feeling so down and unreal..

Hello to whomever happens to read this! I just feel like spilling my thoughts as I feel so DOWN and DEPRESSED! I really don't know what keeps me in this World anymore!

I feel so UNREAL, like I don't even exsist! I have a pdoc, but I don't feel I am getting any help from him as he only gives me 35 minutes of his time. I can't get into my real feelings and out of his office in 35 minutes!

I just don't know whats going to become of me and how much longer I can put up with these thoughts. Constantly thinking of death and what happens to us in the afterlife. I am like obcessed about it! I've had depression most of my life but its gotten worse in the last couple of years. Now even more worse!

Don't feel like I matter to ANYONE..even myself! A voice tells me I am just not worth it!

Well, just wanted to vent my feelings to the universe! Just because!

Seamoods

Hi and welcome Seamoods

Can you get a therapist to talk to? Often pdocs goal is providing and monitoring meds rather that offering therapy. It sounds like you would enjoy having someone to talk with!

Keep talking to us here. We're glad you here and you mattter!

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling down, and unreal....perhaps the next time you see your Pdoc you could come prepared with everything you need to address written down, and dive right in right away......also patientslikeme.com offers a mood chart that one can print out and give to their doctor with many questions asked... You DO matter, to everyone here, we care......

Thank you 'Echoes' & Junerain for even replying to me! I know I don't know you, but for a split second it felt as if someone cared!

Thanks!
Seamoods~

seamoods, People do care. I know how you feel because I feel that way alot as well.

YOU MATTER TO US!!! Maybe you can find a new therapist that can give more of their time to help you get more of your feelings out. You are important. Hang in there and know that we are here for you!!

When I was in my teens, about 25 years ago, I used to experience severe panic attacks that related to my own concerns about reality, the afterlife, and other questions of what could be existentialistic in nature. I agonized over questions, just like you. I come from a very religious, Catholic family who went to Mass every Sunday. I asked myself if reality was indeed a part of somebody else imagination, or if it was truly "real." A psychiatrist told me something that is attributed to Rene Descartes: "I think, therefore I am."
Fortunately, my faith also helped me to simply 'let go and let God,' something that I've learned in Al-Anon and an Adult Children of Alcoholics' support group in the Northeast. My medicine helped and so has the therapy that I've received.
Things get better in time.

Sometimes preoccupation with death, dying, afterlife.. can be a resistance or an avoidance to living now. It can seem as if the future (death & dying & afterlife) is what the fear is about, when in reality the fear can be about living now and the living future.
A therapist can help you very much with those kinds of thoughts and fears so you can feel much better.

I'm here to talk...as long as you need...there's always someone willing to listen and to help.

((((((((((((seamoods)))))))))))))

I am sorry for you that you feel this way. I hope you feel better soon.

Rmember. There are lots of people that care for you. Here at PC, we are ALWAYS illing to talk. And help you to feel better.

Hugs! xxx

welcome to pc sea, sorry you are feeling so down. i know what that feels like. in feb i was in inpatient treatment for depression because i couldn't take it anymore and it was a really terrible time in my life and that of my family as well. i hope you can find help from another pdoc or therapist that can give you more time to help you better to cope with the terrible demon of depression. we are always here whenever you need support. wishing you all the best,

agony

Thank you...thank you...thank you...everyone who has responded to my post! It honestly makes me feel like I am 'not' alone in what I am dealing with!

I see my pdoc next week and I am trying to hang on until then! Yes I agree that depression is a demon of itself. Its horrible to feel this way! I will continue to check this site (PC) as I am new to this!

Thanks again everyone for your support and thoughts!

Seamoods

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