[Monty_girl]

yesterday was bad bad bad. someone was very mean and caused lots of trouble. things got broke. and h was extremely mad. i didn't mean any of it. i really didn't. i don't know what happened. all i know is h was extremely mad and yelling. i hate this so much. i don't know what we did. i just know i was very bad and mean.

monty

[kimmydawn]

oh ((((((((((((((((monty)))))))))))))))))

when do you see t again? would sitting down with pen and paper work to find out what's going on? or go to safe place with safe things to see if anyone says? maybe if those don't work, t can help with it?

love ya!

KD

[Monty_girl]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((( KD ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I get to see T again this week. Been over a month since I've seen him. Around Thanksgiving I think, right before. Long time.

Think I'm just going to have to let T deal with this. Is too much for me to handle on my own. I'm hanging on by dentalfloss with my teeth right now. Just so tired. To be honest I'm popping in and out so much I'm not surprised about the blow out yesterday.

Love Ya, Monty

Sorry to hear things are so rough.

[wanttoheal]

(((((((((((((((((((monty)))))))))))))))))
I am so sorry. I hope t can help through this. He's a great t and I bet he will have some advice for ya'll. Good luck and I am thinking of you.

[January]

Oh Monty!!!!

(((((((((((((((((( Monty Friend )))))))))))))))))))))))

I don't know what to tell you other than to call your T and move your appointment up. I'm here for you. Pm anytime. We'll talk.

Hugs and love,

Jan

[allthegirls6]

((((((((((((((((((monty)))))))))))))))

This sounds just awful. Im thinking of you. Get in contact with T and see if you can move it forward. Its sounds like you need to talk about it and your T will be able to help.

atg

[Monty_girl]

Thank You my Purple Friend. Things a bit better today. Just keeping going till T thursday

Monty

[Monty_girl]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((( Wantt ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Miss ya

Maybe I can stick my head out of the sand soon.

[Monty_girl]

(((((((((((((((((((( Thank You Jan )))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Means a lot. My appointment is thursday night. He's not in the office on wednesday. He's at his other job then and I am the only one he see's on thur. ( part-time T) But thursday will be here really soon. Let ya know how it goes.

Monty

[Monty_girl]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((( atg )))))))))))))))))))))))))))

There isn't any way to move up the appointment. But it's thursday. And I think it's tuesday??? Not sure about that. Reality is been a problem of late. Have to keep checking and rechecking. Not to sure about things. That's getting to me as well. Don't know what's what. making me feel real crazy.

Monty

[Gemstone]

{{{{Montygirl}}}}}

Hope things are going a little better for you after t.

[silver_queen]

(((((((((((((( Monty ))))))))))))))

I hope things are a little better now? Not being certain of days etc is a real pain, I know!

[shadowdancer]

(((((((((((monty)))))))))))))

i'm sorry things are so rough for you right now. if i can help in any way, let me know. just take it easy on yourself because it seems like something fairly big is going on and you're probably gonna feel in and out of it until it's resolved. i think letting your T help you handle it is a great idea. i hope that goes okay.


shadow

[Monty_girl]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((( GEMSTONE ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Things seem to be a little better. Still just out of sorts, ya know? Just walking in a cloud of fog. Light headed emptiness.

Monty

[Monty_girl]

((((((((((((((((((((((((((( Silver )))))))))))))))))))))))))

Just so so. Please just don't ask for the day, time or year. Other then that, I can fake smile my way through it.

Monty

[Monty_girl]

(((((((((((((((((((((((( Shadow ))))))))))))))))))))))

Think for the last several months I've been so depressed that I've been able to block everything out. ( Is my best defense I have. I've learn to use it well and many times. )

Now that I'm back on an anti-d everything is come up where I have to deal with it and not put it away. Just hard to face things I don't want to face in the first place. Yeah DID still stinks !!

Monty

(((((Monty))))
our Pdoc changed our meds and we're worse than before! w_i can't seem to get her s**t together no how. I've been fronting alot and it stinks. H is always asking "who am I talking to" I say "it's me" . But hang in there--just deal with what needs to be. At least you are awake--w_i can't even do that!!!
Vicki

[Monty_girl]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((( Vicki ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Sounds like you do a great job at helping Vicki, That's what w_i needs more then anything.

Sometimes I forget that. T reminds me that everyone inside has a reason for being and they are only there to help. But gets hard to remember that at times.

Monty