 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
Jan 16, 2009, 06:03 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I am so tired.... physically and mentally exhausted. Can't move, can't eat, can't sleep...
and I think the pain has been in my heart for so long now it's just grinding itself deeper, clinging on to my bones, determined to make me hurt and miserable forever. The people I'm meant to get love from just give me grief... there's no-one else... I just feel like I'm walking down a dark, narrow tunnel (being claustrophobic too)...  I can't get my thoughts out, they're just sat there, in me, torturing me... I just wanna scream, I haven't the energy. I can't describe the pain and loneliness. I wish I was never born I am so sorry for spouting nonsense again.... I'm sorry for being here...
__________________
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter |
|
#2
Jan 16, 2009, 06:19 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
((((((((((((((((( molly ))))))))))))))))))
__________________
|
 silver_moon
|
|
#3
Jan 16, 2009, 06:48 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
(((((((((((molly))))))))))) I bet your little dolphins are glad you were born? I bet the person who is out there, that you haven't met yet, that will be the one to help you heal, is glad you were born. I'm glad you were born. You can get through this horrible fog, honey. Minute by minute if you have to. Are you seeing your family doctor about your physical pain? Have you sent in the papers to be seen by the therapist yet? If you are unable to fill that section out, just write a note stating that and pop it in the mail. What about your drawing or painting? How's that table-tennis group going? And your classes? These are things that no matter how down you are feeling you should try to keep doing. I know you are so worried about your mom, do research on arthritis, do it together maybe. That way you both are being proactive about treatment and information. I'm sending you happy thoughts and hugs.
__________________
____________________________________ "We can't talk at the same time! It doesn't work like that! I talk, you talk, I talk, you talk!!" ~ Peanut 
|
| silver_moon
|
|
#4
Jan 16, 2009, 09:42 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
"I'm sorry for being here...."
oh, (((SM,))) i'm awfully glad you are here!! you've got a lot of things on your plate right now. i hope that the sun shines through sooner than you even expect/or hope. i've felt like you do now and it can get better. just hang in there and do what you can on any given day to be kinder to yourself. we care... please don't forget that.
__________________
Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand |
| silver_moon
|
|
#5
Jan 16, 2009, 11:27 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Molly
please try not to be so sad you don't have to go down the narrow tunnel alone . Please please still hold all your friends hands as they will all want to be around you. even if its only online. Life throws us heaps and heaps of lemons to make lemonade  At least we have one talent ( making lemonade) we all feel like dog do do every now and then over and over but but instead of me getting out the cliche dictionary feel the love that everyone will send your way and smile jay 
__________________
Last edited by daggy; Jan 16, 2009 at 11:40 PM. |
| silver_moon
|
|
#6
Jan 17, 2009, 06:49 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
Everything is just so overwhelming. Quote:
Thank you (((((((((((((((madi))))))))))))) Quote:
I think all my lemons are rotten, I've got a bad bunch. I'm sorry for being so negative, I really am grateful. I only have one friend IRL... we used to be close, we still kind of are, but she knows nothing about my depression and how I'm feeling etc. In a few months she's going backpacking in New Zealand for 6 months -1 year. I really will be on my own then and that's been hard to come to terms with lately.
__________________
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter |
|
#7
Jan 17, 2009, 07:35 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
go with her!!
__________________
____________________________________ "We can't talk at the same time! It doesn't work like that! I talk, you talk, I talk, you talk!!" ~ Peanut
|
|
#8
Jan 17, 2009, 11:28 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I only have one friend IRL... we used to be close, we still kind of are, but she knows nothing about my depression and how I'm feeling etc. In a few months she's going backpacking in New Zealand for 6 months -1 year. I really will be on my own then and that's been hard to come to terms with lately.
__________________ ((SM)) i loved what cantstopcrying suggested  . can u do that? but if that isn't an option how bout starting to network now to make new friends to fill that "hole" when you irl friend makes her trip? what are your interests? that's a start. join a group, any group, or do some volunteer work. sometimes the best things happen in the places we don't even expect it, but we need to open the door for that to happen. i always say, the hardest door for me to open is my own. i have agoraphobia a lot. so i have to take out the crowbar  and wedge myself out the door!! the more often i practice this the less scary the outcome is. you can even "practice" on making new friends.or just take a walk in your neighborhood. when you see people out maybe in their yard say hello and comment on whatever they're doing, like yardwork...see if you can get a conversation going. this has worked for me in the past. as for not telling people about your depression i know that i am very, very careful who i divulge this info with. so many people (norms)just don't understand it or want to understand it. so i think that's ok if you don't feel comfortable talking about it much. it's not necessary for people to know. on the other hand, if you can develop a good friendship, one where you see good and caring qualities in the person, it's usually safe to share if a situation calls for it. "chatty-cathy" (me) needs to quiet herself  ....i hope this helps in some small way, ((SM)).
