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i don't know what has been happening to me just lately, i really feel like i am losing it. i have been sick a long time, but i have never dissociated so much in such a short period of time before. i am just sort of going in and out of consciousness, like i'm in a trance. i can't keep track of what is going on, and i think i am doing things without remembering doing them. i'm seeing my old psychologist on friday, but it's worrying me. she is convinced i have DID, and i have spent a year trying to deny it, and i'm worried that when she finds out about all this, she will think her suspicions confirmed.

I know it is hard but maybe you can let your t decide your dx? I know it is hard not to stress over what it may or may not be but it really is better to just let them do thier job. No matter what, you are not changing, it is just some label that someone assigns so they can treat it more effectively. The important thing is to get all the support you need. I am glad you are going to see her this Friday. Let us know how it goes. Take care.

i saw my regular psychiatrist this morning and i was so all over the place, she started ranting about me respecting her and boundaries and it pissed me off and i got up and left and told her i never wanted to see her again. idon't know what's happening to me, i asked my mum and my best friend and they both said it would be agood idea if i went back into hospital for a bit. i think they might be right, i want to go this very second, but i have to wait till tomorrow morning at least. if i go in tomorrow it means i will miss out on seeing my old psychologist. may be it's fate saying i shouldn't go back to seeing her. please stop my mind from straying and wandering and coming and going and i don't know what's happening i neeed to talk to someone who will help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(((newwest)))
take care and remember it is just a label and sometimes those labels help us in realizing we are not alone..
that wer are not freaks and doomed cos there is so many ppl that experience similar things that they gave it a name.. its not new and there are ways to cope and therapies to heal..we are all ppl in the end..

i hate it so i got drnk and now i'ts 3am and i feel sikc

the alcohol will wear off
it doesnt take the prob away just blocks it for a while cos it gives u other probs thats our great friend alcohol thou..

and its ok to do that
its ok to fall
u just need to find help sometimes gettin back up
if u have that help use it
if u dont find help
so when u fall u can get back up
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Hang in there New West
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i took myself to hospital yesterday because i am just spinning out. nobody understands what is happening, because nobody can see inside my head, and i can't explain what's in my head. anyway, because i assured them i would not self-harm and i'm not suicidal, they gave me 4 hours leave today, so i'm at home for a bit. i have email on my phone now, but i doubt very much that anyone wants to keep in contact with me while i'm away, so i am not gonna bother putting it here. ciao.

I am sorry you are feeling so all alone. I am glad you are getting some help though. I will be thinking about you.