[Mountaindewed]

I can never tell if it’s dissociation or if it’s just because I do the same thing every day.

[Amyjay]

I have a tooth abscess, it has swelled one side of my face and is causing intense pain.
I have never able to dissociate dental pain. Broken bones, easy. Cuts, no problem. Dental pain... Nope.
I hurt.

Originally Posted by Amyjay

I have a tooth abscess, it has swelled one side of my face and is causing intense pain.
I have never able to dissociate dental pain. Broken bones, easy. Cuts, no problem. Dental pain... Nope.
I hurt.

((((hugs))))

hoping it will get better for you

another **** day so far

with **** food yesterday and no sleep

Meds being out of whack and messed up has got us...whacked. Real closed up and emotionless like, blank.

Everything is like...whatever.

I wish I had something decent to say

sadly spent most of yesterday evening having flashbacks to the ambulance which was scary

I got out to the shop today to get some washing up powder

probably about my limit

tonight I'm eating chicken wings

I’m aggravate, irritated, disgusted and peed off. Screw this bs.

I am head of myself.

keep thinking tomorrow is friday... it's not, it's thursday

[childofchaos831]

I'd been thinking today was Thursday. And then thinking my appt (which is Thursday) was at 3 instead of 4... I was rushing to cook lunch and eat with the mother so I could get there and then she looked at the calendar and was like, "You don't have anything today, it is Wednesday, right?"

[Claritytoo]

my sister is coming to visit. this is good because i havent seen her in over a year. we talk all the time but i really miss her. i have been having anxiety wondering if i can be me without being others. i havent told her about the dx. i dont want her to treat me any different than she usually does. i used to know how we would be but i am not sure anymore. please be ok for this. please be who she knows. it's important. its everything to me. please

[Amyjay]

Therapy was an incredible waste of her time and mine today. What a complete waste of space. Why do I bother.

Possible trigger:

mother hurling more abuse at me again via email.

I'm not paying any attention to it. she's home for a while (until the end of the month), and is threatening to burn down where I live because she wants me dead and has had no word from anyone if I am dead or not

but I deleted it and ignored it. that woman isn't worth the effert

still unable to control my overeating, still not sleeping and in a lot of chronic pain

my mood would probably be good if it wasn't for my ****ing mother

Yesterday was the worse, I was the worse. Med withdrawal peaked and I was mentally ****ed. Today feels better, but it has only started. Readjusted meds to return to normal dose here in time.

I feel good. My head doesn’t feel like imploding....

[Amyjay]

Raging Vortex I amy be way off base here but is there any possibility at all that it might be an introject alter that is emailing you as your ******? Just wondering as it seems you take lots of precautions against her being able to contact you but she always seems to find your new email... or could it be that a loyal alter is contacting her to let her know your new email addresses?
Sorry, I hope that isn't upsetting for me to ask. Ignore if you need to.

Originally Posted by Amyjay

Raging Vortex I amy be way off base here but is there any possibility at all that it might be an introject alter that is emailing you as your ******? Just wondering as it seems you take lots of precautions against her being able to contact you but she always seems to find your new email... or could it be that a loyal alter is contacting her to let her know your new email addresses?
Sorry, I hope that isn't upsetting for me to ask. Ignore if you need to.

not in this
case.

actually it's just her contacting people I know to ask for the new email, and because she threatens them if they don't give her it, they do.

of course their's the option of cutting comunication with those people, but it will make the abuse worse- and I'm not sure it's a good idea

I apreciate your response

spent the night awake and in pain.

actually don't have much to say

showered today and I feel gross (so gross it is a crime), ate breakfast (less than average), now just posting on here

tonight feels like a proper winter's evening.

I like it..

[Amyjay]

I like winter evenings too!

3 am. A part is blaring music and everyone is yelling and aggravated. Drinking a beer to relax enough to sleep. I hate coming home, it just triggers being mad mainly because of the lazy boy messing and marking up the place. I leave the apt clean and come home to a mess. Red ink marks on walls and doors. WTF?

I’m going crazy insane.

When did all the sticky's appear?

Originally Posted by Amyjay

I like winter evenings too!

weather forcast says that the heatwave we've been having may come back for a while

but I hope not.

this winter weather really helps with me being present

Here in the south, we don’t get cold fronts, we get dry fronts that drop tempetures from the 90’s to the high 80’s. It’s sure amazin what a few degree points a difference it makes. I sure hope it don’t rain.

Originally Posted by AlwaysChanging2

Here in the south, we don’t get cold fronts, we get dry fronts that drop tempetures from the 90’s to the high 80’s. It’s sure amazin what a few degree points a difference it makes. I sure hope it don’t rain.

if it does.. you can send it my way!

love rain..