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Jun 14, 2008, 06:30 PM
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Ever since yestereve, I've felt really, really strange. There's no way of describing it. I feel absolutely dysphoric, as if every happy thought and feeling has been sucked from me. A sense of impending doom, much like a panic attack, but not with a feeling of anxiety, but rather depressed resignation, a grim acceptance of the misfortune I know is to come.. I have no one to turn to IRL. I'm completely alone.
I don't know what to do. I even forced myself to take an hour-long walk, but I still feel really weird. I feel hopeless, lethargic, and dead inside. I feel a whirlwind of negative emotions spinning inside me, and I can't pinpoint any one of them or find the origin of any of them... I don't know where to turn. J
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Jun 14, 2008, 06:34 PM
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maybe turn nowhere Der.. ive felt similar to you in the past... i'm ok for the moment..
sometimes i had to sit still and enjoy some surrounding beauty... let it speak to me so to speak... a place in nature is good .... a walk might have helped me, i wish it had worked for you... |
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#3
Jun 14, 2008, 07:23 PM
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Hang in there, the feeling will pass! I wish/pray that you feel better soon, and I hope the below poem helps you feel better.
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all uphill, When the funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit, Rest, if you must, but don't you quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns, As every one of us sometimes learns, And many a failure turns about, When he might have won had he stuck it out; Don't give up though the pace seems slow-- You may succeed with another blow. Often the goal is nearer than, It seems to a faint and faltering man, Often the struggler has given up, When he might have captured the victor's cup, And he learned too late when the night slipped down, How close he was to the golden crown. Success is failure turned inside out-- The silver tint of the clouds of doubt, And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems so far, So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-- It's when things seem worst that you must not quit. Author unknown! 
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Jun 14, 2008, 07:31 PM
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im here for u
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Jun 14, 2008, 07:53 PM
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((((((((((((( J )))))))))))))
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Jun 14, 2008, 08:00 PM
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Thank you, everyone. Just in a really strange place right now... I think I will just have to wait this out.
Monday will be tough, though; third anniversary of my mother's passing.  That's one of the many things swirling around in my heart and mind. But everything else is just complicating any I attempt I make at addressing the issue...We'll see what happens. *shrug* (((((((hugs)))))) Thanks, J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair." -Bertrand Russell With love and hope, <~/J\~> |
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Jun 14, 2008, 08:22 PM
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((((DerSohndesLeides))))
I'm relieved you took that walk, and hope you take many more. It is good to contemplate. It is also good to move around to get unstuck. I'm sorry this is such a difficult time for you. I was thinking how lifes difficulties can also be a catalyst for new beginnings. I hope on one of your walks you find the foresight to see the wonderful things that lie ahead for you, and believe in yourself, that you have the personal power you need to accomplish your goals and bring satisfaction into your life, and true love and caring people. You can do these things, J., and more. love and comfort, nightbird  
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Jun 15, 2008, 01:05 AM
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(((((((((((( Der_Sohn_des_leides ))))))))))))))
I am sorry that you are going through this difficult time.
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#9
Jun 15, 2008, 01:12 AM
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(((((((((Nightbird)))))))))
Thank you for the kind words. Your posts are always so thoughtful and wise. I'm trying my best to forge ahead with a positive attitude, but my emotions behave much like a chameleon: changing to match their surroundings. Home is a very dark, depressing, hopeless place for me, so in turn I feel dark, depressed, and hopeless. I think that's why I love walking so much; it gets me as far away from here as possible. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm being sucked down as if in a vortex. the harder I try to escape, it seems, the worse I feel... Perhaps I should just stop resisting the current for a while and simply observe my emotions? Hmm... Thanks so much, J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair." -Bertrand Russell With love and hope, <~/J\~> |
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Jun 15, 2008, 01:14 AM
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Thank you, gimmeice.
(((((((hugs))))))) Take care, J
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"One by one, as they march, our comrades vanish from our sight, seized by the silent orders of omnipotent death. Very brief is the time in which we can help them, in which their happiness or misery is decided. Be it ours to shed sunshine on their path, to lighten their sorrows by the balm of sympathy, to give them the pure joy of a never-tiring affection, to stregthen failing courage, to instill faith in hours of despair." -Bertrand Russell With love and hope, <~/J\~> |
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#11
Jun 15, 2008, 02:21 AM
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hiya, Der.
I am in a gloomy place myself. I say just keep venting your feelings. It helps to talk it out (or in this case, to write it out)> People know what you are going through on here, which is a great comfort in itself. |
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