where is everyone?

this thread and the questions thread seemed to have died

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

where is everyone?

this thread and the questions thread seemed to have died

We've been busy....too much anxiety and stress at home and work.....always trying to not get triggered through ptsd and did on other antagonistic people because once they show up...it's good bye everybody.

So sad...its just me and my dog....no human contact....except the voices of Others which isn't the same.

My neighbor is triggering again...trying to not hurt him.

Plus mosquitos are out because it's like 76 degrees out.

[childofchaos831]

Ugh mosquitos are the worst. They aren't out here yet, but soon I'm sure. I hope the neighbor is manageable.

Getting tired of losing time. Saw pdoc Friday, talked about some dissociative stuff, mostly si while not aware... main problem is this particular incident of si is a specific symbol that can have certain meanings (good and bad, but I'm assuming bad since it was si in the first place)... near the end of the appt, I started feeling the tell tell "we need to get out of here" pressure in my head. Pdoc and supervisor were asking about any particular meaning this symbol had for me... I really just needed to run at that point. Idk.

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

Ugh mosquitos are the worst. They aren't out here yet, but soon I'm sure. I hope the neighbor is manageable.

Getting tired of losing time. Saw pdoc Friday, talked about some dissociative stuff, mostly si while not aware... main problem is this particular incident of si is a specific symbol that can have certain meanings (good and bad, but I'm assuming bad since it was si in the first place)... near the end of the appt, I started feeling the tell tell "we need to get out of here" pressure in my head. Pdoc and supervisor were asking about any particular meaning this symbol had for me... I really just needed to run at that point. Idk.

they are not as bad as wasps

uggg I hate those things sooo much

and they hurt

[childofchaos831]

I am allergic to wasps... carry an epi pen and everything.

[TrailRunner14]

Today has been one of those "floaty" days. I actually feel like my body is "too big" for me. I went to the gym and knocked out 3 miles hoping that would help.

Not really. Tried journaling earlier and that kind of sucked me into it. Too many opinions and feelings going on internally.

Not sure what else to do to center myself. I feel like I am always flipping out about one issue or another.

Originally Posted by TrailRunner14

Today has been one of those "floaty" days. I actually feel like my body is "too big" for me. I went to the gym and knocked out 3 miles hoping that would help.

Not really. Tried journaling earlier and that kind of sucked me into it. Too many opinions and feelings going on internally.

Not sure what else to do to center myself. I feel like I am always flipping out about one issue or another.

*sighs*

why did we let our journal go, why..

such a good outlet

well we know why we let it go, we ran out of things to write in it

but still,

we miss it

not much to do today, just order groceries (probably a lot of candy)

[Claritytoo]

Just came back from having to pick up a few things. I am still having enough anxiety to make me dizzy. I thought I was going to pass out or just curl up in ball. I barely got home. Right now I am shaking in side and will not leave the house again today. There were too many people. Just too many. Just too many.

[Luce]

I am wanting to see T. My mental energy and efficiency is flagging and yet I am expected to (need to) be operating at 200% for the next two weeks (and the two weeks up to now). Some days I have managed, now, not so much.
Intense 8 hour days of study followed by the expectation of almost every waking moment involved in work too.
I am tired, and not up to the task.

feeling messed up after a flashback

in our world, it feels like we've lost like a whole wee

in reality, we've like... gained a day, but lost it at the same time?

(it's confusing)

we have discovered that alicia has a new obsession

ducks

suddenly she loves them and we have no idea why

we have no idea what happened to the morning

I wasn't here to find out

next thing I know i'm typing on the computer and it's like 2 pm

memory is non existent at this time

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

we have discovered that alicia has a new obsession

ducks

suddenly she loves them and we have no idea why

We love ducks! They are everywhere because we a bird sancuary and we have canals everywhere. We always sees hundreds of ducks quacking and waddling everywhere.

One even begged for food like a dog and wagging it's tail at our local drive in just outside our car door. They are so cute. We shared our burritto wrapping with it.

It's our one day off....and getting rest is not on the schedule...too much housework, shopping, laundry, mechanicing, taxes, paper work to do.

We keep telling ourselves that we are not going to drink today....but then we tend to dis and be drinking anyways.

I want to start life afresh today everyday.

[Claritytoo]

feeling depressed in a scary way. i will have to force myself to get out of the house. yesterday i spend 8 hours watching replays of tv shows and only went outside to walk my dog. this depression feels like a quite storm. i have no where to go. everything is so quite. too quite. last resort there is an er near by. even if i sit in the waiting room that might be enough. but for now i am dumping this out and slowly moving toward walking my don. I haven't been sleeping through the night. maybe this can be from that. i don't feel safe. maybe it is just me

[Claritytoo]

feeling more grounded. maybe breakfast and medication helped. still can't go out yet

[childofchaos831]

Been having problems with dissociating while I'm driving... it's not like a "switching" kind, more of a "spacing out" kind... switching would be preferable, because I know pretty much all the insiders can drive (at least enough to pull off the road or into a parking lot)... but it's like tunnel vision, kind of, and it's freaking me out a bit.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

We love ducks! They are everywhere because we a bird sancuary and we have canals everywhere. We always sees hundreds of ducks quacking and waddling everywhere.

One even begged for food like a dog and wagging it's tail at our local drive in just outside our car door. They are so cute. We shared our burritto wrapping with it.

do you watch peppa pig. when peppa and her friends go for a picnic the ducks always ask for food

it's cute

barely noticed it's valentines day.

passed like an average day for me

actually I think that valentines day is overrated, even if I had someone I don't think i'd dedicate a certain day of the year just to be with them (as it should be every day) *

[childofchaos831]

Pampering ourselves today for Valentine's Day... picking up Chinese take away now, and then gonna go home, and do some art stuff, play on the computer, and take a jacuzzi bath later this evening.

[TrailRunner14]

Originally Posted by childofchaos831

Pampering ourselves today for Valentine's Day... picking up Chinese take away now, and then gonna go home, and do some art stuff, play on the computer, and take a jacuzzi bath later this evening.

Your Valentine Pamper Day sounds so nice!! I hope you enjoyed every bit of it!

[childofchaos831]

Originally Posted by TrailRunner14

Your Valentine Pamper Day sounds so nice!! I hope you enjoyed every bit of it!

We did!

How did yall do with that day? Everybody make it thru?