Right now l am lowest of the low

right now this is how l feel............l am struggling with so many things that you just take for granted......l cant even comfort my distressed child l have to hand him to his father............what sort of mother does that make me..........his hurt is so obvious and yet l am so useless that l can't help him and according to some people we know its down to me..... my fault that he is suffering as he is..................apparently he is scared he is going to die because l dont give him enough attention. My one thing that l have managed to do is to give them all l can and keep them safe but it appears now that others are convinced of the crap job that l am doing and didnt hold back in telling me so....................the long and bumpy road has hit a big full stop there was a big hole in it and l fell in
my heart is screaming and crying, myhead is ready to explode....... l need some sleep and some peace.................just for now let me sleep it away

Right now do what you can and be proud that you can do what you can do. If you can not do everything do not beat yourself up, but say you will do a certain piece of what needs to be done and then be proud that you did it. Just getting anything done while depressed is a major accomplishment.

just wanting to sleep and a peaceful one at can change the way we see things. Nobody is perfect in every way but we do the best we can with what we have. And sometimes what we have is perfect for us. not everyone can have an organized life to a tee . the only thing we can give is our love freely to our children that's the one thing they cant hold over us - the love we can give to our own child. it might not be perfect but it is ours to give
Things have a way of working themselves out in the end.

It is always amazing who you find when you are down that is there with you ready to help
I hope that was of help

to my friend

(((((((((((((((( Mandy )))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((((sas)))))))))))))))))))) Please know I am thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.

nobody can judge you how do they know everything that goes on in a childs mind, children do pick up on fears of our own and things we dont like if we say them often enough our children wont like those things either, i tried my best, you try your best others try there best, the person who told you you were not doing a great job hasnt walked in your shoes

try to reasure your self first then discuss your childs fears with your childs father and then your child,

i have reacently helped a five year old sleep in her own bed after a boy in her class threatened to kill all his class mates,
what a thing for a five year old go through, i can understand why the boy felt this way as his father died sudenely at 48, and the boy was in school a few days later amongst his clas mates when this statement came out

but the school didnt do anything they said how would your child feel, the grandmother of the young five year old i helped was talking to me about this when the girls mother came in she reacently was having work issues and a bout of depression wasnt in the right place to overcome her daughters fears of sleeping in her own bed, but with a bit of encourgment a sticker chart and some rewards the girl has been sleeping in her bed for nearly a mth now,

so its no always down to our own parenting skills why children suffer these anxieties

remember look after you first that way you are in a better postion to look after your family
and ignore the person who has so over stepped the mark in telling you that you are not doing it right

((((((((((((silentandscared)))))))))))))

((((((((((( mandy )))))))))))))))
Please don't let others who don't know what is going on bring you down sweetie. You tried your best and that is all you can do, you have been going through a lot and this is not your fault. I am sending you some hugs.

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ Everyone }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Thank you all so much for all your words of encouragement to me regarding this situation...................my own issues allowed what this person said to me to really hit a point that l am so scared of happening. I agree that yes they dont walk my shoes or know the whole story but just because they dony doesnt give them the right to express there opinion as they did. What is so amazing is this person is supposed to be a friend of ours................... but then with friends like that l certainly dont need any enemies. My son needs help, unfortunately myself or my husband are not in a place to give him the help that he needs. We have spent the last few weeks drawing, talking, explaining trying to find an openoing point for him to enable him to be able to talk to us about his fears. The problem we have if we mention the word dying he completely shuts down and falls apart , begging myself and my husband to not let him die, he hold onto our legs and hugs us so tight and his whole little body is shaking from head to toe.......................it's heartbreaking to see him in so much distress and at the same time be unable to help him express it. We tried to just carry on talking even though he was sobbing the result hysteria. Now my mental health team are say that he needs an urgent referral to the childrens services to aleviate his psychological sufferring.

We are trying.......................we try each day, we sit and hold him when hes scared and cant sleep, we encourage him to eat his food which we have never had to do but most of all we just love him. we cant protect or take this away for him and that is so hard

I'm sorry just had to get all this out......................l feel such a failure and this time that hurts really really bad

Sassy

im glad that your mental health team are sugesting refering your son on to the childrens services, and hopefully he can trust them to be able to recive the help they offer, good luck

(((((((((silentandscared and family))))))))))))))

I know how you feel. Lately when I am depressed, it's not like before where i was falling off the cliff. Now I am pretty much close to the bottom. My depression symptoms are getting worse more and more every week. depression sucks. Just know that there are people on here who care whats happengin in you life and would not mind if you told us anyhtign you would like.

I hope everything works out for you.

Roman James

Nothing to feel sorry for I feel privledged that you shared this. Yes it hurts anything to do with your child will hurt you. It shows that you are a caring parent not a failure.

(((silent)))

sometimes we have to make certain sacrifices for our childrens own good, and you did that.

brave mother, you love them so...

So, take this time and don't waste it.

Rest, eat right, get in mental and physical shape, prepare to reunite your family when you will be strong and able to cover all the bases.

Listen to a good therapist, as you need support along this path.

Live in the present day, and make decisions that will make a solid future
so that you do not have to repeat these heart-hurting scenes.

Taking control of ones life is a wonderful thing... nothing to fear there.

You will see this more and more as you progress.

Affirmations, relaxation tapes, and guided imagery have been helpful to you in the past, so add some new things to your tool box, like physical exercise, restful sleep, good nutrition, and a positive diet of healthy life-affirming thoughts.... and see you on top of that totem pole!

Make a mind picture of you on top, all cute and dressed up, having a smile and wonderful thougths!

Peace,
Night
xoxo

((((((((((((((((( Nightbird ))))))))))))))))))))

thank you so much for your words...............an excellent reminder to me of the things that l need to do. I think maybe with all that is going on l have let things slip quite bad staying away from all the things that have worked for me in the past.
Maybe this needs to be my starting point..........thank you

Mandyxx