Hospital saga continues

So I am waiting for someone from the CPN service to call me about my appointment and the fact that I have had no support. I was told last Friday that she was on holiday till last Tuesday. I passed on the times when I could be contacted. So far, nothing. Not even an attempt to contact me, either at home or at work. Tomorrow morning is my biggest window of availability. I have emailed the person who is dealing with my complaint to let him know I have heard nothing. I hope that might prompt someone into trying to call me. But then again, maybe I am worthless? They are certainly making me feel that way.

C

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You are certainly not worthless, you are very worthwhile. You are a good person dealing with bad circumstances.

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I'm sure it is more due to disorganisation than the fact that you're worthless, because you're not. After all, what else can we expect of the NHS?

Thank you Sarah. I'm not feeling very worthwhile tonight. I'm feeling pretty useless and worthless. Hard day at work on top of a long day yesterday (left about 9pm after our Open Evening). Thanks for the positive comments - I'm trying to believe them.

Caroline

Thank you Gem.

thank you Silver. I know what you mean. Unfortunately I keep being promised contact and then left waiting. It's so hard to deal with; part of me is constantly on edge waiting for a call.

Caroline

Caroline, you are not worthless, its the blody system here in the UK thats worthless. Please keep going with this

atg

thank you atg.

I'm struggling tonight, big time.

Caroline

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I KNOW just how you feel. Very frustrating, indeed!

TGC

NOOOOOOO you are NOT worthless. Not worthless AT ALL. *Superhugs* Sorry I wasn't around. PM me if you want.

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Thanks.

Caroline

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Thank you for understanding.

Caroline

Thanks, tamzin - both for the reassurance and for the hugs.

Caroline

Bummer!

Just to add to the pressure, I just found out that my daughter's parents' evening appointment is the same day and time as my next appt with my GP (which I REALLY need to keep) - and they are a half hour journey apart. It's so difficult to get appointments with my GP that I am probably going to have to wait at least a week for another appointment. Add to that my younger daughter has drama club (she is in the performance they are preparing and that finishes at 5pm in a third place! Oh joy! I need to decide whether to try to change the parents' eveing appt or my dr's appt. Think I will try to call the school and see if they have an earlier slot available.

Caroline

Yeah that would be best... and you don't have to go if you can't get there on time. Quite a few parents didn't turn up for their child's Parent's Evening when I was in school.

Good luck. I hope you get it sorted. It seems realy tough being a parent.

Thanks, Silver.

I've actually found it is OK now - we got the dates confused and Tuesday is parents' eve while Thursday is my dr's appt.

It's a bit difficult for me to miss this parents' evening as I am a teacher at one of the feeder schools! Wouldn't look good. Anyway, I'm looking forward to hearing how well she is doing. Apparently she has been identified as being in the top 5% of the school, ability wise.

Caroline

Yeah, it can be tough at times. There's a lot of pride and pleasure too though.

C

Well, no phone call today so at lunch time I tried phoning her. Turns out she is on a course. I learnt a lot actually, including that they have closed my case and that the reason for not referring me for psychotherapy is that they no longer offer this to patients with certain conditions as it takes too long! However, I spoke to someone who seemed helpful. She suggested the dramatherapy and my response was, as at my assessment, "No!", but she said that it is actually not just drama therapy it is psychodynamic therapy and can be art or writing or role play or drama etc. The writing is possible for me. She offered to present my case at the next team meeting she is attending, which will be in about 10 days.
Nonetheless, I have now moved on a stage. I'm so tired of being messed around (there was a lot more I found out which was not positive) that I have decided to make a formal complaint rather than continuing with this informal one where I seem to be getting nowhere.

Very drained tonight - tired, weepy. Had to go out of school at lunchtime and walk off some of my anxiety. It helped a bit. I need to get this sorted and out of my school life. I'm functioning only by putting the lid on all my emotions at work.

Caroline

*Hugs* Can we have a catch up chat?

Caroline,

Good luck with the hospital tomorow. Please let me know how you get on.

Atg

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I understand the frustration--
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Caroline,

Sending you positive wishes..... and good luck for today,

Fuzzy