Feeling guilty

An old girlfriend of mine called me today. We have much history, but I put some distance between us for many reasons. She and I always knew that the other was there for each other for the really big things. She would call out of the blue and talk, etc. We just live two very different lives now.

She called this morning at 7:20 crying and saying that she needed help. I couldn't get ahold of anyone after I woke up! Finally I got ahold of her son this evening and found out she's in the hospital.

I called her father and we talked for such a long time. She had very difficult childhood and we shared much. She's such a strong person. She still is and will get through this. Her father said that she was having panic that meds wouldn't help and it wouldn't end. They admitted her. I'm worried there's more to it. I know her.

I feel so bad that I didn't hear that phone call. She called me because she knew that I'd understand and be there for her and I wasn't. I'm not blaming myself, but I still feel so badly for her. She's gone through alot and has still raised two children on her own and is quite the successful business woman. She's dealt with entirely too much for entirely too long.

She's going to need a good friend who's been where she's at and I will be there for her. Knowing her history, I know that she has quite a battle ahead of her right now. It's come to the point where she can't run anymore. I remember that time so clearly for me.

I still hear her voice crying into the phone. She was so scared. She shows fear of nothing and was so scared.

Send her healing thoughts with me?

Thank you!

KD

KimmyDawn,

You have such a sensitive heart. You are right. she needs a friend, and she has one. You. i'm sure she is very greatful to have you in her life.

thank you (((((((((((((((((EV))))))))))))))))))))

I have real concerns right now.

Thank you again,

KD

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Take extra good care of yourself during this too.

Thank you so much (((((((((((((((((Sarah)))))))))))))))))))

ps...whispering I'm glad you're here.

Be safe,

KD

There is nothing worse when you miss a cry for help. Im sure your friend will know that you were just not able to get to her at that point. I hope things get better for her real soon and Im sure you will be able to help.

Im sending her some kind thoughts and good wishes

Audrey

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((((( to you and your friend)))))))))) I am sorry that she is going through this but I am glad that she has you to reach out too and understand what she is feeling. I agree with SarahL, be sure to take care of you too through this as well.
Melinda

KD, you are a very carering person. You have such a loving heart. Anyone that calls you friend knows that you are amazing. Take good care of yourself during this time. I will keep you and your friend in my daily intentions.
Lilith

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I'm sending prayers and healing thoughts for both of you. No guilt about missing the phone call! Ok? She needs to be in the hospital to get settled and they can help her there.

If she needs to talk to anyone about the panic, remember, I have Panic Disorder and I am more than willing to help in anyway I can.

Hugs,

Jan

Kimmy you are human and didnt get the call in time..NOW is when you are up to bat and you have said you will be there for her..I hope YOU can stay safe around HER issues?

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thank you so much ((((((((((((((((((everyone))))))))))))))))))))

I still haven't heard any more, so I'm assuming she must still be in the hospital.

Thank you all so much. Yes, I will continue to take care of me in the ways that I've learned to.

I just love y'all so much!

KD

Us'ns holding you'uns in our heart.

We love you, too.

Jan

Kimmy, I reread your post...so I'm having to guess that you didn't answer the phone but heard her message? You could call her at the hospital... make sure her dad has you added to the allow listing... she might be able to share with you something she is holding back from IRL...and might need to face while she is in a safe place?

Anyway, you could write to her... that would be safe for you, too... and still be beneficial to her. You are still there for her (though you may have learned how to keep yourself safer over the years...) TC