[TheDragon]

I was wondering what everyone's experience is like with this?

I recently got a notebook that can be used as a journal and means of opening communication between alters at the recommendation of my therapists and psychiatrist who specializes in DID.

I started off by keeping a log of ever 3 hours to check that I wasn't missing time and the idea was that if I was, whoever was out could maybe add something of their own or just check in on the notebook saying what time it was and who it was.

One morning I woke up and someone who's clearly psychotic wrote an extremely creepy and mildly triggering message in all caps and ever since, I've been really weirded out and haven't been using the notebook although I keep meaning to.

Anyone have something similar happen?

This is why i stopped keeping journals. all the hand writings, all the odd drama and yelling at each other insued... it was time to stop. i didnt want written evidence of DID.

Yeah....but hell...it fit right in with....every thing else in life....so in a way it's like normal to us. Like it's a "wow" thing that lasted 6 seconds then so on.

It's hard to keep a journal when the Others could care less....so by the time I check...days of time gones by so what's the use.

But when some did keep log...I felt like I was reading Chinese...it just didnt make sense...
So much I rejected it because it felt weird... so we don't journal.

So......aren't you curious? Aint this the weirdest thing ever? I think so....the granddaddy of all mental illnesses...and we are the lucky ones...wtf?

Anyhow.

How do you want to continue? At least we can talk in head is why we quit writing that now we are on base.

[TheDragon]

Originally Posted by Starry_Night

This is why i stopped keeping journals. all the hand writings, all the odd drama and yelling at each other insued... it was time to stop. i didnt want written evidence of DID.

I'm definitely super super resistant to there being any kind of evidence of DID. Up until recently I always dealt by active denial, but now that I'm getting help and guidance through it I WANT to do everything I can to get better but seeing it in front of me just....I don't know how to deal with it.

[whispers_inthedark]

It kind of works. Not as evidence so much as a way to keep life straight and help with memories, long and short.

[finding_my_way]

i journal, but i don't have super weird/scary things i don't remember writing. i can be very dissociated and write and know i'm writing but not fully remember it when i go back and read it. though there are things over the years i don't remember writing, but that also can just be because so many years have passed combined with having been highly dissociated then.

i used to be able to write poetry before i was able to verbalize things. they still tell a lot about how things are at times now with the others/dissociation which is interesting to me if i go back and read them (rarely because it scares me to). i always feel like i can't verbalize things but can usually find writing that was done that does describe it.

[TheDragon]

Originally Posted by whispers_inthedark

It kind of works. Not as evidence so much as a way to keep life straight and help with memories, long and short.

Before I found the other writing, that's exactly what I was using it for and it definitely help keep things straight because I can never remember what I did when. That's what I want to do again...just hesitant to deal with finding stuff I don't want to see again.

[anais_anais]

I keep a journal and have a very firm rule of never going back to read what is written after one day has passed. If I write a part I know will be useful and safe to read in the future, I circle it. Then I can flip through and look for the circled bits. Otherwise.... I think it would be very dangerous for me.

[kecanoe]

I found journaling to be very helpful as I started to attain some co-consciousness. I would just let whoever wanted to say something to write. It helped me not dissociate so much, it helped me see that I really do have DID, it helped me understand where some parts were coming from.

I would always take my journal in to t appts (I was going 5 days a week at my worst), that helped me stay safe. Can you show someone safe the scary part? I also do not go back and read stuff. I like the idea of circling something that seems important.

[TheDragon]

It seems like not going back and reading stuff works well? I'm definitely more comfortable with the idea of that. Circling important things also seems like a great idea. Thanks for all the input.

[whispers_inthedark]

i dont go back and read things because i get upset. just keep writing going forward unless im in a really good mood or want to see my entries specifically.

[(JD)]

How Journaling Can Improve Your Life? - Well.org

Psychcentral article of DocJohn's

I was going to simply post how journaling is part of the brain detoxing method to rid yourself of toxic thoughts... but only if you make note of the toxic (negative) thought and then counter it, rephrase the thought into a positive.

[TheDragon]

Originally Posted by (JD)

How Journaling Can Improve Your Life? - Well.org

Psychcentral article of DocJohn's

I was going to simply post how journaling is part of the brain detoxing method to rid yourself of toxic thoughts... but only if you make note of the toxic (negative) thought and then counter it, rephrase the thought into a positive.

Thanks for the link, but the reasons and process for journaling for DID are very very different.

Originally Posted by TheDragon

I was wondering what everyone's experience is like with this?

I recently got a notebook that can be used as a journal and means of opening communication between alters at the recommendation of my therapists and psychiatrist who specializes in DID.

I started off by keeping a log of ever 3 hours to check that I wasn't missing time and the idea was that if I was, whoever was out could maybe add something of their own or just check in on the notebook saying what time it was and who it was.

One morning I woke up and someone who's clearly psychotic wrote an extremely creepy and mildly triggering message in all caps and ever since, I've been really weirded out and haven't been using the notebook although I keep meaning to.

Anyone have something similar happen?

I have been writing in a journal on and off since 2010

when I started, it used to be once a day (sometimes more than once), but as I wrote in it more, I found myself repeating the same stuff and depressing myself with it- so stopped

I then realised that I didn't have any friends to talk about things too (I talked to my journal like a friend), so after a few years break I restarted it

maybe not as much as I used to, but I write in it these days maybe once or twice a week

[dlantern]

I'm glad the I don't remember to journal from research didn't hold us back. I think there maybe a writer or someone educated alters who love to express themselves. Despite the issue of arguments that is going to happen anyway because I've tried it away for a while, there are still issues of dealing with folks and ourselves.

[Amyjay]

I used to journal a lot but my journals were filled with really crazy stuff. I sometimes threw my journals away because of what was written in them. My psychologist wants to me to start doing it again, she says it is a good way to build communication between the alters and me but the thought of it terrifies me.

[TheDragon]

Originally Posted by Amyjay

I used to journal a lot but my journals were filled with really crazy stuff. I sometimes threw my journals away because of what was written in them. My psychologist wants to me to start doing it again, she says it is a good way to build communication between the alters and me but the thought of it terrifies me.

That's constantly my problem. I WANT to journal and follow the process to get further in therapy and whatnot, but I can't stop being terrified at the idea of it and it makes it super hard.