[Claritytoo]

Spent the whole day at the beach. It was a blast. Warm weather, empty beach, and the sound of the waves rolling into the shore. Great day.

[Gr3tta]

Had a horrible incident with an interject and a difficult switch. Scared.

Feeling rejected, ridiculed, and called a liar. I'm barely hanging on.

So tired of feeling with all this. Alcohol doesn't work. Alternatives are a big trigger.

[Kiya]

my wolf child snapped at a friend's dog.... sigh. glad it was a calm dog that didn't even notice.

[kaliope]

still sick. now i am looking at cancelling t tomorrow. due to conflicting schedules, we have missed our last two appointments so this would make three. but i dont want to get her sick.

Ulcer is hurting. Can't see doctor till I get some money. Feeling really misunderstood everywhere. Just want to cry but it won't happen, they won't let me.

[Gr3tta]

In addition to did, i have anorexia. Its interfering in my did treatment im told. My t suggested having someone who can eat out, and keep them out long enough that purging wont be an option. I understand the suggestion, but i cant make it work.

[Claritytoo]

I realized that much of my anxiety is a fear of not being able to support myself. I had to retire and my income was cut in half. I have downsized everything in my life but this month was difficult. I will make it, I always have, so I am focusing on that, and that seems to lift our spirits. It is expensive living in NY but I have grandchildren that I will not be forced to leave. I start looking for a job but my bad days cause me to think that I can't do it. I will see.

[kaliope]

my anxiety is working overtime too. i have been sick over a week now. i have been watching all the shows on my dvr. they have created lots of anxiety for me when bad things happen. i wonder why shows can have happy endings. i know my t would tell me not to watch them. but then i have to ask, how is not watching them any different than holing up in my home. isnt that giving into my anxiety and limiting my world all the more?

[Kiya]

Originally Posted by Gr3tta

In addition to did, i have anorexia. Its interfering in my did treatment im told. My t suggested having someone who can eat out, and keep them out long enough that purging wont be an option. I understand the suggestion, but i cant make it work.

t's are good at coming up with suggestions.... we kinda need t's who are DID who 'get it'.

[Kiya]

Nearly went to Psych ER tonight... was overcome by several alters who acted out in self harm behaviors and threatened me and tried to talk me in to doing things against my will. But a convo with T changed that. Even tho she said "yes you DO need to go in", somehow just that connection was enough to get enough grounded footing to pull myself back together. I've had another alter swap since, but that is ok. She's not trying to hurt me. Rocky night, but I think I'll come thru.

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I'm feeling like in a corner, misunderstood and rejected. I don't care. I'm trying to be nice.

[Kiya]

hoping things get better for you soon!

Thank you hun, I'm feeling better. I'm not really sure what all that's about, but thank you.

[wheredidthepartygo]

my little sister had her prom today. one of those things we'd always talk about happening like "can u believe one day she'll graduate!" and now she is
time flies when u dissociate and can't remember anything :P

Originally Posted by wheredidthepartygo

my little sister had her prom today. one of those things we'd always talk about happening like "can u believe one day she'll graduate!" and now she is
time flies when u dissociate and can't remember anything :P

what is she planning to do next?

are you going to the graduation?

Woke up in different clothes this morning, like that's a bother. I'm so fracted I can't do my job. I can't pull it together. I don't know what to do. The working part is not coming.

[wheredidthepartygo]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

what is she planning to do next?


are you going to the graduation?

for the prom i walked her along in her dress for the actual graduation ceremony... yeah i'll go, even though it's such a drag watching some 500 kids you don't know cross a stage haha
she's going to start some simple college classes in September (she has down syndrome) she's pretty excited

[lucidity11]

I feel good today

Originally Posted by wheredidthepartygo

for the prom i walked her along in her dress for the actual graduation ceremony... yeah i'll go, even though it's such a drag watching some 500 kids you don't know cross a stage haha
she's going to start some simple college classes in September (she has down syndrome) she's pretty excited

well, good luck to her.

i hope it works out for her

We're all fighting and they're posting on my account untrue stuff. (greatest Faker post). I'm embarrassed and hurt. It's not my fault that they don't do their job, I'm not stopping them. Steve doesn't like me. I'll be back later, maybe.

Steve went to jail! He's been my abuser from forever trying to ruin me. I've been crying for hours out of joy. Please forgive us. The committee has finally seen the light. Things feel different. I hope to make up for our crazy.

I'm getting the feeling my authenticity is blown because of others. I'm sorry. I meant everything I said. I love you all. This is an ongoing battle of me against myself like it forever was. Guardian alters have him under control, but like that's going to last?

I'm just going to deal with me on my lonesome. Thanks everyone for being there. Luv.

Hey yall, Amanda got mad because I name dropped her sorry. I'm just crazy. Thanks for being there for me. I love you all. Xoxoxo