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Iam hopeless and useless...and i even cant start to talk whats wrong with me...
i have no future and no one want me..
i never want to comes to this world....never ask too
but why.....and after all i've been through why God not takes me back so i can be safe
i feel so sad and so mad but everything so blurry..
why this happen to me....why everyone so mean to me? what did i do to deserve this????

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present..i keep reminds me about this things that yesterday is history and i should forget and never look back.. but i cant.....and tommorow is a mystery??? huh...there's no mystery for me everything so clearly for me that i have no future and today is a gift...??? no one ever give me a gift.....
ough...its hard to be me... why everything so hard for me???why????

((((((((((((((((((((Puffy))))))))))))))))))))))

I feel sad that you are struggling so much.

You are a dear person and you are wanted HERE.
We would miss you if you weren't here.

It is the depression talking to you, telling you that you are worthless.
You didn't do anything to deserve it.
Don't listen to it....listen to us here on PC.
You are valuable and important.
It will get better, in time.
Hang in there...
Sending lots of
and hoping you feel better soon,
ktgirl

I ask myself that a lot... I didn't choose to be here, so why can't I choose not to be here.

(((((((((((((prue))))))))))))) you are wanted hunny... you are wanted here! and we want you to be safe I wish I could give you a real hug, I wish I could take away your pain. But, please keep trying... it will get better!
Keep talking to us... say however much or little as you can, just let everything out in some way (a safe way) cry, scream, yell, scribble, jump up and down, have a good old fashioned hissy fit...

we love you prue, take care and stay safe
Molly

Thanks molly and thanks katygirl
i really want to win but ...i cant...
i keep saying that i can do this iam stronger but in fact iam to weak and iam a loser and useless no one wants me.....i dont know whats wrong with me that makes no one ever wnt me....so sad but so true..

sweetheart... I do this, right now I'm having a tough day and it's hard to see the end... but there are times when I know there WILL be an end to this... and we have to try and remember that when times get tough.
You are not weak... you are strong, you have got this far and you can fight it!
You are not a loser... the depression has not won, you are still here and you are still seeking help, keep fighting it
You are not useless... you have offered some great advice and support to me
No one wants you? Am I a noone? What about us on pc? WE WANT YOU.... we want you here! we want you safe! we want you happy!
You are a good person prue and you do not deserve this... that's why you need to fight it. We'll help as best we can.

thank you molly...
you and all people here at pc who help me and support me thank you
but everything just so hard...
today if i die maybe no one will knows...and maybe no one ever realize...
and maybe they will find my body few days later...
iam so sick of me...i dont want to hate my self.. i know if i keep hating my self i will never will be fine but i dont know how to love my self...
and btw i keep hear " hero songs by mariah" thanks to u molly
i hate this feeling..

"You can find love if you search within your self
and the emptiness you felt will disappear." The love for yourself is already in you... you just need to find it and you will!

But hunny, if you are struggling this much PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE talk to someone... is there a helpline or anything you can call, can you call your doc? Please stay safe prue

Puffyprue, you are in so much pain right now, you cannot think rationally. If you were able to think through the pain, you would know that you would be missed if you were to die. I don't know things about your life, but I know you've touched enough lives here to be missed. Please don't think about dying--it's not the only way for the pain to go away. It isn't. It's the quickest, but you asked earlier why God doesn't just take you home. The decision has to be His, not yours. No one asked to be born--it's a gift, believe it or not. A gift to the rest of the world that you were born. If you were not born, you would not have been able to help us here. If you were to die, you wouldn't be able to touch the lives of others down the road. That's great, you're helping others, but what about you? In helping others, you help you. No one knows why we suffer the way we do. All I know is that when we get through the suffering we will be stronger, happier, smarter, healthier. Because we will get through it. And when you are tired of fighing, stop. You don't have to have to always fight. That's what we are for. We will support you, hold you, comfort you when you can't fight anymore and just want to be. Let us be your support to help you. But remember, there is only so much we can do; when you are feeling truly like you want to die, call a crisis line, call 911, call someone--anyone. Because you are wonderful, you deserve to live and get through this pain to see happiness.

((((((( puffyprue )))))))

I'm sorry you are hurting so much, we do understand. Please get professional help in your area and talk to someone today about how you are feeling.

hi dear prue ,
i am so sorry you are so sad. i agree with the post that suggested you go talk with someone who understands where your mind is today. there was a time when i felt as you do. i had lost all hope or rather that was what the depression was telling me. i took all the strength i had and reached out for help. i really didn't think they could help me but they did! that was 18 years ago. i've had so many years of joy because i took that opportunity and reached out. you are doing that at this forum and we do care. there is an old saying that the "hardest door to open is your own".
you have already done that by opening the door to us. try to do it again and get some one-on-one help where you live with a professional. the reason i can say this with such conviction is that i had to do it too and i am so grateful to God that i did. if you don't believe in yourself right now, believe in those of us who do care. you are one of God's children. we do care, prue. help us help you.
i'll pray for you and let us know how you are doing....doesn't matter how low you are. we need you too!

Why do you feel that God does not want you. I believe he is still with you. The devil makes you believe that he is not with you. I think I can help you with your problems because I have had many and made it through them. I do still have some problems though. Every day, I progress and become more at peace. You can too!

puffy stay safe.

I do believe that God always with me...but if He loves me please takes me...
i dont have someone to talk to and i dont want people sick of me coz i feel sad all the time...i try to believe that i will be fine and tommorow will comes...but its hard to believe it when everyone keep telling you.. you not worth it...and now iam start to believe it that iam not worth it and useless and just become a burden to everyone..
but thank you everyone coz beeing so nice ....

If only we understood why He has us here, why we suffer. Instead, we have to live until He calls us home. Your suffering seems so much larger than what you can handle, but if you believe He loves you, do you think He would allow you to experience it if you couldn't handle it? Tomorrow it may not be better, or the next day; but it will slowly get better. Slowly. You have to believe and work at it. Please please please don't believe people that say you aren't worth it. You are worth every bit of air you breathe, every heartbeat. You are worth it.

thank you so much canstopcrying.....what u've done really touch my heart.. i wish i can believe its true... i mean iam worth it...

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but why.....and after all i've been through why God not takes me back so i can be safe

hi again, prue,
i was hoping you'd still be watching your initial post. i have a thought about all of this going on with you. it may sound far out but i will give it a try...sometimes i believe God uses people as a "vessel", meaning through you good things will result. perhaps your experiences that you have today will enable you some day to reach out and help another person that is experiencing the same feelings as you are now. of course that means that first you must get help and get through this depression. i know it is very difficult to even think what i've suggested is possible at this time in your life. but look at what others here on this forum have done to support you right now. Perhaps they can do this because they have gone through that very same low and have reached out for help and gotten stronger.
i hope the things you hear here will give you hope. even if it's the size of a mustard seed that is a good beginning. hugs.