[Buffy01]

I kept myself busy today to keep my mind busy from my depression.

[hiddenaway]

I really feel like shoving in my earbuds and zoning out for the rest of the evening…but I also don’t know what I want to listen to.

[Violetta75]

Someone I trusted, deeply disappointed me. It goes to show you don't know someone, even if it's for years. I'm glad they showed who they are. I know I'm not perfect, but some people don't like to face their own truths and faults.

It changes my future plans, but I'm grateful even though it's painful. To struggle is to learn. I'm still learning at 55. It's like the door of my heart wants to shut forever. Only my sons are allowed in, always. Someone said don't give up, well I give up on men, I no longer need one as a partner. I'll keep the few true friends in my life. I'm not depressed. I'm more resolved and determined to stay completely independent.

I'm feeling depressed. My back is still sore but feeling a bit better today than yesterday. I didn't sleep well last night because of the pain. It was hard to turn in bed with pain, though I slept a little bit better than I thought I would. I think the back pain has made me feel more tired than usual. Also I'm feeling like life is just the same over and over again. I feel like I'm in a rut; but yet I feel thankful that my life isn't chaotic or horrible.

To Violetta - I'm sorry this had happened to you. For me, I have met so many nice people and then it was unbelievable on how much they turned later on. It makes me have trust issues for others or hard to let others in my life.

[Buffy01]

I’m starting to go emotionally numb from my depression

[Violetta75]

I wasn't as resolved as I thought I was. I *****ed about the situation in my head all day and vented out in my car. It doesn't really change everything. I was thinking about not moving anyways. I had gone on a vacation early in the year and I was thinking about actually leaving this country for a while. The more I thought about it the less it made sense. It wouldn't have been possible for very long at all and then to come back and start from scratch? I'm waiting in line for housing. I was told the line is longer because of more and more people on the list but that doesn't mean I haven't lost my place in it. I really think it's just said to try and make me feel better, I'll likely be waiting for geared to income or subsidised housing for years and years yet.

I'll worry about that later. Who knows where this world is heading lately anyways. It's sad.

[Violetta75]

Originally Posted by will19

I'm feeling depressed. My back is still sore but feeling a bit better today than yesterday. I didn't sleep well last night because of the pain. It was hard to turn in bed with pain, though I slept a little bit better than I thought I would. I think the back pain has made me feel more tired than usual. Also I'm feeling like life is just the same over and over again. I feel like I'm in a rut; but yet I feel thankful that my life isn't chaotic or horrible.

To Violetta - I'm sorry this had happened to you. For me, I have met so many nice people and then it was unbelievable on how much they turned later on. It makes me have trust issues for others or hard to let others in my life.

Reminds me to stay grateful, and I hope the pain in the back is better. I too have met so many people I thought were nice to end up finding out they aren't trustworthy., and even turned hateful towards me. I don't really want to trust anyone either but I do need friends, I can't handle life without a bit of support.

I'm procrastinating, I've got to straighten out my room and get my stuff in order. At least the car is.

A typical day today. My back is still bothering me but it's getting better. Feeling tired in the mid-afternoon. It's hot and humid outside. Not my favorite kind of weather.

[Albatross2008]

I work second shift, hoping soon to transfer to third. I survived the shift tonight--my back didn't. I am in such PAIN.

[Rose76]

I'm still feeling pretty ok. Not depressed, but need to get motivated. I'm enjoying seeing the birds at the bird feeders outside my windows. It's not awful hot like it has been. Humidity yesterday was bad.

[Buffy01]

I’m been trying to fight my depression

[Albatross2008]

Physical pain continues to be an issue. Which, in itself, is depressing.

[hiddenaway]

I’m going to be so glad when the adjustment period is over and it’s not weird and blurry with my glasses anymore.

Today turned out to be a pretty good day. I got my bathroom sink unclogged this morning, so that's nice to get out of the way. My back is still sore but improving.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by hiddenaway

I really feel like shoving in my earbuds and zoning out for the rest of the evening…but I also don’t know what I want to listen to.

I believe you :hug

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Violetta75

Someone I trusted, deeply disappointed me. It goes to show you don't know someone, even if it's for years. I'm glad they showed who they are. I know I'm not perfect, but some people don't like to face their own truths and faults.

It changes my future plans, but I'm grateful even though it's painful. To struggle is to learn. I'm still learning at 55. It's like the door of my heart wants to shut forever. Only my sons are allowed in, always. Someone said don't give up, well I give up on men, I no longer need one as a partner. I'll keep the few true friends in my life. I'm not depressed. I'm more resolved and determined to stay completely independent.

I’m very

[Rose76]

I'm feeling so well lately. I must remember this and not become hopeless next time I'm depressed. Sooner or later the sun always returns. My apartment looks so nice. I've been on a cleaning kick. That's a good sign with me.

[rjdb]

I'm in a good mood this morning. Feeling productive. Excited about life. I wish I could feel like this every day.

[Albatross2008]

Hit bottom a few days ago and starting to bounce back.

[Violetta75]

I'm doing okay, just sore and tired tonight, but depression is at bay.

[hiddenaway]

I’m questioning my pronouns again. They/Them isn’t neutral enough and I hate it.

I’ve tried going by name only, but that doesn’t feel quite right either.

…and I’d look into xenopronouns but I wouldn’t know where to begin cause there’s so many out there.

Sometimes I really hate being genderless.

[unaluna]

Hidden, did you see the tribute to bob tonight? They will probably repeat it over the weekend. It was pretty good. Drew was wonderful of course. I never realized bob was so handsome. I guess in 1972 i thought he was old already!

Speaking of which, in 1974 i was telling my university therapists i was a neuter, and they just totally dismissed it. The next year i applied for a marriage license at the univ health center and the dr made me pull down my pants. Apparently she couldnt tell i was a girl?! So wtf. I guess thats what i get for going to a dr unknown to me, is the only way i can figure it. Anyway, welcome to the club.

[hiddenaway]

Originally Posted by unaluna

Hidden, did you see the tribute to bob tonight? They will probably repeat it over the weekend. It was pretty good. Drew was wonderful of course. I never realized bob was so handsome. I guess in 1972 i thought he was old already!

Not yet, but I’m going to.

…but I’m also scared cause I know Drew isn’t handling his death well, which is giving me a sinking feeling that this next season might be his last.

I know I shouldn’t jump to conclusions but….yeah.

[Buffy01]

feeling really awful :grouphug my getting results for :sadhug WAIS evaluation

It was a fairly busy day for me. My nose was dribbling for part of the day and some sneezes. No cold but probably an allergy. It ruined my day a little bit. Plus I got a bug bite. I worked out and was able to do sit-ups today for the first time since my back hurt last Saturday.