[purplebutterfly]

I just feel like no one is there, no one cares and Im all alone. Why would anyone want to be around me- I hate myself and I know everyone else hates me too-

[mountainstream]

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[pegasus]

I don't hate you.

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[purplebutterfly]

You may not hate me but I hate me

[pegasus]

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I don't know you that well, but I will tell you what I see. I see someone who is trying really hard, who is struggling but despite that is reaching out and is also helping other people.

[Fuzzybear]

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[nowheretorun]

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it truly is tragic and dangerous when we cant find a shred of affection or care for ourselves.. you mustn't linger in this state of mind long purple..

sometimes all we can see is the darkness, but in desperation it seems we can look within and find that one shining little light to lead us out of the darkness.. look at the kind and caring friends you have here... these are people who have survived some very dark days of their own and they are telling you if they can make it, you can..

it takes time to heal deep wounds purple.. have patience, faith and love with yourself and listen and believe what they have tried to tell you.. it can do you the most good..

[blue_roses]

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[DOWNINNATICK]

No one hates you, I don't hate you and your friends here don't hate you.
You are very special to us and people around you, so please stop feeling this way and start loving yourself as well.

http://www.spiritisup.com/spiritwhispersbl.html

I don't hate you, purple.

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[nightbird]

Nightbird raises her hand!!!! me, me, I survived some horrible stuff too.

I know what it feels like to hang on for dear life because you don't know why you are here at all, and no answer comes when you feel you need it most, and no one is there.

So you sit on the steps outside of a church one night - wondering why you were even born.

And still ... nothing.

So, you put one foot in front of the other and walk.

You walk until you figure out someplace you need to be, a job, maybe, find a new place to live maybe, you keep walking until you can hold your head up.

When you hold you head up, it proves you can make it further. Without back-tracking, you are walking ahead.

We walk with our heads up, not on our hands and legs crawling, begging to live anymore, because we have already survived this by walking to our new life, our new choices, our new people, our new responsibilities.

We can't look back because we are going in the other direction now!

We are walking with our heads up, our hearts open, and our minds assuring us we are survivors.

That is the start of self-esteem for many of us.

It starts with walking.

love and everything simple,
night

[pachyderm]

[purplebutterfly]

Thanks (((((((Everyone)))))) for your kind words

[spaceid]

Please don't hate yourself. I've had those thoughts too. Either you are depressed about life choices or have regrets, but I learned it just doesn't work. Please don't hate yourself, no one should have to feel like that. ((Big hugs))

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i dont hate you but i hear you .... hugs to Nightbird for great advice ..... hang in there .... it takes time, but you will find your light ......sometimes it goes out again, but it is always there to be relit ... Jinnyann xxxxxx