Originally Posted by TrailRunner14

Just realized that I didn't finish my thought. There is a software/app that types what you speak. I'm not sure the name of it. I will look it up. I was just thinking that it would allow your thoughts to flow more freely. Just a thought.

is it not called dragon?

or I think it has the word dragon in it somewhere

I heard their's 1 where you have to train it to recognize your voice first, and then you can use it

wednesdau and i'm wondering where all the time went.

6 flashbacks in 2 days (or something like that) really messes you up eventually in terms of time and memories

never the less, I need to order groceries today

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

is it not called dragon?


or I think it has the word dragon in it somewhere


I heard their's 1 where you have to train it to recognize your voice first, and then you can use it

Yes! I couldn't remember the name of it.

Here's a link about it.

http://www.nuance.com/talk/talk-it-d...ware-types-it/

Originally Posted by TrailRunner14

Yes! I couldn't remember the name of it.

Here's a link about it.

Talk It - Dragon Software Types It

I am glad I could help out.

(I do have a brain, lol!)

when it wants to work it will.

anyway, the weather forcast, for once, is actually right

it was predicted we may have a bit of a storm, and here it is.

actually pretty greatful for it.

all of us here love the cooler weather and hope it lasts for a while

(winter's ending soon, so soon we'll be back to the milder stuff, I guess)

so this extra coolness in the middle of febuary is nice

[Luce]

Graduated today. So that's over then.
Back home tomorrow. Long drive. Be good to see my kids again.

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by Luce

Graduated today. So that's over then.
Back home tomorrow. Long drive. Be good to see my kids again.

Congratulations!!! Have a safe drive home!

another week over without even a wink of sleepp

I am glad it's friday though

seemed a really tough week (but maybe i'm saying that because half of it was lost to family flashback stuff)

I have been able to keep up with my journal, i've written in it every day this week. it's a great restart effert

nothing else to say

[TrailRunner14]

I hope it's ok to put this here. I just need someone to hear it.

It could be triggering - violence.

All of my safe places are going away. My trail is a place I've been able to go to and "not be" I've always felt safe there. Well, except for a few snake sightings. This morning a runner was shot while she was running in a neighborhood not far from my trail. From the news post on FB it seems that it was just random. A guy in a SUV drove by and shot her in the leg. What kind of person would do something like that!!? Now I'm scared to go back to my trail.

I can't wrap my brain around it!

[Luce]

Originally Posted by TrailRunner14

Congratulations!!! Have a safe drive home!

Thanks. Turns out I had a flat tyre, in a remote area with no cell phone coverage. I thought I totally had it under control... unloaded the car, took out the emergency wheel, jacked up the car etc.... but the nuts had been put on with a pneumatic drill and I was unable to budge them no matter how hard I tried.
I had to flag down help. Got it all sorted and drove the remaining two hours very cautiously on my emergency wheel.

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by Luce

....but the nuts had been put on with a pneumatic drill and I was unable to budge them no matter how hard I tried.
I had to flag down help.

A trick my dad taught me is to keep a metal pipe, about a foot and a half long or so, with the jack and stuff. You can slip it over the end of the wrench thingie and it will give you more leverage, cuz you can stand and put your body weight into it. It's something, just in case there isn't anyone around to help or the road is completely empty.

Puck

[Claritytoo]

I forced myself out of the house today. That was good. I was starting to get thoughts in my head asking us what we are doing here. We can't go back to NY. So now we are here. It scares me to think there is nothing more for me to do.

[Luce]

It sounds really hard, Clarity. We've been where you are right now, and it is very confusing and disorientating. Once when we moved cities we were still having some alters 'catch up' to the news 10 years later. 0_o (obviously ones who didn't come out much). It was very hard for many of us because lots did not want to leave where we were and did not want to be where we ended up.
I am sorry you are having such a hard time.

[TrailRunner14]

Well. I just saw an update about the runner. The update said that it did appear to be random.

I just can't understand and this is doing some scary things to me!

[ruh roh]

TR14--that's terrifying. I hope they catch the guy. I get unhinged whenever I learn about incidents against walkers, joggers, bikers.

[TrailRunner14]

Thank you RR for hearing me. I'm trying to sort this out.

Thank you.

[TrailRunner14]

My heart is sad. I'm angry but I can't find it inside myself.

I feel very vulnerable. That makes me angry because there is no one here to hear my heart and understand it. That makes me angry but I can't find it.

Too many things triggering me at one time.

I AM going to my trail tomorrow. I will not let this shut that down. I would welcome company if someone would like to go with me.

[Luce]

Oh my. No wonder you are triggered. That is shocking.
I admire you going back to your trail. I'm thinking of you, TR. Be well, be safe.

[Claritytoo]

Yesterday I needed to fill out forms for social security. It was difficult to answer the questions because much of what is asked depends on who is out. I drive but others don't. We cook just not on the top of the stove because we sometimes forget we are cooking. It's safer in the oven. I don't want to say DID. My new t doesn't know much about it. But I have realized I am going to have to tell her some things about session. And that if I get up and leave not to take it personal. I don't trust her. I don't know anything about mental health policy in SC. I did google and I didn't like so much of what they said. But I can't live in my car.

In a couple days it's Mardi Gras (Fat Tuesday) then Lent on Wednesday. We are giving up alcohol for Lent...even though we aren't Catholic.....but it's just as good a date as any other.

we don't bother with lent, just like we don't bother with new year's resolutions

it's all so blah. how did that all start anyway? (new year's resolutions?)

all we can say about today is another more than crap week is over, and the only thing we did today was watch the lion king 2 (even that was because we have to give it back tomorrow), if we didn't, we'd have probably just sat their all day twiddling our thumbs

We live in New Orleans and it's like a in your face thing right now. All over the news, work, stores, hell on traffic with parades in every city...this the City of Drunkeness.

We gettin drunk tonight. Being drunk is the only way to deal with this goolish craziness. It quets the brain....lets us survive the evening and dulls us for the morning. It makes us easier to stand ourselves...
So I dont get why we dont want to drink.

Possible trigger:

it is a sad day for us, because our friend steven has his funeral today.

though we can't be their, we have done him a cd of music we know he likes, so we hope that where ever he is, he's looking down thinking.. well, how nice. how nice indeed.

sadly, it's raining outside.

not the nicest day for it, but I hope it all goes well.

[Claritytoo]

Couldn't get out of the house today except to walk my dog for a block. It's sunny and warm and I want to go out but i can't do it. And I don't know why. I feel fear in my chest. I am going to tell this to my new t. I have an appointment on wednesday. I don't really want to go there either. What is wrong with me.

[Luce]

Had t today for the first time since we've been back. it was... triggery.
I hate being triggered and 'altered' in front of others. I would much rather just stay as myself.
Tomorrow I meet with T and the psychiatrist doing the assessment. T warned me we will need to talk 'specifics' (about the abuse).

Oh yay.

Grump.

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by Luce

Had t today for the first time since we've been back. it was... triggery.
I hate being triggered and 'altered' in front of others. I would much rather just stay as myself.
Tomorrow I meet with T and the psychiatrist doing the assessment. T warned me we will need to talk 'specifics' (about the abuse).

Oh yay.

Grump.

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and hoping all goes well. I'm sorry that it's going to be hard for you. I wish for you there was another way. Maybe plan some nice things for you after you leave.