Forgive me...

((((((((((( ariesmars ))))))))))))) I am sorry that you are feeling left out, do you try to jump into the conversation that is going on? I also wanted to say that you aren't invisible and you definately are not a worthless loser.

((((((((((((((ariesmars)))))))))))))

so sorry this happened to you sweetie ... sometimes it is for many reasons, did you join in the chat? I know from personal experience it is a bit unnerving if someone comes in and doesn't talk ,,,, I know it is also hard for some to talk ... sometimes, if a member comes in and talks about a triggering subject, people will leave for self care reasons ... but I feel it is always polite at least to say why you are leaving so that people dont end up feeling the way you do ....

You are not a worthless loser hon .... please dont think that way ... you are a human being, and you have feelings, if you are down it is easy to let the depression win ...

Please take care, Jinny xxoxoxoxoxoxo

(((((Aries)))))

choose friends who can hear you aries.. we cant always get along with everyone... we need to like ourselves first.. you're a good guy who people want to get to know.... talk with us here, its a slower pace and its easier to understand each other for some of us .. chat is quicker and more people talk at once... posting gives me more time and peace to think my thoughts thru... with practice, chat might become easier and more enjoyable for you...

Agreed with the above... friends are a choice and just like picking the right tomato, steak, or puppy... you sometimes have to sort through a few dozen or more until you find a good match.

I've experienced multiple real and perceived rejections in my life and it never gets easier... in fact, it gets harder sometimes. Still, I lived... sometimes sadder than the day before... but sometimes happier because I realized that the closed door opened several others.

The people who were there for me at the most critical timesin my life where never the ones whose friendships I'd pursued or questioned... it weas just the ones that happened naturally. I know I've been lucky and not everyone finds those so easily... so I'm sending good wishes that things get better soon.

Be well.

I'm very sorry you are feeling this way. No one wants to feel rejected, and I'm sorry you feel you were put in that position. You are not worthless, and you are not a loser. Like someone said above, you are a human being with feelings.... feelings that count and that matter. I'm glad you are here. I don't make friends easily, but when I do it feels so good to know I have someone I can relate to on some level. And I can relate to your post, because I have felt that way before, too. It's not a good feeling. I'm sorry you had to feel it. I just hope you realize that you are important, you have a life worth living and living well, and you matter.

its interesting that possibly my greatest burst of growth has come from accepting the challenge of finding some way to get along with those that i disagree with most.. ive discovered how to disagree kindly... its been very helpful come talk with us more Aries, everything will work out somehow if we remember that we all are healing and learning... kindness matters and so do you... everyone else here has contributed some great stuff! thank you!

i been trying not to go to the chats since they dont help and feel very little bit better. friday i got meeting with supported living program and it is a 25 year old female and she is really nice. i felt some happiness with her, but feel uneasy with her too. i need to be with someone so much and when i was with her it was so wonderful, but after she left and as i write, i'm so sad and lonely and just want to be with her. it is uncomfortable, but as a human i need that closeness with another. i miss her so much.

((((((((((((((((( ariesmars ))))))))))))))))))))
I am sorry that you are sad right now, all I have to offer is hugs and plenty of them, as many as you would like in fact. I wanted to send more but I guess there is a limit to how many images you can use in a message.((((hugs)))))

oh god! I got hit hard with this bout of depression. crying, sad, alone, meaningless life i have. i looked in the mirror and do not see who i am i see something else and i'm super ugly no wonder nobody wants me.

spare yourself from listening to the lies aries.... you would like to have the good that others seem able to have wouldnt you? why should you be denied it? it is here, being offered to you now...

why am i so sad and depressed? I try to be positive and happy, but it is not working right now. I need my T to talk to!

are you able to call your T aries? we will listen if you need to say how you feel

((((Aries))))

I can call my T but it will be a machine. She doesn't really have time to talk. She wouldn't want to talk to someone when she is off work. Sometimes I feel it is just a job to them and they don't really want to help anyone, mainly me.

The main reason I am so sad and depressed is because I met a girl that is going to help me in a supportive living program and I find her attractive and being so lonely as I am, I feel attracted to her and just want to be with her. Maybe it will pass the more I am with her, but right now... I feel like I'm in love with her. Could it be possible that we could end up together? I doubt it, but could the chance be there?

hi aries

i understand that feeling of wanting to connect with another in a special way... especially if we're lonely we feel so out of the circle that the connection becomes really valuable to us and just being held and loved is so deeply wanted that we might begin to long for it more and more.... we feel so out of the circle we begin to feel the despair of unrequited love...

when someone appears in our life who shows us the kindness we are looking for those first feelings are exciting and we are thrilled to imagine that this person may be just the very one we've been waiting to meet... but love has many separate natures within it... the theory of one love undivided is an undisputed truth yet we often forget the many dimensions within the term...

those feelings you have now are asking you if she is the one and only, or at least one right now.. obviously something very powerful is about to happen between the two of you, whether it be romance or other...

if it is not romance it can still be great friendship because the two of you are meeting in the area of support and healing.. a very tender area...

as you continue being kind towards each other and learning more about friendship and personal boundaries, your feelings will stir about and be confusing to you...

dont despair, do not choose dark opinions of yourself, others, or life itself....

let yourself feel and learn... love never harms, only heals and always leads us back to try again in some way... we cannot live without love... learn all you can about it and it will help your life be a fuller and more enriching place... take your time, never too fast, never too much self pressure... let yourself go at a safe pace always.. safe is when you dont get hurt somehow, but dont hide either... be as brave as you can be, honest in all things, and have faith in the process... eventually you will know and understand its healing benefits...

best always..

These are wonderful words! I like it very very much, thank you!!

you're doing great aries!

I really am not sure that it makes you a worthless loser. Maybe people werem't sure if you minded what they were talking about or it may have been personal. I wouldn't take it so personally. If they don't want to be around you, I will certainly chat with you.

Mia





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here I go again. I am SO depressed, i donot have the energy to do anything. im hungry but cant get myself to eat anything. i just want to cry.

hi aries, thats why the cycle of depression is often referred to as a roller coaster... well, we know its down time again and we've learned it hasnt beat us yet...

You seem to be the only one who cares about me anymore.

thats an absolute delusion aries... many people are caring for us at all times and we forget to remember them sometimes...

i know how it seems like others dont care tho when we become disconnected and havent had a steady friendship in awhile...

i spent a lot of years feeling that way... there were times i thought like you are, that no one really cares about me and i got mad and angry about it too... but it didnt feel right to feel that way so i kept trying to find ways to feel better, like you have too..

keep trying aries... there's good people in the area nearby always... PC is made up of good people trying hard to understand like you and i are ... i read a lot of their posts and see they are feeling like i do in many ways.. it takes time but you are safe here aries... dont give up, k?

((((((((((((((((((((ariesmars))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry, I have been reading and have not responded. Know I care and I am here. I am sorry for your pain.

BB