I can't do it anymore... I just can't o it!

I can't do it anymore I really can't cope. Depression has got such a strong hold on me and I really want to give in.
I hurt so badly in my heart, I'm dying inside and I can't get through this. I only ever had my mum and (long distance boyfriend) to help me through this... my boyfriend is now at home for the summer but I want to hate him, he doesn't care about me one bit and I'm heartbroken. I have no friends shoulders to cry on... noone to take me on girly days/nights out to take my mind off it. He's made this situation so much worse and I want to hate him, but I love him.
I'm so alone and I don't know what to do... every day I'm in pieces, just crying and hurting and wishing the day to end. I don't know how to get better, I don't know how to be me anymore, I just want it all to go away but it just all seems to get worse every day.
I don't know how to cope
I can't even think how to put all this into words 'cause I'm so depressed, angry and hopeless
I'm so sorry for taking up your time

((((((((((((((( supermansgirlfriend ))))))))))))))

its sad that you are suffering so supermansgirlfriend... i wish you werent feeling so badly.. it hurts very much to feel alone and unappreciated... you mustn't believe those lies though... you matter very much and the pain you have is very hard...

try to believe that this is only the way you feel at this moment and try to believe there are better times for you ahead... surviving depression is a test of endurance in many ways but never give up the belief that you are worth it....

i know its hard right now, but as quickly as you are able, appreciate a simple thing... one act of kindness you gave someone else or received yourself.... it may seem small but stacked together, a few good acts can change a frown to a smile.... you matter... you will see in time...

for now, i understand and wish you didnt suffer so...

Dear supermangirlfriend,

I have been there. Do not lose hope.

You want somebody who does love you, who will want to support you and be around you.

Not someone who doesn't.

Keep telling yourself that you deserve to be loved for who you are ... and love will find you.

Be sure to take care of yourself and be that person you are deep down, and you will attract them like there is no tomorrow.

You must give the heartache it's time to heal, yes. meanwhile, join a gym, or someplace
where there are alot of people you can make friends with ... or a cooking class, anything to make new buds to hang out with.

Go have a decaf at a cool local coffeeshop and maybe start hanging there a few days a week.

Go where the people are ... you'll be doing great in no time.

Let me know how it's going, ok?

love and peace,
night

Hi

I want to discuss the dipression problem
and remedy

There are 5 kind of persons in the world

1. Theoretical/emotional( mostly unbalanced)

Ist child of mother is often theoretical
and mostly vulnerable to depression

2. Practical

IInd child of mother is often practical

3. Balanced( only 2% in the world)

4. Mixture

3rd child of mother is often Mixture and most successful

5. Extraordinary(0.1% in theworld)

Problem of dipression?

1. anger to any one
2. not able to mix with someone
3. friends comments
4. not complete your wish
5. not able to explore yourself, your feelings remain in your heart



Remedy:

1. get love from your mother/girlfriend
sleep in lap of your mother/girlfriend
2. go in the lonely room , close the door
a) <font color="#000088"> </font> b) <font color="red"> </font> c) take your tounge out and move your head like mad person and shout your feelings out of your body, move your head and shout and do boxing with wall, do all the activities like mad person as your heart says and express your feelings out from your body
d) now you will feel relax and your anger will be cool


YOurs Dev

Hi Supermansgirlfriend;

Are you seeing a counselor? If so, ask him/her if there is a partical hospital program that you could go into. It's a day program that you go to with others and you can learn different things about your feeling and so you can feel your not alone and others are going through what you're going through, and you can talk with them about other things as well. Maybe make a few friends that live closer to you and know exactly how and what your going through.

You can keep going on, your strong and wise and have a lot to give and share, don't let depression be your criptonite.

http://www.castlemountains.com/index...=434&type_id=1

Thanks so much to all of you

thanks fuzzybear, you always send hugs and kind words my way when I post on here (really grateful)

thank you nowheretorun

thanks nightbird, me and my boyfriend are still together (although struggling, it's complicated because there are issues with his family members)

thank you dev123

downinatick... I'm not seeing a counselor through the docs or anything like that (I tried and it didn't work out), at my old college is a social worker and she's qualified in counseling and we do keep in touch with each other. The making friends part is hard, I'm trying, but I've got so run down I don't feel able to anymore (I guess I need to find my confidence again)
Thank you for your support (your criptonite reference put a smile on my face for a while) and thank you for the hug

I'm still struggling, but I'm trying... there's been something else that has happened recently that has really made me feel a lot, lot worse.
Molly

Hugs-Angel