight emotionally.

[Rose76]

Having some anxiety. I get tired too easily.

[stahrgeyzer]

I'm in my depression cycle for awhile now. Hope it ends soon.

I'm feeling a better lately. My social life seems to be picking up a little bit, which is what I was hoping for. It feels scary. Like I'm being set up for some kind of a big fall. My mind has always worked that way. Maybe it's because of what it was like when I was growing up.

My friend has been calling me quite a few times since he's been away which is nice. What I don't understand is that he's on a small cruise and all he talks about is the food & service on the small ship and nothing else. He hasn't been off to explore any of the places where the ship stops at like others have. All along I thought it wasn't a good idea for him to go on that trip because he can't see & hear well and has other health issues.

[Buffy01]

i feel really bad because my sister messed with interview for the paper work that i needed

[Rose76]

I had a very good day, thanks to getting up before dawn and tackling stuff. I feel so good about what I accomplished.

A quiet day mostly. I did my laundry early in the morning, but when it was finished, then I didn't have much to do and a lot of free time remaining.

My friend is supposed to be back from his trip tomorrow. I don't know what time; probably in the evening. Lately I haven't heard much from him. Maybe it's because of the communications are not available. I worry about him because I never thought it was a good idea for him to go on that trip. So far he's doing alright and I hope something doesn't happen to him before his return here.

I got an email from my college friend and that was nice. I was worried because I called him on his birthday on the 1st of this month and felt like it didn't go well. He didn't say anything about being upset with me.

[3rd rock]

I stayed home from work tonight. I had mild, cold-like symptoms today. I could've probably gone to work, but I chose to call in sick anyways. I am still using up my paid sick days from work, so I hope it won't be a problem. I'm choosing to use the night instead to work on my writing, although I'm not hopeful for it.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling :sadhug really awful about myself lately

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

I had a pretty good day today. I was busy in the morning with some light shopping. I was busy in the afternoon also. I got myself a nice dinner for tonight; something I haven't had in a long time.

Sounds awesome

I cleaned this morning. Last night my friend called me from the airport to tell me he and his wife arrived safely. After cleaning this morning I spoke to him. It sounded like the trip was a bit of a disaster. He didn't get off the ship that much and his hearing aids malfunctioned. It was cold where they were. And now, at being back, he told me that his wife came down with COVID.

Other than that, not much going on for me. My depression has been feeling a little bit better lately.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I been feeling :sadhug really awful about myself lately

I think I might know what you mean. That's a very difficult state of mind to be in. I would bet a lot that you are underestimating yourself. You show yourself here to be a caring person. Whatever might be going on, I think you're trying. You just do what you're up to doing for now. I hope you feel better soon.

[Rose76]

I'm doing fairly ok. I was sick for a few days, but am feeling better.

Today is almost half way over. I kept myself busy this morning with some light stuff to do. Nothing much else to report about. My friend just informed me that he's not feeling well, either. Yesterday he told me that his wife came down with COVID and now he might have it. He says not feeling well and has some kind of unusual cough that he never had before. He is 87 and his wife is 91, so this is scary. I wish they didn't take that trip. I knew it was a bad idea, and I told him, but he insisted on going anyways. Too bad!

[TheGal]

I'm down in the dumps... just completely disheartened.

[hiddenaway]

I’ve been better. I’m exhausted and just generally drained.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I think I might know what you mean. That's a very difficult state of mind to be in. I would bet a lot that you are underestimating yourself. You show yourself here to be a caring person. Whatever might be going on, I think you're trying. You just do what you're up to doing for now. I hope you feel better soon.

Thank you for some great advice

[Calla lily12]

I feel anxious and very sad.

A so-so kind of day. I was busy this morning. As of now there's still a lot of today to go but I think nothing much is going to happen for the rest of the day. My friend called and said he has COVID now. He sounded fine on the phone. I hope he and his wife get over it soon.

[Deilla]

I was very depressed and bitter for most of the day. Someone ghosted me for no good reason. It hurt. But I've been reading from Tony Robin's book and I'm starting to feel better. I just made a gratitude list.

[Rose76]

I'm thousands of miles from home visiting family. This evening was a fiasco.

I just want to go home. I'm so sorry I came here at all. No need to get all depressed. I'll go to bed. Maybe tomorrow I'll sulk for awhile. Eventually, the day of my return flight will arrive. I just have to be here till then.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling pretty sad now. Someone else ghosted me. Someone whom I thought was a friend. We didn't talk much lately but that's no reason to ghost someone. I feel awful. She's not much of a person if she did that for no reason at all.

[Buffy01]

I had allowed myself to become upset :sadhug with how I allowed my brother to cause me to feel :hug about myself