i try so hard

to be a good person.
to be a good mom.
to be good.
to be kind.
to make a difference.

i fail.
it's not for lack of trying.
i promise it's not.

does trying matter?
nope, doesn't seem to.

I hear ya

From what I know of you Kimmy, to what you say there I would say NO to each statement.

You are a good person.
You are a good mom.
You're good.
You're kind.
You definitely make a difference.

And you aren't failing.

Nobody can be perfect but from what I've seen you do a great job of managing to keep the balance in your life... working through the DID and being a good wife/mother etc, especially since nobody knows about the DID. Trying does matter... you were saying just the other day that you can see the huge progress made in the past few months or so. Keep trying! You're not a failure!

thank you (((((((((((((fuzzy)))))))))))))))) i'm osrry you're feeling badly.

kd

((((((((((((((((((silver))))))))))))))))))))) thank you. i need to hear that, even though i'm wallowing in pity.

my daughter can rock my world sometimes and she did tonite. it makes trying so hard when i'm working so hard and feel as though i'm going nowhere.

i needed your reminders and thank you for them

love ya,

kd

((((((((((((((((((Kim))))))))))))))

It matters to me. You matter to me. I care very much. Trying matters too. I'm so sorry that you feel it's not good enough for those who are selfish and for those who think that what you do is not important. It is you know. Just because someone doesn't think so does not make it any less true. YOU are important. I'm angry that you are made to feel that way. It's just not true. Listen to us. We support you. You rock girl. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise, inside or outside.

(((((((((((((((((((((wantto))))))))))))))))))))))

thank you...more than you know. i'm afraid she's right. i can't ever be sure of self.

love ya,

kd

She is NOT right, she's really not. You may not be able to be sure of self. But be sure of this. You are totally awesome. Don't let her tell you other wise. Stand up and tell her that. And tell her to talk to me if she doesn't believe it.

thank you ((((((((((((((((wantto))))))))))))))))

i was supposed to be resting tonite because i'm sick. i've been sick. i sent the baby to parents against better judgment, to get slammed...bad.

i wasn't meant to rest. i wasn't meant to be ok. i wasn't meant to be cared about.

thanks for such kind words.

So sorry that you got slammed and treated badly! You never ever deserve that type of treatment.

Sometimes when I've been slimed by people who really should keep their mouths shut, when I am home alone, I do a raspberry pfffffffffft loud with my tongue stuck out, a big ol' rejection of the goopy ucky drecky stuff they tried to make me carry.

I take a shower and imagine all the nonsense going down the drain.

I figure out ways to comfort and soothe myself, treat myself good.

You are a good mama, you deserve rest and caring and compassion. Your decisions and choices are good. And you get to have wonderful rest and sleep.

*time to sing a lullabye for you.......lullabye......lullabye.....la la la la la la la........*

Sarah

I'm sorry you have been hurt, kimmy.
remember all the people here who do appreciate you and are awed by wwhat you are achieving.
caroline

Kimmy,

I think you are the bees knees.

Iris

Heres a X if you want it and a cuddle

((((((((((((((((((((kimmy)))))))))))))))))))))))

((((((((((Kimmy)))))))))))
w_i Vicki deedee and Willow

i think you're awesome too kd. anyone who thinks otherwise can come talk to me. you've always been good and kind to me and reached out to help me when i was floundering. please take care. know that you are a good and wonderful person even if some people are blinded by their own small-minded thinking to see it.

(((((((((((((((((kd)))))))))))))))))))))

-shadow

you were meant to rest.
you were meant to be ok.
you were meant to be cared about.

when you say slammed are you referring to the mother? or more comments from daughter? either way it is NOT good to have these things being said when you need rest due to illness.

hopeful that you've gotten some rest between when you wrote that and now. so sorry things continue on so horribly with the mother unit. we'd pour water on her and melt her a la wizard of oz if we thought it would help.

((((kd)))))

added after posted---we KNOW you're trying sweetie and it is very obvious to us. we can see your efforts and hope you continue coming here when in doubt of your abilities as the forums will remind you of how far you've come and just what you are capable of.