__________________
Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours..~Ayn Rand |
|
#9
Jan 17, 2009, 08:10 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I only have one friend IRL... we used to be close, we still kind of are, but she knows nothing about my depression and how I'm feeling etc. In a few months she's going backpacking in New Zealand for 6 months -1 year. I really will be on my own then and that's been hard to come to terms with lately.[/quote]
If you went with your friend to New Zealand I would make a point to come and see you . Its only 3 hours from here . Then you would have 2 friends IRL not to mention I have connections there to make things a bit easier jay
__________________
|
| silver_moon
|
|
#10
Jan 18, 2009, 07:51 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I can't go with her... I can't afford to... and what would I do about my mental heath?
I'm a mess. I can't do this anymore. Last night was horrendous... really, really, realy, really bad! I can't stop crying now and I'm shaking and my head has that pins and needles feeling again. I'm a mess. Just need it all to stopp.
__________________
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter |
|
#11
Jan 18, 2009, 08:00 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Hi there,im sorry your feeling this way,please hang on in there from the above posts you have lots of friends here who care about you and want to support you through this tougth time,keep talking hun,it will help.take care.
|
| silver_moon
|
|
#12
Jan 18, 2009, 08:26 AM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
 it's just not meant to be.Thank you for your suggestions
__________________
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter |
|
#13
Jan 18, 2009, 10:35 AM
|
||||
|
||||
__________________
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter |
|
#14
Jan 18, 2009, 07:08 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Hi Molly,
I was thinking about your craft group... and I think that this group of older, more experienced with life women can be an asset for you right now, you know? I mean, who better to ask for steps to get out there on your own and be able to stand on your own two feet than this group who have already done it in one way or another, yes? I think alot of the answers you seek will come from those closest around you ... so why not pick one or two to start opening up with, or heck, the whole group? You are a lovely person, a real true blue sweetheart, and a young lady with such promise and life inside of her... and so much to give. Trust in yourself and give some of it to others that have some experience and can help you. You know, I wish a person like you were around me this minute because I have enough furniture in the garage to fill a small apartment, see? You don't know what opportunities are around you that you can utilize if you don't share some of where you are at... there are lots of people out there with things, time, and abilities to share with someone looking to get on their feet... Close your eyes and rest tonight, and know that your life will be improving - and it is even now - and you will see the results when they are in place... so, take a few chances, make new friends - however unexpected - and share your heart, as you will not go wrong there with people who are together, doing something constructive with their time, and there to be with others to begin with. Best to you. Love, Night xoxo 
|
|
#15
Jan 18, 2009, 08:03 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
I know sometimes things just get on top of us that much we cant see an end but there is always a way and believe it or not you have heaps of friends (we all have to count for something ) Just take a breathe and step back from reality a little bit and dream of what could and should be and before you know it something will happen for you . And by some of the other posts about how many years it takes to get friends . If I look at my life I could say I wasted 30 years having no mob of friends but what I did end up with are a few really close friends that mean more than any large group. If you can trust just one person in the world with your soul then your doing ok I am sorry if I made you a bit sad about going with your friend sometimes ( most of the time my mouth moves before my brain engages ) meaning I don't think before I say things sometimes . Don`t tell anyone but my life is about to change again and I am scared poo less but I will face it side on and think about and take strength from what I see other peoples worries are.be strong for us so we can be strong for you jay
__________________
|
|
#16
Jan 21, 2009, 12:52 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
Quote:
 (also I will PM you, just had a lot on my mind lately, thank you)Had my assessment for T today... was hard... I even found something out about me i didn't know. Got to go again next week (and if she wants to know a bit more, again the week after)... then I'm on a waiting list again. Been hard lately..... but just have to live with it
__________________
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser So thanks for making me a fighter |
|
#17
Jan 21, 2009, 11:09 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Molly
will a + help you through everybody occasionally finds out something new they didn't know about themselves ..... usually when they need it most
__________________
|
| silver_moon
|
|
#18
Jan 22, 2009, 01:27 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
Hey, we've all been there, otherwise we wouldn't be on here would we? Sometimes that helps to know other people feel the same and people have got through. I felt very similarily until I got some meds sorted. I have two little girls and was convinced that they'd be better without me, after all what am I teaching them. However feeling a bit better due to the meds, and much more able to deal with the way I feel. Have you been prescribed anything?
Take care and know that you're not alone, lots of people out here care. Gayle 
|
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
