[LILITH]

My life is full of bad stuff that keeps happening and happening... did not get much sleep, but what else is new... Did my morning routine.... Got a phone call from the Nursing Home....my mother was not doing well Blood Pressure is 280/117 .... nothing seemed to be working...... she was transported to the hospital. ....It seems like I never get a break......I stay just a bundle of nerves....my heart beats so fast I can't stand the pain.....of it all ..... today i feel like I want to go away and stay..... Mom is in guarded condition.....let's see what the next 24 hours will bring.......I am drowning in my own fears and tears...

[SongBirdandDaisy]

Lilith

[bipolar_bear]

(((((((((((Lilith)))))))))))))))) I am so sorry.

[kimmydawn]

oh (((((((((((((((((lilith))))))))))))))))))))

many thoughts and wishes to you...safe, gentle and warm. wrap yourself in them and know you're cared for.

KD

[hillbunnyb]

Lilith, So sooo sorry your Mom is having such high BP. Scarey. You have so much compassion for others. So many folks around you depend on your support...... I wish I could send a herd of Amazons to share your load, make it all better. bumpies for you )))))))) ) ) Lilith ((((((( ( ( (

[Fuzzybear]

(((((( Lilith ))))))

[LILITH]

I think I can't take it anymore.....I am at the bottom of ther barrel...... I am in a hole that is bing covered in dirt.....there is no more I do for myself or others.... I just don't have the strength......I tried and tried..... but I have failed.....

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((lilith))))))))))))))))))

honey, i know this is so hard. i know how it feels to be so mentally and physically tired that you KNOW you can't take another dang thing, and that's when it seems to pile.

just know you're not alone, sweetie, and are cared for.

is there anyone you have in real life to be there with you right now? we're here and listening. we care.

if i could come and sit with you just for you to slump and rest, i would... can you imagine that i am doing that? can you just slump and know you're not alone in those thoughts and i'm saying "i know. i know." it is hard. it hurts. it will not always be so hard or hurt so much.

love,

kd

[LILITH]

I keep waiting for the day.... I have know pain, sorrow, hurt, abuse and aloneness all of my life....I can't see any hope right now ..... I am at the end, where the mind can't recover..... I wish you were here KD..... I wish that I had a friend that understood me.... and just wanted to hold my hand in comfort.... Nancy I love her dearly but her brain does not function anymore.... I have children but they are young and have their own lives..... i am to complicated for them to help me.....

[kimmydawn]

just imagine my being there, holding your hand, sitting beside you as you "let it go". know that i'm understanding every word you're saying as i've been through most of it myself. know that i still get there sometimes too and it does get better. it might not stay that way, or be fine, but it does relieve just a bit.

if you need to pm to say things that you might not want to here, you can.

i hope you're safe right now, lilith.

KD

[stormgirl]

(((((((((((LILITH)))))))))))))

I have not known you long, but during this time I have come to see you as a strong, compassionate and incredibly brave woman. You have obvious love and compassion for those around you. You are able to acknowledge that things are tough and do what you need to do to get through and keep safe.
You have endless talents and gifts to offer everyone and yourself.............you just can't see them cause you can't see much from that damn black hole ay............yep, been there myself plenty of times, and it sooooooooo seems like its never going to end, doesn't it...............well, my friend, it does end, you wake up one day and you realise that maybe you laughed a couple of times, or maybe you called a friend when you've been isolating for ages or maybe you just said something kind to yourself and actaully believed it.

....it does happen, and it will happen for you....you will find the magick in yourself to elude the darkness.

...in the words of Sinead O Conner

'May the Goddess dance beside you.'

We think you are great..........don't ever be afraid to ask for anything you might need from us...we are here.

You raise me up

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be

by Josh Groban

You can listen to the song here: http://www.cenara.com/users/ce01922/page7.html

</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
I've learned -
that you can keep going
long after you think you can't.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> H. Jackson Brown, Jr
</font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
I've learned -
that even when you think you have no more
to give, when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> H. Jackson Brown, Jr

You can do it, Lilith!!!!

(((((((((((((Lilith)))))))))))))))

Lilith, we are here for you. Like KD said, try to imagine us sitting beside you and listening.
Gentle hugs.
C

[SongBirdandDaisy]

May your spirit guide hear your pain and give you just a little repreive. I am so sorry you are having so much pain and loneliness. I have tears for you.

Songbird

[LILITH]

And I need each and everyone of you........It is so hard for me to let people see that I am weak.....or ask for help...... but I do...... everytime I thing I am at the lowest point I drop to new lows..........Thank you, Thank you. Thank you.........

[allthegirls6]

lilith,

seems like the worse time for you. I hope things get better soon. Im thinking of you

Lilith, we need each other and are here for each other.
Be gentle with yourself and ask for the help you need.
C

[January]

((((((( Lilith )))))))

I am here for you, too. You are very good and very important.

Hugs,

Jan

[LILITH]

Thank you! SongbirdandDaisy.........I am trying to be up but I just can't get there..... Thank you for caring''

[LILITH]

Thank you, for caring...... bipolar_bear.....

[LILITH]

Thank you, KD I wish I was as strong as you..... you are my hero.....my hole is swallowning me up.....
Lilith

[LILITH]

Hello, Hillbunny.....thank you for caring......

[LILITH]

Fuzzybear Thank you for caring.....

[LILITH]

Ay, Hello Stormgirl.....Thank you for caring, I keep waiting for this cloud to lift for the goodness to come in..... for the sun to shine... the good to out weigh the bad...... you know that you are at the end when there is no more rope.......

[LILITH]

Poetrylover..... what beautiful words that Josh has.... it makes me think......it is a song of hope...... thank you for caring...