i need help

im so sad all i do is cry i am angry all the time and i dont know what to do anymore its effecting <font color="blue"> </font> my two year old son now i dont want to do anything i never go out i dont want to be around people and im afraid they are looking at me and judging me i dont like myself i hate me i just want to be happy why cant i be happy i need answers

welcome tclark! i'm glad you found us. you're not alone in your feelings.

i'm sorry you're feeling so sad, secluded and judged. it sounds like you are depressed...very much so. have you thought about contacting a therapist or seeing your dr and telling him/her what's going on...in full detail? she/he could refer you to a therapist and maybe try some meds to help you through this very difficult time.

do you know of something that has brought this about? or has it just come about on its own?

at any rate, i'm glad you've come here. this community is full of wonderful support.

please let us know what you're thinking about talking to someone?

be safe,

kd

i dont know where it came from it got worse after having my son. i am upset bout my son not having a father and feel bad cause he wont be there for him i feel its my fault. that i did something. i am trying to get help i am going to see my doctor so he can send me to someone so i can get help but i have hard time talking to people face to face. i cant talk much with out crying.

i'm so glad you're going to see your dr! if you have trouble talking face to face (i do too), write down exactly what you want to say and read it off to dr. i don't like to cry in front of ppls either, but that's ok. it's ok to do that in front of dr.

keep talking with us in the meantime keep us posted.

kd

yous people are great i never had people to talk to with out being judged and i like it me and my boyfriend just broke up couple days ago and it was a 8 month relationship i just so worn out i cry myself to sleep and i falling apart i want to be happy again i want to enjoy life not hate it i hate being me and i dont like it anymore

welcome tclark. Yes, it sounds like your post partum depression has developed into major depression. You need to get yourself some help, and you can begin with your MD or even baby's doctor, OK? And don't worry about crying in front of them... it helps them realize the depth of your despair. feel better.

tclark,

the breakup of a relationship can be devastating! no wonder you're feeling so alone, secluded, scared and depressed. allow yourself to grieve, but do as much as you can each day...even if it's just a few things. if you can...

please follow through with your doctor and think about seeing a therapist. it sounds like your depression has gotten to the point where you need some help with it...physically and emotionally.

and, of course, keep coming here and talking. we can relate with most things. keep loving on that precious little two year old, and make plans for helping yourself.

kd

tclark1, I have felt the same way you are feeling many times. Like if there is even a hair out of place people will notice and not accept you and stare and talk about you. Please know that it is not true. I know how hard it is to believe that, but people are just people. Give yourself credit. You made an amazing thing happen in this world, you had a baby!!!! You get to teach your baby how to treat others with respect and your baby will love you unconditionally, just like you should love yourself!! You are worth it!!! I try to remember that people are just like me really, and when I am out and about I'm not judging people sometimes I'm thinking about something not even related to where I am (in a store or restaurant) everyone, even those who don't admit it, have their own insecurities. You are a strong woman! I hope you are feeling better soon. Good luck.

k